this is what i love about you
this is what makes me grin
this is what gets my heart beating
this is why i let you in.

your sense of humor is magical,
i can be myself around you.
our love is never tragic and
i can always try something new.

your smile can light up the whole town
your laugh can turn a head
you lift me up when i am down
you get me out of bed.

i trust you with my everything
i know you won’t talk trash
we don’t even need a promise ring
i know that we’ll surely last.

the hugs and kisses feel so right
the cuddles feel so safe
and when you hold my hand real tight
you give me so much faith.

just know that you’re my baby boy
and i’m your baby girl
you always give me so much joy
you make my heart wanna twirl.

i love you more than anything
and that will always be
i’m your queen and you’re my king,
and that’s why i love you, you see.

I can hear you
But I'm not listening
I can see you
But I'm not watching
I can feel you
But I'm not touching

*You will always be in my heart

My need to belong
To finally trust
With my dark secrets
I'm Assured

My armor starts peeling
Layer by layer
Thick armored skin
Weeks into months
Time passes by
She cradles my soul
Metal ashes fall
Still protection remains
To her dissatisfaction
She carefully skins
My final coat
Reluctantly
I concede to her
A first in my lifetime

My naive vulnerability
Fully EXPOSED
I finally silence
My overwhelming past
She can't see me purely
Simply glimpses
Of my essence
TOXIC I am not
She must be delirious

Appearing to wrap
Her loving arms around
With her hollowed pillows
And paper blankets
Blind-folded as I allow her in
Not seeing her game
She covers me up
In a plastic bag
I open my eyes
Little too late

She confiscates my armour
Keeps it for herself
She squeezes and suffocates
Leaving me in
REJECTION

Out by the street
Stuck inside this sack
Months go by,
Isolated and CONFUSED

Until I smell her approach
She opens the bag
With pensive eyes
She puts her hand out
I reach up
Immediately freezes
In a blank stare
Her hand lets go

In crushing shame
Seals me up
Using CRAZY glue
I can't escape
LEAVING ME
On the side of the curb
Wondering what I did wrong

I can't help but notice
Down this street
I'm not the only debris
She threw away
Useless NONEXSISTENT
To her we still remain

© Jl 2015

Just a few moments
One vast change
I could not dodge the bullet
At close range
Just move forward
Begin to rearrange
Now its different
Ain't life strange?

Adjust my sails
To new winds course
Move past fails
As to avoid remorse
New path avails
Become positive force
What has been pales
In new light source

This time of year to express
love to the one held dear.
But why must it be just expressed
just this, once a year.

With the love that I feel
it should be every day.
Rather than to only express
it once this day, a single time of year.

So a card, flowers or something
sweet on this one day,
yet daily I will express my love,
every day of the year.

Sweetheart, I love you each and every day.

My legs are burning

        for they are not around you

My lips are dry

        for they are not against yours

My ******* are aching

       for they are not in your hands  

My ears are ringing

      for they are not hearing your voice

My eyes are closed

   for they know you are not in front of me

My hands they tingle

      for they are not touching you

My mind stays numb

      for it is not sparring with yours

My body trembles

      *as it waits in anticipation of us again

I was considering the perception
of my expectations of what I have perceived.

Then after consideration of my perceived,
perceptions of the expectations,

I changed my expectations perceived,
so my perceptions would not interfere.

With any of my perceived,
expectations that were a perception.