PoetryForTheSoul94: Poems

3d · 562

Justice

PoetryForTheSoul94 3d

Justice

Even though I remain silent, it doesn’t mean that I am broken, innocence just completely stolen, you knew what you did was wrong but yet nothing came from it, trying to get justice for it all to go astray, you didn’t give a ******* were just able to walk away.

For me it’s different, flashbacks freeze me in my body, eyes darted at people who are just enjoying themselves, but I’m on the lookout for something to happen, it never does but I feel so trapped.

Justice comes in so many forms but yet I feel none, even though I have moved on my body doesn’t, the heart palpitations, my breathing stops, eyes keep moving and I begin to shake,

I don’t know why I feel this way, all I wanted was justice just one time, while you can move on and it doesn’t seem to matter to you.

Maybe one day just once I could get my body back, the road is long but I am on the right track.

My body is not something for you to enjoy anymore, it is a body that shows more love than it should at times. I know one day I will feel safe again.

But why must I feel like everyone is an enemy rather than a friend?

#sadness #fear #****** #assault #harassment #bravery

5d · 1.3k

Withdrawal

PoetryForTheSoul94 5d

Withdrawal

I live in a state of paranoia, the shame follows me like a plague.

Memories flood my brain like horrific hurricanes.

I wonder what they speak about before they sleep?

I wonder what is said through walls as mumble words softly bellow into my place of rest.

But yet, it is silence that keeps me awake, my brain likes to form the words for me.

“They will speak to you in the morning”

My mind laughs as my heart beats so hard that I feel it almost jump out of my chest.

Stomach in a knot, I’m constantly filled with dread.

Maybe it would be better if I was dead.

#depression #scared #sadness #self #hate

Sep 17 · 1.8k

Reality

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 17

Reality

We are so different it’s kinda weird almost like chalk and cheese, wasnt expecting you to completely change after a month of not seeing you, it’s just the weirdest feeling knowing I’ve to let you go, because even speaking feels so hard and I feel like I’m talking to a wall.

But being honest I knew it was gonna happen, the two of us do nothing but snap, but now even trying to have a laugh everything feels fake, maybe keeping you around was a ******* mistake.

It kills me but it happens…

#broken #sadness #heartbreak #lost #friendship

Sep 15 · 1.0k

23

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 15

23

The first few weeks were absolute heaven, I finally found the love of my life!

Or so I thought…

More than a decade between us, I felt more childish compared to you, but yet you acted the same age.

You took advantage of my innocence, my curiosity and my inability to make right decisions. Not once did you give a ****.

You allowed me to be bullied, almost daily may I add.
You didn’t care, whatsoever!

I hope to never make anyone feel so unloved if anything… I over pour the cups of everyone I meet, just to prove I can.

You don’t have control over me anymore, I can finally breathe.

Since taking off the rose tinted glasses..

I can clearly see.

#heartbreak #love #sadness

Sep 14 · 1.3k

To You

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 14

To You

Thank you for showing me how to love again. Thank you for being a lover and a best friend.
For all the ways you show me your love.
I honestly couldn’t thank you enough.

I never knew that love could make me feel this way. That is all because you are just being you. You are everything I’ve ever wanted, all wrapped in one.

I would give you the world and then some to prove my love to you, I’m so close to throwing up a line to the moon just to drag it to you.

Your smile lights up the darkest of days, your laughter is the greatest ringtone to come from you. Don’t get me started on your voice, almost like an angel sent from heaven.

1257 days of love and plenty more to go, I love you more than you’ll ever know.

#love #relationships #happiness

Sep 12 · 1.4k

Dear Dad

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 12

Dear Dad

Honestly, my heart is broken in two.
Hearing you say,

“There’s another number I won’t get to use.”

The grief you carry, like so many of your friends, you carry silently, tears forming.

Rather than a hug which everyone would prefer, you carry them on your shoulder, to their final place.

At one point it was almost weekly!

You turn to me, in your grief and try to reassure me.

“You are better off lonely rather than having days like today.”

I really wish I knew what to say, if only I could take that pain away.

#sadness #grief #lonely #death

Sep 9 · 951

I Pray

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 9

I Pray

I pray for those who cannot see the light,
I pray for those who lay awake crying at night,
For those who are too afraid to stand up and scream what they have to say,
I pray for those who get bullied everyday,
For the people who feel alone,
For the one’s that feel like life isn’t going their way.

