He never left my mind
Though I see a different light
Distorted this time
It's hard to pick out what's the sight
A person or a monster
Such a mystery he is
But I want him next to me
For regardless that's how he exists
Like a brother who has died
He somehow is dear to me
Even when he kind of tried
To rip my soul away from me
Such as he has lost his heart
He still isn't that apart
For he's here, I wonder if I'm there
Haunted me
But here I am rewriting thoughts
Though my mind is not the same
Less distraught and now I'm dead
At least now my heart is tamed
I just feel like he is here
yet I don't feel I am there
kind of feel a bit insane
but is that the trick of the game
Haunted soul, I feel I am
Rocking, shifting, am I ******
What did happen to little old me
Haunted soul hunted by grief

It's not easy taking the blows
Letting the wind remain at a flow
Suffocating silently, no one can understand...
Frozen in time, in a sick wonderland

It's hard to breathe in a time like this
Reminds me of worse and a darkened kiss
Could It be me that deserves this torture
Don't watch me cry, that worsens my horror

It's hard enough to walk this alone
Now here it comes back freezing my bones
These tears can't end, I'm a walking tsunami
I hate my hearts heart, I've become a living zombie

I may spin and spin
Casting shadows of energy
Twirling here, and then there
For everyone that can see
And I may sing what I can bring
Sell a hell of a show
But it always ends up pointless
Maybe I'm otiose.

I can do it for myself
But my heart had selfless wings
No, it wasn't perfect
But I never solo when I sing
Yet a ghost is a ghost and sadly that's me
Maybe i'm otiose.

Once an ocean
Now a dessert
Living broken
Walking hazard
Silent Thunder
Intense shaking
Sudden sunder
Abrupt thinking
Once a painting
Full of virtue
Now lights waning
My light is due
Wandering
Here comes the dark
My body sinks
Alert the sharks

I look in the mirror
You're [b]u[e]g[u]l[t]y[iful]
And I see something inside
A bug
And although, It was there
Too fragile
I analyzed its features
A m~****~o~er~t~fly~h
The wings were so complex, yet so light
Delicate, breakable...
There seems not to be a point in its creation...
It's bothersome...just a symbol
I've seen both of them get eaten by a dragonfly
Ripped their wings right off...
Something like that makes me wonder why.

Gripping on my soul as I look into the shadow
Morphing and dilating like a pupil in the night
Sending chills down my everlasting spine
Rushing winds flashing me signs
Held back by this giant man
Guarding me against this hellish plan
As the other attempts to pull me in this wake
Telling me that it's for my own sake
Gaze at my toes, drifting further away into the hole
Sinking as the time around simply froze
Left alone with this thing nobody knows

Watch our spaceship fall
We called it a community
Then when we saw chaos we ran
Of course, it was too good to be
But he always got us somehow
Now here we are stuck
It is what it is
Crumbling, Amok

Frozen at this moment
Let it rain down, from my eyes onto my face
Set this reality into motion
Why can't I stop feeling like a disgrace
Sit down my heart, nothing's to fear around here
Jittery on anxiety and now I feel arrested again.

Melancholia has rested on my mind
Now I lie saying that I'm truly fine
Frozen at this moment
Can't complain
Can't obtain anything
Nothing's moving.

Now i'm stuck in this darkness
Watching hopelessness take its courses
What is there to do when all is lost
Run away, run away, it's not worth it.

Running down a windy road
Nowhere to hide nowhere to go
Looking behind try not to fall
Losing my mind from what I saw.

Wishing that hell would freeze over
Chasing me down a brick-built maze
Luck withers like four-leaf clovers
Strapped to the ground till fear is raised.

Caution meself for surprises
No one could know till one is made
Bitter the sane like some vices
Grip to a rope fall in the haze.

