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131 · Nov 2019
Special
EmperorOfMine Nov 2019
The order shifted into chaos the moment I met you...

and now I'm falling gracefully...

curious, I wonder, what do you ponder...

Like a pool piled of puzzles...

You surprise me, and then you don't...not that it hurts me to be so...

What do you see when you look at me...
131 · May 2019
No Fairytale
EmperorOfMine May 2019
If you want to truly consider the light, you'll have to experience the dark.

Watching people play who could have the hardest heart is like a bunch of minnows pretending to be sharks until their lives are ripped apart by a real shark.

This is not a game, not a fairytale, this is the reality.

And until people start to humbly accept and live in that, we will continue to grow in our casualties.
131 · Jan 2019
Random Skeletons
EmperorOfMine Jan 2019
Rising shadows reaping spirits
Crashing cars and watching flames
Little liars screaming louder
Putting themselves back to shame
After hours cause their powers
Finding Fortune by the aim
Now forced to fall from a tower
Fortune found but we can't claim
129 · May 2018
Small 1
EmperorOfMine May 2018
Sticks and stones may break my bones, and words will really hurt me

For you to try to bully does mean how much you're hurting

When I fall down I get back up, take this advice, if any

To mute me, or anything just makes you more of a weakling
128 · Jul 2019
Otiose
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
I may spin and spin
Casting shadows of energy
Twirling here, and then there
For everyone that can see
And I may sing what I can bring
Sell a hell of a show
But it always ends up pointless
Maybe I'm otiose.

I can do it for myself
But my heart had selfless wings
No, it wasn't perfect
But I never solo when I sing
Yet a ghost is a ghost and sadly that's me
Maybe i'm otiose.
Otiose = Have no real purpose
126 · Dec 2019
I can see myself winning
EmperorOfMine Dec 2019
I haven't always been this lost
Playing cat and mouse in an amazon maze
Peeking through the leaves and all the moss
For a path outside of this confusion game
Holding gems and such to say i'm safe
From a broken heart and feeling disgraced
Cast a spell or two to mend my faith
Bending illusions to clean the waste
I can see myself winning tonight
And that kind of builds my confidence
No more smiles, i'm not a fool, alright,
Sudden transformation in an instance,
I can be victorious without a clue
126 · Jul 2018
FEARFUL • INSANE
EmperorOfMine Jul 2018
Confused and distorted
The somber souls morbid
I won't say yes, nor I'll say no
I've no idea which path I should go
No friends for my fear
No ghost I shall hear
Lost inside my withered head
I can't even shed a tear.

Who'd ever love a scared demon
What demon ever deserved love
They point fingered guns like skinny heathens
They watch him suffer from up above
Not like there's much to do for him
Insanity took him by the hand
Fear left him silent in the night
Now he's ditched dead underneath the sand.
126 · Nov 2019
Emotional
EmperorOfMine Nov 2019
I'm trying to capture these feelings and set them free
one
by
one
Sending them away with notes of mind
Opening my relic of emotions to unwind
But I come to realize that I'm SOOOO
e m o t i o n a l
And I'm overwhelmed with not enough room to let them fly
It's getting hard to breathe
Typing this, I feel trapped, clogged
Something swelling my soul with too much
I'm disappointed, but not surprised
I'm happy and thankful, but I also want to cry
When did we start to casually want to die
Why do I ponder why do I try
Yet I also feel content
I could spend time at home or stay here with my friends
I like a boy who's too far ahead to see me
And when I could have set him free
...

i'm emotional
unstable is an understatement
i feel like the embodiment of chaos
yet i also feel like order
somehow i am like a painting that is a beautiful catastrophe
i don't know how to express myself
i feel like i'm in a game where the point is to simply accept that you can only lose
but i don't only lose, not all the time
i lose and win and lose at acknowledge my winning
i'm never satisfied because the one win i want i continue to lose at
i just want that and it's like a carrot dangled in my face
i-
i-
i-


how do i feel so constrained in such a spacious room
why do i feel so enclosed in a world so big
enslaved behind a glass peering into a room labeled free


