Your words are as temporary to me as temporary tattoos
You pick and chose what you wanna lose
That’s why I have to turn you loose
My grandma turns to me to tell me there’s always more fish in the sea
I guess I will always be at loss and not learn
Well I went fishing in the sea and something grabbed my worm
I reeled it in to see and realized the only bait around was me
Never wait around for the ones’ who let you down
It’ll leave you with a frown bringing you down down to the deep bottom of the sea
Now I’m the predator not the prey
Be careful now cause as you see you are the preyed on by the predators not me

You are my 11:11
You go through my mind 24/7
When I think about there being an us
I can’t believe it could be true so on 11:11 I wish for you
You race through my mind as if you are the runner trying to get to the finish line
But every time I open my eyes I only know i just fantasize about there be an us
But I feel like a little piece of string holding on by a thread and then you get a scissor cutting me off to leave me cold and dead
Why did I even picture you in my head
Just to reminisce that you wouldn’t of dreamt me dead

I couldn't swim but I took a chance on you
I dipped my toes in the water until I was emerged but it wasn't with water it was with love
Your love
The only love that I will ever hold so closely and dearly to my heart
I didn't know your worth until I casted it off into the ocean hoping it would drift back like a bottle with a message inside
I waited not very long not as long as I once thought I would
Once again you emerged I desperately grabbed onto the thought of you with no regret in sight...as if I was drowning and you were the air my lungs had been searching for
I no longer needed to hold my breath being afraid that that was the last air my lungs would ever get
I breathe easier now with the thought of you lingering along
You somehow snuck in replenishing my heart with love
I forgot how love felt
I forgot how to feel about it
You showed me I closed my eyes holding on to you with every last piece of sanity I had left
I was broken glass
You put me back together piece by piece frivolously with no regard of yourself
For that you will always be my current, my future, my everything
And our forever.

I remember when you used to care
When you used to talk to me
When you would acknowledge my existence
When you used to text me back
When we talked every day
When it would be not long after we saw each other again
When it mattered when I was hurt
When you would defend me
When you didn’t blow my feelings off to the side like blowing out candles on cake without a train of thought
Do you remember that?
I bet you do, but all I have left of those faint memories is photos,items and iMessages reminding me that it could’ve been true

Your twenty dollar smell still lingers
I know this only because I know the smell is trapped on your fingers
You gave it away with how you scrub your nails under the running faucet
Now you have really lost it everything you once held now goes down that same drain and is washed away by the same faucet
I hate the mobile four wheels that brought it
You said you could stop at anytime cold turkey
But if I don’t have a thumb able and ready to light it and spark that switch to ignite it I’m no longer worthy
I’m not ever gonna be as good enough as that 65 cent under the table bought bic lighter
I won’t be there anymore for you on a windy day cupping and blocking the wind from blowing out your twenty dollar get away
I don’t want to watch you burn your brain cells away praying to god you won’t be caught and put away
For a crime only worth what’s now left leaving your eyes a glassy red over your cold turkey reliant
If only I could be that twenty dollars with just enough change for your 65 cent gas station lighter