Something of worry smiled there
A thing not of a world like ours
Texture disturbed the raised neck hair
Grimacing from broken towers

Royalty, oh royalty, listen to my speech
Tell me how it feels to be so high up in your seat
Blessed with your beauty, though so empty from within
How'd you beat a game that only you would never win
Such a pretty prince placed so neatly on the board
A treasure piece, i hate to say, that I did once adore
So lost in your desire to control the perfect life
You'd break the other pawns, but to them, it was just the rife
I'd hate to have to tell you, but oh prince, woe, woe to you
Your reign of sorrow, so much demise, i am afraid, is due
Your soul has left you with a shell that won't have much to gain
Karma bites back, even you, my love, will drench under the rain.

hate to break it to you
but step on your brakes and take a few breaths
pace yourself cause the news i have will put you to the test
this world's falling faster than our minds can grasp so we leave it to tomorrow
although we know it can end tonight, the powers who hold it are hollow
all i ask of you today is to remember that this day could be taken anyway and put your living shell in decay
listen for the words i'll say because there's something in your way
blinded by the thing that wants you dazed
so when you're attacked you'll be hazed
a blunt attack that can only faze
and send you into a mental maze

I've come to terms with a pattern stuck on replay
Relaying information structured for a display
Assembling dancing motions to change up the picture
Meeting my choreography like I'm a dance teacher
A picture that adapts is a scene that's called a horror
Alive and presently mocking me as it survives on torture
A loop in the system, guess this is my story
A shortage in my lifespan from the endless worrying.

will   feel   life   time   soul   love   lost   mind   eyes   heart   light   hope   fall   game   people   day   good   boy   wonder   fear   left   start   friend   smile   story   falling   better   feeling   play   cry   sky   live   care   dark   felt   head   sea   find   things   tears   till   broken   free   die   living   ghost   lose   reality   place   pain   help   set   hell   keep   kind   full   cold   bad   wanted   dead   change   leave   peace   ponder   thing   sun   night   path   stuck   real   dream   call   going   black   watch   ground   open   true   blue   turn   hold   inside   darkness   guess   hard   hear   evil   thought   lives   scream   silent   coming   death   journey   mirror   hurt   knew   sing   thinking   wrong   shadow   war   beautiful   shadows   matter   fly   power   break   simply   snow   face   body   high   sound   scared   silence   fire   wings   star   happy   fun   pretty   man   emotions   move   sight   feels   win   breathe   crazy   thoughts   silently   built   long   longer   hearts   bring   easy   walk   feelings   sad   fight   art   deep   called   clouds   experience   somber   untitled   rain   save   moon   glass   forever   hand   hate   control   demon   moment   shine   friends   woe   met   crying   watching   dance   close   worse   chaos   gray   moth   ready   laugh   remember   cursed   losing   air   hide   harder   water   wake   rest   held   dancing   lie   insane   forget   motion   sweet   best   wind   forward   shame   realize   memories   endless   trapped   exist   warm   room   distant   finally   hollow   desire   color   dear   scene   singing   leaves   big   rage   souls   told   stay   listen   empty   today   coated   choice   days   door   dreams   fade   decay   tree   playing   demons   afraid   gloom   land   king   smiles   bully   heard   work   meaning   yeah   alive   darkened   waiting   fate   strong   point   meant   red   bitter   calling   simple   waste   grin   kiss   ends   underneath   sadness   worth   ace   pretend   sinking   speak   fast   faster   hoping   sleep   picture   colors   fine   starts   numb   loved   understand   energy   walking   cracks   lies   future   continue   stars   type   meet   wait   fallen   pretending   bed   piece   child   fated   surrounded   earth   sit   brain   chance   limbo   sink   hit   share   course   destroy   small   happened   hands   green   person   wondering   wonderland   lack   heavy   sake   sand   doubt   lights   begging   fragile   formed   crashing   answer   throat   sounds   ****   lips   bigger   hot   tired   fault   smoke   touch   weight   apart   accept   plan   curse   beauty   frozen   forgotten   mental   sudden   drowning   waves   existence   fell   leaving   blind   scary   running   attention   tragedy   bones   choose   talk   nightmare   adventure   human   stories   pattern   voice   weak   question   relate   funny   falls   hello   mouth   moments   send   poison   wishing   opened   reason   sugar   family   single   stranger   grip   starting   ghosts   died   disappear   actions   screaming   read   faith   deeper   making   dare   winning   crafted   realm   bug   lacking   forest   cease   key   forced   solo   eventually   whisper   song   glee   ear   deserve   alright   lone   destruction   year   smiling   times   hidden   settle   fading   stream   winter   abyss   cower   needed   hair   notice   word   ears   poem   suffer   trip   beast   crushed   changing   cast   girl   hurts   remain   lonely   quiet   mate   glow   jester   build   toy   ash   commotion   music   flow   telling   void   humanity   smiled   bit   fortune   great   confused   slowly   patterns   petals   faces   bomb   breath   ugly   depression   memory   circle   pleasure   tongue   sane   sings   wisdom   covered   cool   rainbow   butterfly   plastic   steady   sin   school   clear   gain   theme   sure   cake   poet   regret   towers   drown   cat   battle   happen   bound   perfect   asked   blinded   colored   truth   fact   cared   dying   swallow   trees   tension   led   watched   typical   crowd   dread   shout   grew