why am i so emotional
126 · Jan 2019
Confetti
EmperorOfMine Jan 2019
I'm A                                                                                           Colorful
COLORFUL EXPLOSION                                                        Messy
that Excites                                                                      Commotion and
Those Around                                                            Silently dancing by
Me But                                                                       In the air, gracefully
Just Like                                                            A rainbow of snowflakes
Confetti                                                                              Galore!
I'm A Bomb                                                                    A heartache
That Gets Messy                                                              So messy
Scattered All                                                                     In the sky
Over The                                                                    Changing ground
Place Once                                                                     Covered after
I'm Done                                                                       the party begun
126 · Dec 2019
A Prince's Demise
EmperorOfMine Dec 2019
Royalty, oh royalty, listen to my speech
Tell me how it feels to be so high up in your seat
Blessed with your beauty, though so empty from within
How'd you beat a game that only you would never win
Such a pretty prince placed so neatly on the board
A treasure piece, i hate to say, that I did once adore
So lost in your desire to control the perfect life
You'd break the other pawns, but to them, it was just the rife
I'd hate to have to tell you, but oh prince, woe, woe to you
Your reign of sorrow, so much demise, i am afraid, is due
Your soul has left you with a shell that won't have much to gain
Karma bites back, even you, my love, will drench under the rain.
You've taken a part of my heart...
And that means you can't truly lose...
But because I have heart left, it beats,
But i'll always know how I was used.
124 · May 2018
Grinning...
EmperorOfMine May 2018
Crash my anger into water
Hope it drowns the light of day
Every moment when there's thunder
Entities come out to play
Though I grin I am not happy
Don't you judge me by my look
I just know not to get snappy
You don't know how much it took
I can see the whole world shaking
It won't take much for that quake
I just keep calm for your waking
It's not like a piece of cake
124 · Apr 2019
Selfish Ears
EmperorOfMine Apr 2019
You can tell someone
Your whole
Life
Story...




And all they heard was the mistakes you made and who was involved in it.


You can tell someone that you loved them, and all they hear is the regrets they feel about their past.
124 · Oct 2018
Don't Watch Me Cry
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
It's not easy taking the blows
Letting the wind remain at a flow
Suffocating silently, no one can understand...
Frozen in time, in a sick wonderland

It's hard to breathe in a time like this
Reminds me of worse and a darkened kiss
Could It be me that deserves this torture
Don't watch me cry, that worsens my horror

It's hard enough to walk this alone
Now here it comes back freezing my bones
These tears can't end, I'm a walking tsunami
I hate my hearts heart, I've become a living zombie
EmperorOfMine Dec 2019
Ever since i met this world
I always found myself in trouble
stumbling over the bodies of the empty
and influenced by poison, seeing double
Someone wants to see my fall
And I find that some type of funny
Because I don't see that as a loss at all
Cause i'm the bee and I make the honey
See, I control what they can see
And I maneuver what they will not
I can play the game too
But I simply choose not to, no one's at fault
123 · Aug 2019
Hollow
EmperorOfMine Aug 2019
Words cannot describe the feeling of sinking faster and faster into a

never-ending chain of darkness, fear for a perpetual resolve that will

never come.

A pulsation of many emotions, just to be left with the agony of

emptiness.

Hollowed out like a dead man's skull,

A soul carved out of a now disposable casket.

Hollow, be thy name.
123 · Jul 2018
Fear
EmperorOfMine Jul 2018
I first met you when I was just a little boy...
Clueless and naive.
You told me that we'd be friends forever...
...Even though you're older than me.

That charming smile of yours, and those beautiful big eyes...
You could wrap me around your manly fingers like bows and ties.
As I grew older, I knew you to be serpent-like.
You'd tell me yes then no, then stop and go.

Go up and down, stay put, turn around.
Keeping me confused...cause that's just how I met you...
You're evil...and yet I never knew.
I went insane...because of you.
But that's the person you truly knew.

