I remember you
I can only keep you in my heart
If you don’t find yourself
It’s okay
But my love was never gone
It was unconditional
It was magnetic

I remember the white tee you gave me
The kiss goodbye

I remember seeing you again
I remember the same energy
I thought it was just me who felt the spark

I didn’t realize how much I meant to you
You said you still loved me but I didn’t know I meant so much until you came back to me
You asked me to be yours again but I had so much growing up to do
I didn’t drive
I wanted more for myself
I just didn’t know how then to express my thoughts

You saw through my masks
You knew I loved you
Like I loved you
But we couldn’t hold on
We had to let go
We had different journeys
Years went by but our love stayed the same
I let you go to find yourself
The you you had to heal inside

I remember the hotel cameo
Sometimes I drive by
Feels like so long ago and it is but not in my memories

And the hotel when I saw you last
The feelings and watching a movie not knowing how to say goodbye
Trying to be present so I could remember you
Your touch smell and face
The way I felt with you

How u held space for me
How we talked
How safe I felt
How I can love you and other ppl
Only u can understand if u remember yourself
If u search for yourself
Free choice
Free love
Freedom

To My Love,

We survived.

Through the storms, through the silence, through the ache of not being understood
we are still here. Not perfect, not untouched, but held. By something greater than both of us.

We searched for freedom, both in our own ways, and we didn’t know it then, but the search was the meaning. In that longing, we found God. And in God, we found that we were already whole.

The devil tried to break me. Tried to convince me that pain was my portion. But he didn’t see the strength of the Spirit living in me. Or the quiet, stubborn hope that still lives in you.

We pour into each other, even when we feel empty. And somehow God fills us back up.

We still hope for one another. And that hope? That’s love. That’s grace. That’s us.

I believe in who we’re becoming, not by force, not by fixing but by remembering who we already are in Him.

Ponder this…
We were never born of sin.

We were born in God’s image.

And God is not broken.
He is perfect.

He is love.

He is good.

He is whole.
So we were born whole.
Sin is real…
But it is not our origin.

It is not our identity.

It’s a distortion, a distraction—
A veil over the truth.
And the truth is…
You were never broken.

You were always loved.
You are still whole.
Remember who you are.

Remember that inner voice calling you back.

Heal this generation.

Rewire our children to know:
 We are not born of sin.

We are born of wholeness.
And if we remember…
Our children’s children can know generational peace.

I went to church today after years of not going. I talked to the pastor and poured my sorrows to him. Something hard to do is asking for help and suffering in silence. We aren't meant to suffer in silence. I've learned a lot about accountability finding others we can trust to help us because we can't do things alone. Thank you friends for holding your men accountable and trying to get them to meet men who can hold each other accountable emotionally and physically. I know who I am but it was also because I've suffered and sought myself. I love you ladies

Went to therapy
But therapy is really self reflection
A therapist just helps guide you see what you're thinking
asking questions to help u dive into your thoughts
What you put in is what you get

Talking to others I trust
I love my spouse
But we’ve hurt each other
Evolving comes with transition
We both needed to heal individually
When I react he shuts down
When he shuts down
Old patterns sweep in
Anxiety hits
I feel controlled
Am I able to be myself
Arguments without resolution creates turmoil
Conversations with understanding bridges the gap

Emotional connection requires u to look at yourself in how u show up for others how u perceive things to be and why u feel that way

I am whole because I am not my conditions anymore I am still w flaws but I accept them and I'm learning and growing
I have always been me but without the upbringing I grew up in
I realize I was able to change because I had others who believed in me
Others to challenge the normalization of my conditions
Others who gave me a new perspective a new outcome
I looked and I found
Intentions
Manifesting
Courage
Resilience
Strength
Love
Compassion
Encouragement
Trust
Awareness

Those who haven’t done self healing will never be at peace in their minds
Spiritually god is always with us in our minds in our thoughts and the devil is winning because Society is man, not God
Society made the Bible fit their purpose
The Bible was always a book on self love, Self reflection
The pain, the guilt and shame you feel Is the conditions or trauma you've endured
Society used it to control and manipulate which is what our world has become.
We're a world leading lost sheep.
Generations lost because we don't know who we truly are.
Only those who gain understanding of themselves will find Gods words in the Bible were for you. The Bible is not to be interpreted by man to use for their own gain.
Society lies.
We need connection
We need community We need each other
We are humans who need community
Church is not just a temple
If you ever do the work to heal your inner wounds you will find peace
Peace in your heart
Society…you have to question everything u were taught but u also have to see past your perception of reality

If you could see yourself reaching to your sisters for connection to let them know you're thinking about them

Is it possible or too scary to think about? To be vulnerable and honest with them about your thoughts

You are capable of love and compassion
I know this because I have this with you
I know every relationship is different

When communication is built on assumptions and perceptions rather than clarity and understanding it's so easy for feelings to get hurt and for conflicts to go unresolved

You are a good person
You have good intentions
I hope you reach out to your sisters
We all need connection