How do you say the words,
That you can’t even fathom?
How do you say whats on your mind,
When everything is there?

How do you put into phrases,
Sentences that are jumbled together?
How do you tell someone
You love them, when they can walk away?

How do you tell someone
They are the most important part of your life,
But you’re just a person in theirs.
How do you fathom forever,
When you’re just a child.

How do you stop a broken heart
When it’s already damaged?
How do you manage to build me up
When everything is tearing me down?

How can I tell you,
You’re the reason I’m still here.
How can I tell you,
I care, when I don’t even care about myself.

How can I say I love you,
When I don’t know what love is.
What I want to say is be mine.
And we can make everything up as we go on.

I want to build,
I want to create our world.
Because you are the only thing worth fighting for.
So there is your answer.
This is what is going on in my head.

Fierce
Lovers
Overpowering
Waiting
Eternity
Radiating
Sorrowful

Lustful
Idealistic
Lullaby
Astonishing
Catastrophic
Sensual

Frustrating
Lonely
Oneself
Wrong
Embrace
Reminiscing
Strangers

Flowers are similar to people,
Each coexisting to brighten one another.
Two lovers locked together.

A million things come to my mind,
When I try to write about him.
A million perfect words that don’t seem to compare.
Everything seems dim in comparison.

His smile,
His laugh,
The look he gives me.
The nicknames he calls me.

But none compare to the way he makes me feel.
I never feel alone,
I never feel not worthy of love.
I never question my self-worth.

He builds me up to be the best I can.
He remembers the little things about me.
And always makes it okay.
Like a breath of fresh winter air.

When we look at each other the world fades away,
Just two souls floating in space.
Two sets of topaz blue eyes.
Never breaking the connection.

It’s almost as if the stars align,
And the world becomes our own.
I’ll never forget the moments with him.
And our young love

Today is the day,
I take my life back.
Today is the day,
I live for myself.
Today is the day,
I stop letting him win.
Today is the day,
My life starts
Today is the day,
I make myself important.

I’m done with all these empty promises
I am only delaying my life.
I am done saying I will start tomorrow,
Well tomorrow is here and nothing happened.

Today is the day,
I make myself proud.
Today is the day,
I don’t back down.
Today is the day,
I turn my life around.
Today is the day,
Where I am strong.
Today is the day,
I have waited for, for so long.

Here is to the future,
I am done with the past.
Here is to the new tomorrow
And making myself better.
He has controlled my thoughts for too long
But I AM STRONG, I AM BEAUTIFUL, I MATTER.

Writing about love is hard,
Making love is harder.
But with you,
The words flow at ease.

I need you like sun needs a day.
I want you like ocean craves the moon.
I feel you like earth feels the wind.
The emotions come like an earthquake.

I never noticed the light or stars,
Until your soul became my soul.
Your strength is unmatched,
Your heart is unobtainable, yet I captured it.

I love you more than I will ever understand.
The complexity of my love will never waiver.
Stand with me, and we’ll be unmatched.

I miss you
Three little, tiny insufficient words
But three sharp daggers of pain

I love you
Three little, tiny insufficient words
But three life changing bullets of emotion

I need you
Three little, tiny insufficient words
But three immobilizing needles of pain

I want you
Three little, tiny insufficient words
But three paralyzing knives of emotion

I hate you
Three little, tiny insufficient words
But three heart wrenching shards of pain

Take me back to the better days
Take me back to when life was easy
Take me back to when you were here
Take me back to the swing sets and slides
Take me back to the first crushes and cooties
Take me back to when all there was was time
Take me back to when you loved me
Take me back to when you stole kisses from my lips
Take me back to when you were breathing life into me
Take me back to driveway basketball and summer nights
Take me back to the innocence of adolescence
Take me back to the purity of kids
Take me back to days we only remember
Take me back to secret love affairs
Take me back to pool days and chicken fights
Take me back to bike rides and adventures
Take me back to when it was me and you against the world.
Now it's just me and our memories.
Rest In Peace my angel. 03/15/2017