My heart aches.
Something I've wanted for so long
Spent endless nights dreaming about.
Then it finally started to happen
And just like that,
The dream is crushed.
And I lay here in bed,
In the middle of the day...
Hoping that maybe I'll be ok

My every waking moment has turned to you.
You've brought something back into my life that I wasn't expecting.
Those sudden moments where my breath gets taken away by the very thought of your smile.
I'm encaptured in this gaze where all I see is you.

You're in everything I do now.
Every thought. Every Action.

And it feels so right.
The prayers answered long ago,
now coming to pass and shaping my future.

I hope that you feel this in yourself.
That you might love me half as much as I love you.

Did you know that you made me the happiest person alive?
Did you know that you made me feel again in way I thought I'd lost?
Did you know that you were my show today?
That your beauty held my every gaze on you?
Did you know that when you grabbed my hand I felt calm?
Did you know that when you kissed me, it felt natural?
Did you know that I love you and now I want nothing more than for this to grow?

When I awake it will just be hours before
And here I am lying awake
Not even thinking about where we're going
Just that you'll be there.

I wonder if you're doing the same thing?
If these thoughts are mutual in the slightest?
I would slip into eternity if they were
Clinging to this feeling right now

I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
If you think of me between the long pauses?
Am I as much to you as you are to me,
Or am I alone in this endeavor?

I Think of you.
I pray for you.
You're who I'm chasing.

Do you see it?
Am I showing?

It drives me crazy
But in a good way.
Just thinking of you...
and the peace I find.

And in those moments in between,
That's what I live and die for.
Hoping you feel the same

So there's this girl...
And for the first time in my life
I feel safe.

I've been able to open my heart
To look at her and know that I'm truly not alone.

And I can't help but smile
when I tell her I love her
She says eww.
We're super gross and it's great.

I hope one day to make her mine.
But it will have to wait.
We both must wait patiently.
20 months.

It will all be worth it though.
When I see her smile.
and we share that special bliss.