For you took my confusion like some take their poison,
Sometimes its too much, and then they're poisoned.
Blacked out and no longer me.
I'm wasted within a black pitched sea.
120 · Feb 2019
Pillow
EmperorOfMine Feb 2019
A flow in time divided into nine as a moments scene feels like an eternity.
Falling slowly unconscious, my soul clutches it's heart as I do the same to mine.
Rapidly changing, the scene clicks forward, ticking and tocking faster and faster.
Filling the rooms inside my head with tears I've knitted blue, with dread.
Sometimes I wonder what's wrong with my head, as I lay in my bed and pretend to be dead.
Staring a tunnel into the ceiling, forgetting life's meaning, streaming old memories, ruminating on past tragedies.
I've never lost my conscious, cause I'd rather be nauseous than gone and haunted by thinking I'd be forgotten.
Such a world this is, a world I'd not miss, but I wish I wasn't so consistent on ending.
Ticking and tocking like the clock today, waiting to stop, just to pass away, but is that okay...I'm not sure I know what to say...
120 · Jul 2019
Descend
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
I hope you got what you came for.
Now give your review.
I guess I'm a product right,
Hope you enjoyed me too.
120 · Dec 2020
Float
EmperorOfMine Dec 2020
The higher I go,
The less I can breathe
It seems that ascending into the top leaves you wheezing
Because it takes and rarely does it replace
If I float
.
.
.
I am not ok
Unable to do much, but float away
Because I can't fly, tho I sure can ascend
But that only confirms the danger I'm in.
120 · Jul 2020
The Absence of Opium
EmperorOfMine Jul 2020
The addiction to a drug that helps you escape the gaping hells of reality; *****...
down into the tunnel of withdrawal
Desiring more
An endless cycle of want
Just like ***
Like virginity taunts
And as you suffer deeper into the tunnel
A pondering poet sinks deeper
Begging for mercy for his sins
And as he loses himself in the beast that sinks its teeth
He finds himself looking at life with a different lens
119 · Jul 2020
A and B
EmperorOfMine Jul 2020
He's beautiful.
A cultural salad bowl.
As he saunters the halls lined with the eyes of public youth,
he finds himself directly in front of another boy.

A boy with the skin of snow, tinted with a pink blush.
Rugged, broken, a boy who has seen the world falter in front of him.
The boy of snow glares at the boy of culture.
He strikes him down, lacking hesitation.
A mysterious rage possessed the boy of snow...why was he so angry?

The boy of culture gazed up at the boy of snow,
aware of his own strength and weapons,
yet he took the choice to not entertain him.
He got up, and walked away, one piercing gaze, and vanished within the crowd of youth.

The boy of snow, caught by the glare of the boy of culture.
A piercing stop in time...exhilarating.
Why did he let him go?
He didn't seem afraid at all, if anything, he wanted him to follow.

This is the start of a twisted love story.
119 · May 2019
breaking down
EmperorOfMine May 2019
Wearing my cloak
made of gloom
watching the clock in my old room
fighting the lack of my dear soul
to build willpower to live life whole
Hope I don't choke
on my own bones
i'm tired of being so **** alone

but here i am in a dark room
watching the doom coming in its bloom
neon green numbers filling my eyes
i start to cry as i question why
my life *****
life just *****
what the ****
why does life **** so much
but no one can tell me
cause no one knows
and that's why i'm on my lone on my own
cause no one knows

no one knows
here i go
oh my gosh my soul

it's in pain
lacking gain
gloom in one hand
the left, insane

broken frame
life's a game
but without a story, so it's a shame
and that's the theme
that life's a shame
but its all okay cause it's a dream


or a nightmare a night terror
118 · Jul 2020
Untitled
EmperorOfMine Jul 2020
Bite me

were the words that i cast from my mouth, sinking the mental teeth of my rage within the ties that knot me and my enemy

I no longer will allow you to keep me captive
tortured
endlessly musing you

I hold my head, circling my temples

every single day
for months and months
why you
why must it be you

Pacing my minds pavement, tracking down my ever speeding train of thought

I want you gone, out of this becoming

Silenced from this world and banned from it's premises
A force of corruption in lust with my demise
Evil in choice but so meek in the human eye

I challenge your character
We are just beginning
117 · Jul 2019
Shadowbanned
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
Hold my tongue or speak my heart
A game, a match, war in the dark
Surrounded by people, ghosts led me alone
Shadowbanned, shadowbanned all on my own.

