I talk to myself. Well, not the way you think I do.
I cross my legs and I ponder my experiences.
Watching people flood passed me like the waves in the ocean.
Seeing the trees dance and still dependent on whether the wind will let them.
I've seen lives still dependent on whether our brain and heart gives up.


So, you're probably wondering, "What the hell this has to do with Black Light".
My answer is simple; the black light is what I see with. I talk with my shadow using it. Seeing the world underneath our own.
Have you ever wondered why some colors shine in a light coated in darkness?
I've seen something beyond what I see now, like...like another world.

I wish of this with all my heart
A button for life to restart
With mind in all present and past
A fantasy scoped full and vast
It may not be made perfectly
I hope it's just a tad more glee
Let this be our final result
A world we made true peace default

Traveling down a spiraling tunnel
I'm a bundled complexity
Reversing forward growing small
Contradict reality
Black nor white nor gold nor silver
Full of color, colorblind
Liquid bliss comes raining down
Shower me with the sunshine
Blinking sinking water sand
Waves go crashing like the land
Grinding bones like greasy lips
Icy hairs with blazing tips
Oracle but nothing live
I think I am going down
Maybe I'm losing my mind
Since it's probably lost sound

I'm sorry.

You'd like to be evil...

You want to hurt people.

You think it's fun.

Evil people get to have all the fun...?

You want power.

You want control.




...You're broken. A record that can be read as clear as day.
You don't know true evil.
If you'd like an example, all you'd have to do is ask.


You're afraid to be simple...
But you're nothing but simple.
And that's ok.

Stop trying so hard to be alien for ***** sake.
You're destroying yourself...and that will only hurt you and those you love.


You need to be dismantled, so that you can be built back up...and stronger.

Your foundation is built on resentment. Destruction.
Bitterness.
You call the darkness your friend. But the darkness wants to eat you, and digest you. You're afraid of the light.

What would we see if it was shining on you?
Simple, a broken art piece.

But that's ok. That's enough. You are good enough as that. We all are broken art pieces. And we all are unique, but ironically not any better than anyone else

So accept yourself. I'm right here with you. Always have been, even if you can't see me. And I will be there with you, to build you up. You deserve a friend who will be there for the better you. We all do, when we're ready to accept them.

Now wake up, pat your knees, do a stretch. Let's do this adventure, but together.

I need a friend, and I believe you're more than enough.

Rested petals on the pondering pond, rippling many waves anew,
As the sun peels back the color of the pond, and the heat did a dance,
Within the pond, a new restoration calms the mind of mother nature.

Sending wind into the world, a breath of air branching all around, the flowers mingle and send away their children, time blesses the world with the golden hour.

In charge of the towering army of many, the stallion leads the family of lions. Zebras, elephants, they all came with fury, towards the platinum steed, the amplifier of the sun.

Human kind, constructs of complexity, an alien race formed of the gaping surplex within the eye of the universe, aligned along the seven suns and eleven moons, forming a path into the embodiment of sin, rejection of the Almigonium, Omni Imperium.

Path paved on the poor pervasion of pleasure, and now we exist, many horrors and miracles. Soon, solidified in the many signs of Almigo omni, inscribed in the all truth, the end

If you were to jump back into time, you still wouldn't have changed my mind.

You were the bad fruit on our line that had to be pulled off of our vine.

So fermentate and be useful to the tortured creatures of nature.

You're just like them anyway, like me too, but to them, you're much better.

I watched the rain come down with flames and sounds so loud

oh my

With towers falling people calling screaming daunting withered souls

Oh my

Why won't you listen kids, why don't you see the slits on my behavior

what a danger, i'm that stranger

psychopathic little lasers

whoa what a shame I see, the demons come running at me

Oh my

Yes favors come with stones to drown you till your drowning bones

Oh my

Now that we just began you'll see a somber ending done

OH MY

No happy endings here, reality is what you'll fear.

I loved you when you couldn't see me

My pink nothing came unintentionally

I didn't want to bring a bag of colors for them to be robbed

You took it all and left me raw and now all I do is sob

I could go out and make my mission a haunting

But all it would do is make me look like a weakling

And so what I do is cover my pink nothing

And trade it out for a gloomier color and drown to feel something

A cascade of moods flush my seemingly eternal slumber,
Reminding me that I am, in fact, alive.
Although, I don't feel very alive, latched to cumber.
A battle where winning is something to strive.
A game of trials where I battle alone.
No amount of pleading will change me my fate.
Something's hunting for my soul until it is gone.
It's hard to walk humbly in a world full of hate.