I am here to tell you you’re not alone,
No matter what you think you are never on your own,
Don’t ever be afraid at what life throws at you,
You can beat it
I believe in you!

I hope you look at these words,
Maybe take them as reflection,
No matter what you’re going though,
Everything is a lesson,
I know what it is like,
I have been here before,

For every closed room,
I am here to open a door.

#spiritual #healing #self #worth #peace

Sep 7 · 2.2k

Believe

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 7

Believe

I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say, if only I knew how to take your pain away,

Don’t you worry I will find a way, just please stay with me and just pray,

You are strong you are the best don’t worry please just remember it is all a test,

You are loved you are so strong, don’t you worry you are never alone

Don’t you worry little me I got you

#happiness #spirituality #emotional #hopeful #motivation

Mar 20 · 361

Brain

PoetryForTheSoul94 Mar 20

Brain

I wish I could, open up my brain sometimes,
Show everyone what it’s like, they all would say,

“Sure it’s a normal brain, everyone’s the same”

Nah it really isn’t you see, because there is something different with mine, I’d show it to you if you have time?

I might “look” okay but, my brain races,
I might say that I am okay, but within moments,
My brain creates scenario's for a million different things, that dont even exist,

If only you could see it, some days, it’s repaired,
Next, it’s beyond.
I don’t know what to do how the **** am I suppose to respond?

Some days I feel everything,
Others I feel numb,
On top of that,
A voice,
Saying,
Dumb, dumb, dumb.

#depression #anxiety #sadness #hurt #upset #thoughts

Mar 15 · 220

Mam

PoetryForTheSoul94 Mar 15

Mam

Mammy, you’re a warrior,
You have shown such courage,
As I wrapped my arms around you, I hold back tears.
I haven’t been able to think or do too much,
I’ve been going back to when we could have helped you,

Those little death sticks must be laughing at us, they have the greatest hold, almost like a secret to never be told.

You look like yourself but I know you’re trying to break though, don’t worry mammy I do see you.

#love #recovery #help #sadness #depression

Mar 13 · 332

Untitled

PoetryForTheSoul94 Mar 13

Untitled

It made us feel so happy,
Knowing that you were there,
Whenever we needed someone to talk to
We knew you would always care.

When we would visit to see how you were,
You would look up and smile,
It would bring a tear to our eye,
When we would talk to you for a while.

When we found out that you weren’t feeling well,
We didn’t know what to say,
By then, we couldn’t tell.

Now, your journey has come to an end,
Our hearts go out to you,
We will never forget you,
We will always love you.

#sadness #grief #loss #heartbreak #therapy

Mar 13 · 334

Razor Regret

PoetryForTheSoul94 Mar 13

Razor Regret

This morning I woke up
Stomach in a knot
My eyes adjust to the light in the room
I raise my hands to my face
I noticed my wrists as I do

I feel angry at myself

“I am fine, I don’t need any help
There are worse than I come on it’s been ages since I last cried”

I feel embarrassed, ashamed and full of regret
I hide the pain sketched onto my wrists
I try to forget that it exists

I tell no one about what I have done
I don’t need the help
The battle has been won

#depression #self #hate #anger #sadness

Mar 12 · 252

When the smoke fades

PoetryForTheSoul94 Mar 12

When the smoke fades

Brain fuzzed like a cloud of smoke,
Every bad thought just vanished,
I am not going to lie, it feels amazing.
Cocooned in a loving embrace,
It makes me feel safe.

Once the cocoon falls off, my mind is racing.
Every thought comes back like one massive hurricane, hurling every emotion like debris,
Out through anger and frustration.

Once it stops, I stand and look,
Broken promises and conversation like shattered glass spilled onto the floor making it hard to walk.

Everyone is shocked at my actions, my parents heartbroken and hurt. My siblings, they pretend not to notice but I see the sadness as they refuse to talk.

I still don’t care, I love feeling numb,
I love not feeling myself and feeling ****** up,
So I then again turn to my old friend,
Then the cycle begins once again.

#addiction #addictionawareness

Mar 2 · 237

Moving On

PoetryForTheSoul94 Mar 2

Moving On

Today, I only thought of you once.
Today, you did not consume my heart.
Today, you did not make me fall apart.
Today, I found my real strength.
Today, is the day, I can grow and love again.

#love #sadness #accepting

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