never have i begged
my legs to give way,
but i have begged
you to catch me.                              
            
                                        i may ask for your love
                                     **but i will never betray my own.

i will lay kisses
upon your chest
to understand what it means
to speak from the heart.

(please never stop beating.)

It's about being broken enough
to where scars are reminders
of the days you could remember
exactly what hurt
**you.

there is nothing more to do but let the rain pour. it is pointless to try but we all try pointless things in the hope that they won't be for us. we throw umbrellas to the sky in anger and stamp in puddles out of frustration.

"IT JUST NEVER LISTENS!"
"IT JUST NEVER TRIES!"

from throats that are filled with apathy but momentarily outraged.
we think it will be different.
we try to make be different.
we start begging it to be different.
yet

It still rains.
(and we are at a loss.)