Whisper my feelings, paint them online,
Not always pretty, the original kind,
Not the best picture, not very talented,
Its raw,
it's true,
but I guess it has to be better
I can paint a pretty picture
I can lie for you
I hope people relate to these poems.
Maybe
117 · Nov 2020
Basically
EmperorOfMine Nov 2020
Basically,

i feel like this year went by so fast and yet it's also felt like a century
both of our finals in the ballots were bad
so many unrepresented catastrophes are happening as we speak
it feels like we are approaching the end of life as we know it
education is necessary, but the education system is a ripoff
equity is more appropriate than equality, however, is it possible to have equality because of equity?
toy story came out 22 years ago
**** is actually a really cool herb, that can be consumed in so many ways
*** is overrated
relationships are slowly being demonized and selfishness is romanticized
humility does not simply equal donations or good deeds, nor is it just only accepting you flaws and red flags
we aren't even promised the very next moment, yet somehow we've pushed that so deep into our subconsciousness that we continue to live with this blind faith of a tomorrow. If you stop everything you are doing and you close your eyes, in an atmosphere of no distraction, you can slowly wash away every thought that you may have or want to create, sinking into an abyss of nothingness. Notice that you and your body are doing so many things right now without you actually being in control of any of it. There is no emergency button to power down because we are innately programmed to live forever unless destroyed by something. Your breathing is calm, traveling through your body, out of your nose most likely. Focusing on your forehead, and then behind that, deep inside your head, it's your conscious, just here, floating in the void in your mind. Unable to really do anything but influence you, like a machine, until you die. We're kind of like projects that our souls made, sims characters that live a whole life, and then after they expire, their experience is viewed and judged by the higher power, judging our souls artwork like a class assignment. If you pass, you get to graduate upward. If you fail, you fall forever downward, kind of like life now.

This **** is scary...tbh
117 · Nov 2018
Botherfly
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
I look in the mirror
You're [b]u[e]g[u]l[t]y[iful]
And I see something inside
A bug
And although, It was there
Too fragile
I analyzed its features
A m~****~o~er~t~fly~h
The wings were so complex, yet so light
Delicate, breakable...
There seems not to be a point in its creation...
It's bothersome...just a symbol
I've seen both of them get eaten by a dragonfly
Ripped their wings right off...
Something like that makes me wonder why.
117 · Jul 2020
Withering Smoke Dream
EmperorOfMine Jul 2020
Such a pleasantry to go to town
Like a lullaby, it's going down
And all their sentences, six months of hell
Like taking a smoke trip with ringing bells
oh
a withering smoke dream
Can't know what it means
A lack of some clarity
Nothing's what it seems
so
Falling through a smoke cloud
The racing singing drowns out
A somber phased reality
An endless galaxy
117 · Feb 2020
Meshuga
EmperorOfMine Feb 2020
Ever felt it?
That abomination in the back of your chest?
The warm, subtle, frenzy; a play on insanity?
Right there, touch it, right in the center.
Not the heart...but close.
Hidden behind the apocalypse animated in your mind.

Pressure, in the brain.
Feel a little insane.
Will it go away?
Can it even be tamed?

Lost in the dark,
Swimming with sharks,
Jabbed by enough,
Jagged and rough,

I'm just meshuga,
Worried by could'ves'
Explosive conceptions
Smoke choked by hookas

Tell me I'm ready
Flying to freedom
Afloat and steady
Reaching for kingdoms

I'm falling forward
Nose-diving toward
Pavement-made jungles
Vision is bordered

Raining disaster
Coming down faster
Searing with laughter
End is the capture
116 · Jul 2019
Toy
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
Toy
There was once a feeling when talking to you
That held up my hope and gave me a smile
A feeling for you, where the gates of this world
The struggles it could provide couldn't touch me
Inspiration passively grew, fluttering it's little wings around my head
Ideas and desires fueling my day
You had a potency like no other
But that made you dangerous too.

