Why do I try to mend something that's too broken to be fixed,
I mean I love you, hate you well my feelings are mixed,
I never thought it would happen like this,
but I knew it wouldn't be like my first kiss,
which was slow but sudden nearly a mis,
when I met you I thought you were crazy,
then i got to know then knew you were crazy,
I mean I always tried to get along but it was for him and only him,
it was always about him,
I know I cheated, I know I lied
but you didnt see me sad, you never knew I cried
I love you , I loved you
love me, marry me, I do.

"Hello" I'ts how this whole complicated messed up thing happened,
I mean how can you forgive someone for stealing something,
so close, so sacred, so yours he took everything but gave nothing,
you were always alone, confused yet never demand a reason
why he could steal and get away with it without treason
when it happens like this its supose to be magical
I'm bipolar now my mood swings are radical
I have no idea for what this might be,
but its fatal
its a virus and it's killing me
the cure is just some simple words which can not be forced nor bribed
they come from the thing that you stole from me
I am a maze yet youve found the lock and now the key

I've never really belived in love,
well not being proposed to with, a ring and white dove
i mean how can something so nice
turn your fragile heart to ice
how can you be so certain yet have no evidential facts
mabye i'm just shallow but i'd rather have stacks
stacks of money here and there
as i know i do not love it but it fills a hole which lays bare
most people would argue but i do not care
i am not heartless nor try to dare
but i know that the place where something should be, there
needs to be fuflied  by one thing, anything, everything...

I looked into your Bright blues eyes when you started to explain
explain that your were breaking up with her again

I saw your eyes water as I gave you the hard truth
Baby you're the sugar to my sweetest tooth

I know this is wrong come on she's my friend
but we all knew right, that it had to end

It's  been going on for way too long time's up and this is the final song

I sit here tonight wondering what the outcome will be
we're not suposed to be toghether but
neither are you and she

This is wrong and I know it but I need an escape from all of this
I dont love you right now but what's one more kiss

I cant stop thinking about him

I dont love you, babe bevause that just   lies but wow you've got those
*Bright blue eyes

I am a M&M;
I have a hard outer shell that everyone belives is the real me
I may not portray the image of a smart, beautiful girl but I feel it in me
I never let my wall down anymore as I have once and released a pandemic
the pandemic named broken trust
I needed to tell her everything, I must
so when she reached the soft melting part of me she just bit it and moved on
to another*  patient,  **victim,  M&M.;

hello, hola, hayo, hi
I hate saying goodbye
so i'll say see you late even though we both know that is a lie
Ido not take great pleasure to hiding the truth
I have taken this honor from our youth
I looked at you each day knowing
that these tears on my face would be showing
as I walk away and your perfect face fades away
I think of things to try and make me stay
but enough is enough I know im strong
none of my friends saw what was wrong
the pile of makeup was not by choice
but because I had no voice
but I do now and forever will
thanks to you I'm off the abusive pill
I'm over you and done
our final song has been sung
no one will ever notice me as the one that got away
but the one that did not stay
I pray for those girls he trapped after me
I feel so guilty not going back and letting them free
but soon enough just like I
they will learn how to say,
goodbye

The moon talks to me, he listens to my long sobs of hopless relationships
I discovered this only a few nights ago while listening to the sky's gentle lips
sky, she played with me craydelled me throughout the day
yet when moon arrived he made it feel as light as may
i could not tell anyone about my parents, they were too special to me
well that was before they sent me to flee
i always knew they would look out for me protect me love me
but they let me down when i needed help most
they let me be pinned up against the post
they hit me repeatedly but i knew there were worst
i trusted them with my most inner thoughts but now i have a curse
the curse which emerges when one asks for trust
mooon and sky were supost to help me, i trusted them the most
they left me stranded on the sandy coast