One more life left.
Then it'll be game over.
The clock will reset.
Here come the falling feathers.

Try Again?

Yes or No?

Choose the next path.
May it be for better...or worse.

I shouldn't pour my soul out if it leaves nothing behind


That's why I watch this world's suffering shine

Don't mind me while I sip my sweetened tea

I'm sitting in the shade watching life play out like a poem
without
meaning...

When the sugar hits my mind
I lose the sense to make sense
Complicated caffeinated composure
Crafted by this new exposure
Is it me that I am seeing
Running so fast through the hour
Elevated so high up
On this rush-built tower
But then there is a crash
And when it crashes it crumbles
And I fall as fast as I flew
What a rollercoaster sugar is

What's the point of speaking
If you're put on mute

It's a thrill
A rush
A feel
Down the tunnel
Touch the soul
Overdosing
Textured landslide
Coated novocaine
Crashing faster
falling
Wonderland
Pleasure
Living loosely
Chaos baby
Bold and tested
Here I come
Sweet
and
Ready
Make you numb

He is trying
Trying to consume me
But I mustn't let him know
That I am not going
For he may not realize
I am not prey
Now that I have light in my way
For he may roar enmity
I shall not show fear
His grin and his walk
No, I cannot care
I hear the sky
It's warning me
Must I walk closer
It's soon coming
I'm not a slave
Nor am I doomed
Your request's declined...
Your demands are too.

:/

Am I real...?

I mean, I think I am.



Reasons to believe that I am real:
- I love!
- I hate...
- I cry...
- I laugh!
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.
.
.
As I've found myself falling away from time
I can't tell you how good it feels to leave all of it behind
But this path is a lonely path, no wonder they call it solitaire
A game that can only be a solo...a game that doesn't feel any fair...

Another bug on the wall, yet now, it's just me for another day
Though some may think me beautiful...I get killed anyway
And with my death, I become a new nonimproved ghost...

Another game of solitaire...a game with me as the guest and the host.

We all have that one feeling.

Lost at sea, in mind,
Desperate to shape the hidden design,
A pattern puzzled for play or for preview,
A sudden desire to find the missing clue.

Some see a treasure chest, and others see a tropical forest,
There is so much WORLD out there, an adventurers fortress,
Such a distant realm, yet it's also so close,
An addictive game to play, but we don't want to overdose.

You don't accept me when I'm beaten down
You don't deserve me when I'm above the clouds
I'm distant when I see a trap
You won't get to be my heart attack

I can quench your burnt love
Or
I can parch your blissfulness

Let me scorch up your **** up
Let me lend you a kiss
It just depends on your choices
Choose the one you won't miss

I just want to relieve the pain
I don't need more to exist.

I am choking on the present
Nothing really feels the same
Frozen in time, my soul said it
Drowning in eternal shame
But it ends when I turn back on
Start my day over again
Reappear and I respawn
I feel a sharp yet subtle pain
I wish my life was not by Dice
And I could be truly free
But like the game of cat and mice
The word for it is it's ******
Hope it won't be me that ends
With someone stepping on my neck
Maybe reality bends
To keep us from a fated wreck

Mend to your station
No pseudo occasion
This is a real war
Chaos called an invasion
Don't you get hopeless
Or you will get reckless
Move at what's the best
And to falls you confess
Enemy is fierce
They don't know what's mercy
Challenge what you fear
You will know you're worthy.

I felt a drop inside my gut
I smell the rot not far from me
If weight could slice, well I'd be cut
This toxic feeling's surrounding
As hard this feelings of to rid
The setting it makes is much worse
No one will listen to the weak
A fallen evil fated curse
A distant whisper in my ear
I feel something is going wrong
Nowhere to run, no safety near,
This suffering is way too long

I had no idea you'd try to **** me with the words you wrapped around my throat.

Whispering nothings that meant something, crushed my soul of any hope.

I've made a mistake yesterday
Thought I was finally ready to fly...
I asked around, a circle of trust
If I should contact a guy...
I wanted his number, I felt we were cool
I thought there was a good vibe
Everyone was conflicted, no one had depicted
My next choice would break down my sky...
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.
.
.
.
.
I mustered up lost courage
The little bit I had left
That was entwined in a very poor light.
I pulled on my pants
The mental left strands
And I covered the shadows in my sight.
I called his job, I go there so much
I had no idea what was to come.
I told him it was I, and I had a question to ask
I felt myself starting to feel dumb.
.
.
.
.
I alerted him then
Not to take it a weird way
And I said it was going to be awkward.
He silently listened
There was nothing I felt was different
And so I went onto a path that was harder.
I asked for his number
Not to be a bother
But just so that we could be friends
right..
He silently hurt me
Then proceeded into killing
He took it the wrong way, assumed I was flirting
Ouch...
I giggled in a worry
No, please don't mistake me
I'm just asking to be just friends
Ugh...
He silently left me
The phone left me empty
He hung up like I didn't exist...
Oof...*
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.
.
It's not his fault,
I was the one who called,
I should have taken the conflicting gut as a sign
But I had no idea,
If I didn't make an effort...
All the courage would have been for nothing...
And I've never felt bolder
I never felt as confident
I just needed to jump out my shadow.........
.
.
.
.
But I fell right back in
I've drowned and died again
It's become much denser and even colder...

See this like a disco room

Strobing, fading, jumping soon

Colors for my light show

Watch our party start to glow

Dancing in the metal pin

Strike me with a light show

Maybe we will shift again

Colors make my lights flow.

What's this pit of butterflies doing in my stomach?

Dancing in the dark like there won't be another start...

When did the sky become so black?

I can feel it's pressure click like a living trap...

When did Fear starting leaving its home?

It never really looked away from its phone...

When did the good of this world fall?

It's started with the butterflies, of all...

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He never left my mind
Though I see a different light
Distorted this time
It's hard to pick out what's the sight
A person or a monster
Such a mystery he is
But I want him next to me
For regardless that's how he exists
Like a brother who has died
He somehow is dear to me
Even when he kind of tried
To rip my soul away from me
Such as he has lost his heart
He still isn't that apart
For he's here, I wonder if I'm there
Haunted me
But here I am rewriting thoughts
Though my mind is not the same
Less distraught and now I'm dead
At least now my heart is tamed
I just feel like he is here
yet I don't feel I am there
kind of feel a bit insane
but is that the trick of the game
Haunted soul, I feel I am
Rocking, shifting, am I ******
What did happen to little old me
Haunted soul hunted by grief