I am Lost

My soul resonates
with the prettiest and darkest things.
I feel and hurt
and live and rejoice
and die and hate
and forgive.
I do it all
in a whirlwind of emotions so no wonder.
No wonder
I don’t know what’s forward or backwards or even what to say
Or do next.
I am so lost.

i never wanted there to be
a world that existed
where we didn't end up
together in the end.

what have we done?
what have we done?. . .

My eyes watch
as the sky
is painted with colors of
soft blues & white fluffs
to
vivid pinks & dazzling oranges.

Soon to be
pitch blacks & deep violets
with tiny bright lights
speckled on with flicks of His brush.

Soon to be tomorrow,
strokes of
happy yellows & stunning golds.

one that loves
one that believes
one that needs me

how come my feelings grow,
towards someone i barely know?
the more i distance myself from you,
the more they become true

All memories
leave a mark.
They can manifest
from scratches to scars
or the most
beautiful tattoos.

If only I
didn't have to
fade from your view.
I could be a continuous memory
with no end in sight.
It would be a dream that
never had to end.