What if?
two words that change everything.
They hold your potential glory
or your potential death

What if the sun just didn't rise tomorrow?
What if the world just ended right now?
What if your hands were in mine?
What if I wasn't where I'm at now?

Those two little words.
So much hope
yet so much pain

Stick and stones they say
But I think words hurt worse.
They leave lasting scars
They leave me feeling like I'm nothing

But then again
They are what make me whole
They are what make me feel like I can do anything

So what if I just don't care anymore?
What if I care too much anymore?
There's no way to tell.
but I'll just leave it at
What if?

I get the panic
the pain
of losing someone you love

but why was I ever worried
that I would never hear your voice?

Why was I ever worried
that I would never get to see
all the good you're going to do
and all the good I'm going to be

Why was I ever worried
that I would have to do this alone?

I always knew that I had Christ,
But I needed a real life friend.

Why was I ever worried?
I'll tell you quite frankly why.

It's because I was scared of losing you again.

When will it end?
The constant sad of missing you
I've ruined something beautiful
I've lost my best friend

When will it end?
The pain of knowing
That there is always more I could have done
That I'll never have that possibility again

When will it end?
This lump in my throat
Stopping me from letting go
Stopping me from playing the last chord

When will it end?
I don't think it will
and honestly










I don't want it to.

I could never be famous
There's just too much to it
You go from playing small shows
Only your close friends come
You're lucky if you have 10 people there.
It's personal
It's intimate
The music is between you and those few people
It has meaning
Fame kills the intimacy of music
While you can try to preserve it
It will never be the same
I look at some of the bands that I've watched grow
They start out with so much to gain
I want everyone to hear them
But at the same time
I want them all to myself
I want the music to be about me
For me
And while in some part it still is
It suddenly becomes for the whole world too
I don't want to be famous
I want my dream to come true
But I don't want it to be the way that it is now
The way society takes people and changes them
I want who I am to stay
But in the end
If I really want to make my dream come true
If I really want to take the center stage
I guess it's time to change...

Every rose has its thorn
Every child has been born
Every cars got a horn
and Everyone's gotta mourn

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
and while I sit here just growing older
I want to be just a bit bolder
all I want to do each day is hold her

I need to stay focused on the future
Not on making some lurker
Not on making a blooper
I just wish it would please come sooner

Will you be in it?
I'll do what the Lord see's fit.
I've found my home run hit
I won't regret one bit

The weight of the world
on my chest as I watch it swirl
makes me spin, makes me twirl
I hope that it won't make me hurl

The pain of the past
it just seems to last
please heal like a cast
please make it come fast

Then again I'm doing this right
I need to make this my last fight
You're helping to make my life bright
I don't want you out of my sight

In the end, it's all up to time
as I sit and make this silly rhyme
I hope you forgive me of my crime
and bring on the peace sublime

I wake up feeling regret
It stays until the sun sets
The same story every day
I'm wondering how I still feel sane
The visitors that come try to bring good news
But in my mind they only bring more blues

I'm not confined to four square walls
But all I feel to do is bawl
I see the hurt that's in your eyes
but do you see what in my disguise
I try to smile and try not to lie
but deep inside I've felt things die

I love you dearly
I swear I do
You just don't want
What I pursue
You **** my dreams and say their false
You're making it feel like thick square walls

You watched me grow
Reap what you sow
I'm who I am
I've got a plan
I wish you'd see it
But nothing seems fit
To what you want
So I'll just try not to taunt

I love you mom
I love you dad
Just please understand
That yes, I'm sad
I just want help
but not from you
that's why I wish
I'd never flew

This pillow case will never be the same
My heart is low and the tears won't stop
No matter what I'll ever do
I've sealed my fate and I lost you