You were to one who decided to go.

And yet you crawl back to me.

After I finally thought I was free,

you still think I don't know.


I'm not dumb, I remember what you've done.

I remember how toxic and manipulative you are.

I remember all those emotional scars.

Is this your idea of "fun"?


Manipulating. Making people love you.

Then breaking their hearts and being mean.

Gotta admit, you're pretty good. I fell for your evil scheme.

But know now what I can do.


I'm cutting ties with you my "friend".

And I hope that your nasty plan will end.

You were the shelter to my storm.

You saved me from the outside threat,

and inside you kept me warm.

Together, we watched the sun set.


In your arms I felt safe from,

the raging storm outside.

Wondering  what we will become,

of me if you left my side.


But for now, can we stay like this?

Until the storm outside goes away,

let's continue this everlasting bliss.

Please. Could you stay?

What am I supposed to do?

When all I’ve ever was you?

What will I do then?

Will it happen again?

When the first love ends,

You feel lost.

You don't want to just be friends.

You fell in love but what did it cost?


Being rejected and pushed away.

Being emotionless. Lonely.

Every hour of every day,

thinking of your one and only.


It may have cost a lot,

But what lesson did you learn?

It's that you're stronger than you thought.

That you can push though. Even when it burns.


When the first love comes to a halt,

A new feeling comes around.

A feeling that it wasn't your fault.

A feeling that no one can put you down.


When the first love is over,

Sadness may feel like forever.

But once you regain your composure,

You're stronger than ever.

Under the countless stars,

I ponder and wait for a clue.

What was I meant to do?

W̶h̶y̶ ̶a̶m̶ ̶I̶ ̶h̶e̶r̶e̶?̶



What was I waiting for?

Will it be worth the wait?

Was it to decide my fate?

I̶ ̶f̶o̶r̶g̶e̶t̶.̶



All I remember was a feeling.

Like I had to wait and see.

Like I had to wait to be free.

W̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶i̶s̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶s̶a̶d̶n̶e̶s̶s̶?̶



Was it for help?

Was it for something more?

Seriously, what was it for?

W̶h̶y̶ ̶s̶h̶o̶u̶l̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶s̶t̶a̶y̶?̶


I guess I'll wait till' the sun goes down.

W̶h̶y̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶h̶e̶l̶l̶ ̶s̶h̶o̶u̶l̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶s̶t̶i̶c̶k̶ ̶a̶r̶o̶u̶n̶d̶?̶

"Move on"

All we can do is

Say

We're fine

Even if we're not okay

It's not good

Keep lying

We can't

Snap out of it

It's a bad habit

Can't get rid of it

But you

Keep trying

Keep going

Just stop and

Look around

No one's there

Don't think that

They'll be there for you.



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