You had a wrap on me like no other
Capable of captivating my mentality and sending me off
into depravity, silently sickened by the tragedy of losing me or you
What a world, where the same person that bought me joy could also play with my heart like a toy
116 · Nov 2019
Starborne
EmperorOfMine Nov 2019
Brought from Heaven
Made from a spell
Summon an angel
Ring the honey-bell
Fall from the sky
Wish upon the star
Here I come, my love
I'm closer than I am far
See that shimmering
Reach out to grasp it
Cause it's me smiling
Something you won't resist
Bring out a miracle
Enjoy the fortune
Feel the serenity
Let me sing you a love tune
115 · Oct 2020
Epiphany
EmperorOfMine Oct 2020
I feel as though I lived multiple lives
Existed through multiple timelines
Experienced super phenomenal things
But I do not believe in reincarnation if we are to have a soul.

I've been a woman, with many grandchildren and kids, happily stowed away in the rural painting away from the city. Swinging over the edge of a hill colored yellow, because of the sea of sunflowers beneath me, on a wooden swing my husband made for me.
This was a good life.

I've been the boy who was traumatized, isolated, neglected, driven under...

I've been the suburban girl who had a seemingly steady life, as a common crate, but with enough resources to stably get to where it needs to be because it's protected and considered more valuable.

I've been a sky knight, gifted his wings through tedious training, with the goal of protecting the lives of the civilians that pledged underneath the Oath of The Highest Power.

I've seen many things...
But sometimes I have deja vu

And I'm starting to think that deja vu is connected to these lives, BUT also connected to the theory that someone keeps changing the future, by changing the past.
114 · Nov 2019
Untitled
EmperorOfMine Nov 2019
Sometimes pain can be really funny,
Especially when you saw it coming,
You had the chance to dodge the gun, but stood like a deer, shot dead
But what's the funniest is that you never really die,
Stuck on an endless repeat of the same journey,
But it becomes less than surprising,
And you wonder if you can ever really beat it,
But that's why it's so funny,
You have the knowledge, but that's the theme of fate,
No matter how much you know, you'll never really win,
All you can do is accept that you're out of control,
And then maybe, maybe it'll end.
114 · Aug 2020
Door
EmperorOfMine Aug 2020
In the seemingly endless void, a door sits in the center.
A light shines a circle around the door.
You may knock on the door, but will someone answer?
This door is decorated, colored, and shaped in its own unique way.
This door leads to someone's life.
Just because it's there does not mean to interact, however, it doesn't not mean to either.
Would you go to the door and destroy it, despite the acknowledgment that it is not yours?
Would you like the same in return?
Then don't do that to someone's life.
113 · Feb 2019
Valiant
EmperorOfMine Feb 2019
hate to break it to you
but step on your brakes and take a few breaths
pace yourself cause the news i have will put you to the test
this world's falling faster than our minds can grasp so we leave it to tomorrow
although we know it can end tonight, the powers who hold it are hollow
all i ask of you today is to remember that this day could be taken anyway and put your living shell in decay
listen for the words i'll say because there's something in your way
blinded by the thing that wants you dazed
so when you're attacked you'll be hazed
a blunt attack that can only faze
and send you into a mental maze
113 · Sep 2018
Nothing
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
What a wonder
O' you are
Now I ponder
The ends not far
Yet I feel lost
I've lost my glow
A mental picture
Of how life goes...

Ticking timing empty bomb
Lost all my fire powers gone
And yet I can't help but feel full
Of nothing, that's just how I boom
A living losing TNT
I feel my life falling from me
A world of hatred in this heart
Coated in sadness, foreign parts...

Coated in sadness
Here I go
Exploding madness
Blackened soul
It's better I just disappear
All I have asked
Was for an ear...




It's better I just disappear...
Somethings aren't tragic
...Like my tears.
112 · Sep 2018
In The End You Shut Down
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Lucidity is something we take for granted.
I sure do...
And yet I move on with my life blindly...
And so do you too.
As we ponder out our night,
Planning out our next move.
Praying away all future strifes,
To ourselves for better moods,
We know this world not be as sound.
Where is the end leading us to?
The end being a power outage...
Our end we shut down when life's due.
112 · Feb 2020
Sleep Paralysis
EmperorOfMine Feb 2020
If I held my breath every time I thought of you, I wonder if I'd die,
Set in pause, held there forever in my subconscious, lingering,
Parasite,
You're not what I fear.