I'm watched by bystanders who relate but hide.
To make me feel alone, excuse it with pride.
You must have people, so for that, you are wrong.
They tell themselves this 'til I've broke and I've died.
I question their motives, now that I'm a ghost.
How could someone love so **** selfishly cruel?
You love for some people, yet in that, you boast.
They're hypocrites, and I love like a fool.

All of the wars I have faced
Lone as a body in its case
Opened in regret and all alone
No one to love me that's known
Even the dead cry when there's no home

As lost as a deer in a forest
Don't shed a tear when my heart is gone
Not even the weeping of a chorus
There is not a vain word on my tongue
But the green can only find words that are ****
And I may sob till it hurts my lungs
But won't ask for any restart

For this tale ends not in my power
And when it'll end, I may not come to know
So my soul will never know to cower
Yet instead it will come to eventually glow.

Declining, the battery goes
My mind, in the clouds, where nobody knows
Descending into the everlasting longing to sleep
I'm losing my patience to count all of my sheep
I ponder, in my still, when will the world finally go to sleep


It's been alive so long
Churning in pain
And speaking in song
A place we live, but a place that tries to resist
I just ponder, surrounded by the white noise and loved ones around me.

And then I move on, because my computer is about to die.

To you
who stands alone in the mirror in the place many emotions are exhausted
To you
the one who chokes the life out of tears and smiles alike
To you
alone when you didn't ask for it, yet you have to pretend it will maybe change


It is okay.

You may not see it yet
You may feel like this will never end
And you may be right
But do not allow this beast to corrupt your heart
There is an evil in your ear
Rubbing your shoulder with its nails
Telling you that no one really cares...


It is okay.

Don't fall for it
You will overcome this


This is a game
A trick on your brain
I know, right now I might sound lame...
But there is no peace without the help of rain.


The accomplishment is not within the peace.
The accomplishment is in a struggle that will eventually cease...
Rest your mind, my love.

You will be rewarded a new day for peace.

Is it me la
Is it you la
What a world I wish I knew la

l al a lala la lal alallallaaaalllaallalcall

I peep a spy watching for clues
Follow me, am I dying
A want to grin but i'm crying
I feel myself getting so ill

Well what's the point of even trying
Hahaha shun you all
Green to blue to black and all
From pink to green to red to blue to black to clear to weird and fall

I feel like where I go I solo
who wonders what that is that wallows

oh im falling
faster faster
all again
the life i had started to dim
spinning spinning until i've said
its time for me to go to bed
when did time start to fly on by
causing my words to slur as i
cry in my hands and sink in sand
that leads no place better than land
a flock of a feather will die together
the wings they used to fly will teather
I lost my self blinded by tears
and fears
sheer till i drown in beer
im scared
i have no where
alone
a soul drifting till it is gone

Rising shadows reaping spirits
Crashing cars and watching flames
Little liars screaming louder
Putting themselves back to shame
After hours cause their powers
Finding Fortune by the aim
Now forced to fall from a tower
Fortune found but we can't claim

The order shifted into chaos the moment I met you...

and now I'm falling gracefully...

curious, I wonder, what do you ponder...

Like a pool piled of puzzles...

You surprise me, and then you don't...not that it hurts me to be so...

What do you see when you look at me...

I've been thinking about you
Casually conversating about to-dos
Flashing images serenading me
You're a friend I wish I could see
But you only sing in my head
Out in the world, I'm never said
So I ponder alone, in a drugged-out dread
Laughing in a corner with my only friend
As the world falls over, and so does my bed
I'm in my head with my only begotten friend.

I had a dream that impending doom was right around the corner.
Waiting to ****** up my mortal life.
And no one would notice I disappeared.

What a world we live in...that I could experience that and not feel shocked.

Sticks and stones may break my bones, and words will really hurt me

For you to try to bully does mean how much you're hurting

When I fall down I get back up, take this advice, if any

To mute me, or anything just makes you more of a weakling

If you want to truly consider the light, you'll have to experience the dark.

