I left I gave you up I learned it hard Had to be tough But go untouched To grow unloved To blow too hard I needed to understand Why this is truth Why you weren't there And why I was too ...
You broked me when I was already on the ground You kick my last hope out of my heart and soul You knew me better than any other person could The promises you begged me to promise you Those were the promises you broke yourself For you I was a joke fooled with all your 'lied' words Nothing make sense that you ever talked the truth
I let you in when I was already weak Yet you had already a plan with how you will treat the weak
You broke my heart and ruined my life My heart stopped beating for seconds That day you couldn't even explain I believed in you I believed that you love me and I give you all my love more that you deserve My life and my everything What you did hurt me so much that I will never let any one get to attouch I didn't expected you will ever do that But "Expect the unexpected"
Someday you'll realize what you had done...... Not now .... But one day....
I told you To stop me. I confessed So you can help me. A truth I never admit
“ I always tell the truth unless it’s about my drug abuse” “Il never confess to relapse”
“Till death do us part” Getting High Of methamphetamine Till my casket drops. There was no end No future No “one Day il Stop” I gave my fate to it. My destiny Goals Everything Was inhaled & exhaled In dope clouds . I seen no other side I’ve forgotten about reality I was stuck in a day dream.
I Gave you The opportunity To be in my life. I held you responsible to change me.
I accepted rehab I Allowed Myself To See there’s life aside from twisting the pipe. Gave myself the opportunity To make a change . It was you. Who finally made me see clearity.
I improved slowly Relapsed occurred They weren’t anything major I got myself back on Sobriety road.
After many years Of being stuck Saying il stop Till I die You helped me see Different. & After many years Of denying. Years of hiding Of using in silence . I SPOKE up.
You saved me.. To **** me your self .
You damaged me 10x more Than **** did it’s self . You became my new Deadly addiction.
Whats there to loose when ive lost it all? Its not the same anymore. everything is about to fall. No one hears me cry im hurting deep inside The only thing thts helping me cope is this wonderful dope The feeling of being numb just calms me dwn actin dumb No one cant replace her ima love her forever Im just sick of being mistreated Im constantly hurting Its not good but i got a couple of grudges im still holding Is this how im suppose to live my life I fall asleep with tears in my eyes I hate having withdrawals its a constant reminder im still alive