I've lost my words to play the right song,
So instead I smile and I play along,
If for every time I wanted to scream, erasing you from my dreams...,
Would I drone in the background, neverending?

What's this that I cannot wipe away, ash and shadows, symbols of decay,
Ghosted by hope, I hope to one day forget all of you that lingers,

Because unless you come to me as a polar opposite of the one that broke me...
I'll never be able to remove the grip of your fingers.
111 · Mar 2019
Empty
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
Gripping on my soul as I look into the shadow
Morphing and dilating like a pupil in the night
Sending chills down my everlasting spine
Rushing winds flashing me signs
Held back by this giant man
Guarding me against this hellish plan
As the other attempts to pull me in this wake
Telling me that it's for my own sake
Gaze at my toes, drifting further away into the hole
Sinking as the time around simply froze
Left alone with this thing nobody knows
110 · Oct 2018
Down The Drain
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Once an ocean
Now a dessert
Living broken
Walking hazard
Silent Thunder
Intense shaking
Sudden sunder
Abrupt thinking
Once a painting
Full of virtue
Now lights waning
My light is due
Wandering
Here comes the dark
My body sinks
Alert the sharks
110 · Mar 2019
Solo Campaign
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
It's okay to smile alone because that smile is probably the most sincere smile you can give.
110 · Sep 2020
SBB
EmperorOfMine Sep 2020
SBB
Spellbound baby
cast the curse
Coated birthright in the burst
Forging secrets
Scribed to hair
Tattooed thoughts and tattletales
Spellbound baby
Find the cure
Save this soul
With something pure
110 · Jun 2020
Opposition of Exploitation
EmperorOfMine Jun 2020
Question, Butterfly;
How does it feel to be seen as better,
Because you are the prettier family member,
I'm pretty,
Because you're delicate,
I'm delicate,
Because you're a symbol,
I have meaning,
Tell me, how do you feel,
Looking down on me...

I will not be used as a symbol of the misunderstood,
Treated like a monster because I am from the hood,
When I, too, had a dream that the world changed,
Where the street was safe for everyone because we were together,
No one was hungry, because the food didn't go to waste,
And there was less stress because we slowed down our pace,
I dreamed of a world were we progress,
Hatred is called out, challenged, defeated, history wasn't repeated,
The future wasn't a dream, but the present,
Thankful for the day we have, the day we will have.
No longer feeling entitled to anything, but humble and grateful,
I accept the world for what it is, but it must progress,
For if it is to be a world I desire to live in, it must change,
It will change,
I will see to it that it does, so long as I live on it.
And my change is for progression.
We will move forward,
We will live,
In the name of love,
In the light of peace,
I am determined.
109 · Apr 2019
Sedative
EmperorOfMine Apr 2019
I try not to get tongue-tied when I glare at the obvious wrongs before me...

I cannot continue to constantly cry because I bleed my words out for no inspiring reason.

Wondering why we wake up and try to live our lives surrounded by people who tiptoe on their words, stepping onto those that they think they're superior over, I included...

But beyond myself, will anyone else be bold and brave enough to say what I just said?

Or instead, glance by, unphased until your dazed by the fact that you had a chance and yet you blew it, bombed it, tragic

Sad, yet, longly lost and losing hope in humanity, for the humanity that brings hope seems to be from a different reality

Dead or distant, but both are fiction to the now and the present, attendance is key, but if you're gone, or gone, you can't say that you belong when you and I know that's wrong...


In the end, no one wins, because instead of fighting together for something better, we separate, isolate, and we hate, just because we want to control something...sometimes..

leading to nothing...
Fun things burning behind the masks people love shining
Thinking it's better to be fake than to say fake
Even though lives are at stake...

...
And yet I bet I'm right.
People don't want meaning anymore that isn't repetitive
for even if it was repetitive, someone would find something to wrong, linking to a sedative

Sleeping soundly, waiting for the world to end
But what will you do if it already is
Pretend to not care and destroy your whole life
Cutting up your story into pieces with lies lining your knife...

In the end...it always restarts again.
No change, so how can we even win?
109 · Sep 2018
Ghosts Don't Flirt
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Ghosts don't flirt...
But neither do they have much to flirt with...
No one can see them...
Not like they wish they could be seen...
Wandering, no, hovering over the ground with their head down
There are no catcalls...
But then again...there's nothing at all
No smiles that aren't practiced
No compliments that may catch them off guard
No one that has the guts to say that they care
How are they supposed to know that they are even there...
Oh.