Watching people play who could have the hardest heart is like a bunch of minnows pretending to be sharks until their lives are ripped apart by a real shark.

This is not a game, not a fairytale, this is the reality.

And until people start to humbly accept and live in that, we will continue to grow in our casualties.

If i had to describe what I feel...



I feel as though I just realized that I am the joke...
That the universe is a being of beings, telling a joke in it's mind...
And that, among the many other jokes it may be telling,

I am one in particular.
I make the universe laugh each time it tells my joke,
no matter how repetitive the joke may be...

And while the universe laughs, it's bellowing earthquakes shake me
Shattering me like glass...fast, I reform, back into one...though now,
I'm broken.


if I were a cloud, heavy with rain, I'd have no rain left to release.
i.
am.
tired...


but I don't get to stop. The crops do thank me, sometimes...


Crumbling inside, turning me into a decoration of beauty to display before so many nothings. My walls have made me into a snow globe of destruction, for this petty world to profit from,
no more.

They watch me, laughing with the universe...


It's funny...cause I'm alone. Get it?
The black sheep is alone.
As expected, to not be understood, but to always be the last picked,

I will never understand why a drunk man would ever tell someone not to drink...


because you think your poison will be the reason I sink?

I'm already in the hole, sharing my space with disgrace, misery loves company...

I am that company. Because I have a heart for others...
Maybe I am the problem.

Maybe I should take back my heart...

If I am going to be a joke, I refuse to be a bad one.
If I am going to be a black sheep, at least I will be seen.

And if I am going to be seen, I will be marveled...
After all, down here, you don't stop falling.

Glaring
Gunning down the image
Hope
Something, you will see it
Believe it
Conceive it
I need you to read it
Desire the solution
The need to know
To hold on to answers
The things I can show
Please ponder my heart
And ponder your own
Do I love you
Do I love you
Can I want to...

You're
everwhere
shadowing
.


my entirety.

Sentenced to a fading vision
In this rippling madness consistently beating
slower
slower
Noises racing from here
and there
as it all starts to fade away
oh scared we are
this is it
this is real
Numb falling faster asleep
and the pain starts to wither, decay
Do i want to go
Do i want to stay
tears stream down my face
it gets hard to breathe
everything is shutting down
i'm scared
am i
i don't know
i see nothing
the sounds muffled
i see stars
its so cold
im gone

When you're trapped in a circle of patterns
Patterns that make up the same torturous scene
You get slapped in the face and now you're gloomed.
Don't worry, it'll pass by, maybe...
You'll start numb then you'll think, lately
You haven't felt like yourself at all.
You'll feel like everything is crumbling around you,
And that to end it, you have to get influenced,
But it won't last beyond a week, at minimum an hour.
It'll pass, and you'll be fine. If you're not, at some point, the sun will once again shine.

My life may be in tatters,
And yeah, I might be an overflowing fountain of grief...

But what you don't realize...is that that is broken beauty.

I am still living,
And I'm breathing somewhat okay.
But I live in this moment,
I get to say whatever I want to say.

For there may not be a tomorrow,
So I should shout out right here and now,

And yes, that too is just okay...
Let my scream break every glass wall down.

There is so much ugly
In the most beautiful things...

Just as there is so much chaos in a room of peace.

I've come to see that there are many realities
processed and programmed in our beings
leaving us all thinking so many things

As deep as the deep of the deepness of nothing
and as something full as the thoughts that are coming
in the vastness of ripples our thoughts craft in shuffles
Some as sweet and as a warm as a chocolate *** truffle

But what's deeper than this and even more of true bliss
something right to the gist and nearly like a kiss

It's love and that is always underestimated
It's the deepest thing needed and the more powerful thing rated.

I first met you when I was just a little boy...
Clueless and naive.
You told me that we'd be friends forever...
...Even though you're older than me.

That charming smile of yours, and those beautiful big eyes...
You could wrap me around your manly fingers like bows and ties.
As I grew older, I knew you to be serpent-like.
You'd tell me yes then no, then stop and go.

Go up and down, stay put, turn around.
Keeping me confused...cause that's just how I met you...
You're evil...and yet I never knew.
I went insane...because of you.
But that's the person you truly knew.

For you took my confusion like some take their poison,
Sometimes its too much, and then they're poisoned.
Blacked out and no longer me.
I'm wasted within a black pitched sea.