That smile,
That gentle smirk on your face.
It trapped me,
It left me here,
Speechless.

Tomorrow I'll see it again,
And I'm scared.
I keep thinking,
What do you think of me?

Love,
Lust,
Both.

Am I just a plaything?
Will you throw me away,
As soon as you get bored of me?

You are my XTC,
And I'm addicted.
Addicted to falling in love with you

I'm just a normal girl,
who fell in love with a normal boy.
What am I scared off?
I don't know

Thoughts of him consume my every move,
and thoughts of losing him even more.
But you can't lose what you don't have,
can you?

The longer I stay away,
the more I feel him slipping.
Like grains of sand falling through my fingers.

Hell,

What am I thinking?

I'm just a normal girl,
I fell in love with a normal boy.
There's nothing to be afraid of,
I know

No words I can speak.
Nothing more than silence that has taken hold of your presence,
embraced it and took it away.
An empty spot next to the lamp I gave for your birthday,
remembering how I spoiled the present by a slip of the tongue,
not knowing that you wouldn't even outlive the lamps guarantee,
not knowing that someday soon,
you would not be here with me.