It's hard to love being a ghost when you're the only friend or mate you'll ever know.
109 · Jan 2019
Circles
EmperorOfMine Jan 2019
This story starts,
Underneath
I look in the puddle underneath my feet
I see
A portal into another dimension
To walk
Is to breathe
Falling forward ever after
A story like a rapture
Awake
For my sake
Is how the story goes to make
My soul starts to shake
I know
To appreciate
For the ending has to show
And oh, I fold
The strings of fate to take the place
Of destiny
It's the only way I'll see
The golden warning
Forcing distant tension
A movie in immersion
Facing the ceiling when it ends
A looping limbo all over again
109 · Dec 2020
Poem
EmperorOfMine Dec 2020
I am a poem
Long as I am short
Delicate, as I am tough
Deep as I am simple
Raw as I am protected
I am a poem, that forms poems
Echoing many emotions and birthing them into writing
To be called a poem by a poet
a beautiful lyricist that can form adventures through their very thoughts
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.
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To call me a poem, and a beautiful one
In itself is a poem.
108 · Oct 2020
Grounded
EmperorOfMine Oct 2020
Grounded
To the floor beneath me
I still within my flesh and call out to the holy star
Drenched in the energy of the night, restrained within the vacancy
Absent in will, I shudder underneath the fear collected
possessive, aggressive, obsessive
Relentless, claustrophobia triggered by the closing walls
within me

blurring my vision, i feel heavy, as if there is something on me
\i\\cannot feel my legs, my eyes stuck open
forced by the grips of hell and then...

...i saw it...

Welcoming me with it's discomforting grin,
"let me in"
It would utter
a monster it is
And yet I cannot move
Singing to me, it retells my life, piece by piece, bit by bit
Every single moment I've ever encountered

The tears I wept eased into the hue of my blood

I could finally speak...but the sound that left my mouth was not my own

"I like my new home; I feel grounded"
108 · Mar 2019
Darkened
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
Dancing alone in a park of roses
A wonder this crazy mentality
Say yes, ok, I'll be alright
And swim in an ocean of tears I seeped

A wonderful somberland full of glumbugs
A ditzy blue fogged tragedy
Prickled the maze of roses galore
I've already hit max capacity

Combustion is safer than coldly lingering
But some of us beg to differ
I wished people could just be brutally honest
Even if it ended with me under a trigger
108 · Nov 2020
pillow ponder
EmperorOfMine Nov 2020
I can feel myself dying, gradually, declining in my competence

I'm scared, to die alone, to live alone...
Withering amongst the white noise, surrounded by the stories of the wandering.

I've noticed all the souls I've felt myself calling for...are all calling on to someone else; some even caught and carried through.

I'm scared.


Is there something wrong with me?
Am I just too different of a fish in this polluted sea?
Covered in debris, I'm sorry...

I can't tell anymore.
I thought I was ok; counting my working limbs, every working sense...

I have a lot to give. Love, care, loyalty, authenticity...

I'm healthy, alive, with a passion or two...


I am enough...right


right


idk anymore

but here i am...i guess
after I left his house...i began to wonder...
107 · Nov 2020
Mellow
EmperorOfMine Nov 2020
I told someone exactly what I meant
Taking away a privilege because I realized my worth
Humbled by my mistakes and the person in the mirror
I noticed that after all those tears last night
Those life-changing temptations in a blur
Behind those evil voices destroying my character
I made it home, and I made some food
Despite feeling hungry
I didn't want to live another day any longer
But I spoke to someone about my classes and future
I set up a counselor for myself
DESPITE all that, I went to work
I want something,
and it hurts to not have it right now
But I haven't lost hope
Despite being dragged around time and time again
I wake up with almost childlike faith the next day
Subconsciously, I know I am protected
I got up and I started my day
and now I’m here, mellow
Knowing I could lose everything
Be all alone
But never alone
And having everything
Because I'm here and I'm determined
I'm happy
Feel alive.
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