Not an hour goes by that I don't think about you,
The World is falling apart
But all I want is you
I will always be in the place we met
Waiting for you to return to me.

My heart is crying today
Torrents of tears run down my cheeks
I miss you so deeply
You filled my days with sunshine
Now all that's left are clouds
I miss my beautiful friend
I miss my sunshine
I miss the special beat of my heart
I wish you all the love in the world
Find your happiness and live in joy
My beautiful, beautiful friend.

When the darkness calls
it hits like a tidal wave
of deep black water
engulfing my very core,
washing over every cell
until all is lost.

When the wave settles
all that is left is numbness,
numbness of my heart,
numbness of my mind.
My eyes try to reach out to the world
but all that can be seen is grey.

When the light calls
it fills my soul with a blinding light,
warming my entirety
like a blazing furnace,
engulfing my spirit
until all is well.

When the light takes over
words rush through my mind,
bird song is so sweet,
colours are so intense.
My eyes reach out to the world
and all is beautiful.

My insanity is my sanity
day is night,
night is day.
I wouldn't change a thing about it
because this is me.

I miss waking up to you,
I miss falling asleep thinking about you,
I miss our laughter,
I miss our tears,
I miss your stories,
I miss your calmness,
I miss your kindness,
I miss your kinks,
I miss your love,
I miss you my love,
I miss you.

All by chance I found a candle,
It stood so perfectly and it's flame shined so bright.
The warmth of it's glow warmed my soul, As it slowly burned it melted my heart.
Now the wick is dying and it's glow is fading away.
My heart cries as it breathes one last breathe.
It's light and warmth may have left my side,
but my love will always remain.

I didn't want you to blow my mind.
I didn't want you to make my heart explode.
You walked away from the carnage
And now I'm left picking up the pieces.

This old heart
Has beat a lifetime of beats,
Cried a torrent of tears,
And roared with exuberance.

This old heart
Has loved you for a lifetime,
Has yearned for your love,
And has melted into your soul.

This old heart
Will forever be yours.

An angel entered my life
and set my soul alight.
He brought me into the light
with his warmth, kindness and laughter.
I left the darkness and found the light
and now my world is beautiful and bright.
Now it is time for him to leave
and save another soul
but I will always hold his love
in my heart.

Last night I was alone,
surrounded by people
but desolate.

You were with me
but you weren't there
Where were you?

What happened to the days
we spent together
laughing and loving.

I long to recover our love
two souls together
endlessly entwined.

Will you sit with me on this broken bench?
As the sun's rays shine through the Autumn leaves
and reflect upon the gentle flow of the river.

Will you hold my hand on this Autumn day?
As the rain gently drops from the clouds above
and patters on the plants below.

Will you hold me tight and keep me warm?
Will you keep me safe in our tranquil haven?
Will you hide with me away from the world?

Will you?

My heart wept today,
the knot in my stomach burst
and broke the bank of saltwater
welling up in my eyes.

My heart spoke today,
the words silenced for so long
could hold back no longer
and broke out of my mouth.

Your heart hurt today,
your tears streamed out
at the painful sound of
of my words you just couldn't understand.

I isolate myself
to protect myself.
On the days the darkness comes
I need to hide away.
It doesn't mean that I don't love you.
It doesn't mean I don't want to be with you.
I just need time
To relight my soul.

My happiest days
are embedded on my soul.
In my final moments
I shall play them back,
like a film running through my mind
counting my blessings
for the stars of each scene.

I have been thinking about you this week.
Remembering the times we shared,
those warm days of summer
that we thought would never end.
The laughs we shared
and the arguments we had.
Life took over and we lost our way
but I always thought of you
with a smile in my heart.
Now you will only ever be a memory
and I will always feel regret
but our adventures will stay in my heart
Forever

To me you are,
The first drop of snow on winter's day,
The warm sun shining on my face,
The beauty of the leaves blowing in the autumn wind,
The first daffodil in springtime.
You are the day, you are the night.
You light up my soul,
By just being you.

Your friendship
has calmed the storm that ravaged inside.
Your love
has extinguished the fire in my head.
Your laughter
has evaporated the tears in my eyes.
All that remains is calmness
Thankyou.

Now I’m gone
Don’t question why,
don’t think what you could to change me.
I had to go,
the monster came and took me away.
For I could no longer fight him
and the pain he brought me.
Your love helped me through the darkest of days
and the longest of nights.
Just know this
I know longer feel pain,
I am free and I will always be with you in your heart.
Remember the days before the monster came,
the days we laughed until we cried
And loved with all our hearts.
Those long beautiful days
filled with colour and warmth.
When you hear the wind
blow through the leaves on a warm autumn’s day,
or feel the sun shine down
warming your face.
I am with you, happy and free.

The light grew dimmer
and the darkness encased her.
For so long the darkness had been growing
until now there was the merest glimmer of light up above.

The silence echoed all around
the deafening roar of words unspoken.
Now all that remained were the sound of memories
of laughter and joy long since gone.

Up above flew the figure of a bird
the most majestic bird she had ever seen.
With wings of gold that reflected the sun
and a glorious call that resonated around her.

The brightest of lights shone down
covering her in a veil of gold,
Hyaline wings formed from her shoulders
and feathers shrouded her flesh.

She fluttered her wings
and with an air of grace and beauty
she reached up to the light
and soared up through the air

Over raging seas and lakes as blue as shimmering steel,
through dense forests filled with the songs of their faithful inhabitants.
High above the barren landscape of the desert,
until she landed on the snow-capped peaks of the mountain tops.

And all at once, she knew she was free.