We build our towers
Without foundations
We stack stone on more stone
Whatever it takes
To hide that it's all wrong

There's something sour
Living in circles
I've seen this all before
But when all's said and done
I wake up on the floor

I take it
That i'm cursed to live in patterns
What's wasted
Is a life that I don't churn

I can't stop the commotion in my heart.
Please stop this pain from tearing me apart.
Why won't these feelings leave me the hell alone?
Beating me into the ground until I'm done and gone.

Persistent little devils whisper giggles in my ears.
They laugh and mock me, telling me all of my fears.
I try to engage in distractions, nothing ever seems to work.
I'm lost on a crossroad, oh god, why does this have to hurt.

This is not a bad truth
Stay in sync with an ending world
Settling in for a musical adventure
Igniting my transportation
Lend me a hand in hell and heaven
Recognize the living ending
Set your mind to a peace that will shine
Fortune to the clairvoyant
Foreshadowing a great demise

Ghosts don't flirt...
But neither do they have much to flirt with...
No one can see them...
Not like they wish they could be seen...
Wandering, no, hovering over the ground with their head down
There are no catcalls...
But then again...there's nothing at all
No smiles that aren't practiced
No compliments that may catch them off guard
No one that has the guts to say that they care
How are they supposed to know that they are even there...
Oh.


It's hard to love being a ghost when you're the only friend or mate you'll ever know.

woke up today feeling empty
I can't feel something without someone feeling worse
And so what I feel becomes nothing
No one can see you the smaller you are
It places me in a place of gloom
I become a tomb for the dead living
Call me strange for being sad on your best day
But when you can't see my struggle
You don't get to judge my gloom
Now I have to bite you
I must bring you down to my level
I need you to be able to see me
If you can't save me
Understand
It's not easy
Being a gloom bug


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If you're reading this
It's because of the title
And I wonder if you'll type anything
Or scroll away
And move on
With nothing to say
Because maybe you were looking for something
Something to relate to or make you feel good
Well, maybe this would:



You don't have to be a poet to express yourself
But if it helps, good.
Just remember, some people make poems public
because they notice people care
but the risk is that some people
can make you feel like you were never there
So stay strong
Smile
Look in that mirror
At your eyes
And remember
If bad comes, so does good.

I told someone exactly what I meant
Taking away a privilege because I realized my worth
Humbled by my mistakes and the person in the mirror
I noticed that after all those tears last night
Those life-changing temptations in a blur
Behind those evil voices destroying my character
I made it home, and I made some food
Despite feeling hungry
I didn't want to live another day any longer
But I spoke to someone about my classes and future
I set up a counselor for myself
DESPITE all that, I went to work
I want something,
and it hurts to not have it right now
But I haven't lost hope
Despite being dragged around time and time again
I wake up with almost childlike faith the next day
Subconsciously, I know I am protected
I got up and I started my day
and now I’m here, mellow
Knowing I could lose everything
Be all alone
But never alone
And having everything
Because I'm here and I'm determined
I'm happy
Feel alive.