Jesus, Allah, Yahweh, Buddha
I don’t know which one of y’all is real
So I’m going to tell you all how I feel
I’m in pain
The sun is shining but to me it seems like all it does is rain
I’m so drained
Emotionally, physically, and spiritually
Do you all even remember my name?
it seems like you’ve forgotten
I feel so rotten
As if my soul is starting to decay
I wish more than anything that  I could be washed away
To a better place
But we all know that’s not the case
that’s why we need to sit down and have this face-to-face
I don’t know how much more of this I can take
And I feel like y’all are being mighty ******* fake  
So for goodness sake
Listen to my prayers if you care
Because I can feel my heart starting to tear
Like I said I don’t know how much more of this I can bear

Set ablaze by the forceful flame of  fallaciousness and failure
Fueled by my foolishness
It’s burns with such passion
A flame that can not be contained
it’s too massive
Ashes Ashes
I burn to the ground
Everything I thought I knew comes crumbling down
The smell of burned expectations
Is all around
Nothing left but a pile of dust on the ground
My whole life unwound
Yet I can see so clearly now
This flame of pain cleared up a new domain
Even after a wildfire life still remains
Like a phoenix I have arisen from the flames
This lesson will not be taken in vain
I now know my worth...This is my rebirth

Listen to my voice as I sing
I need silence as my high and low notes ring
From a gentle spring
To a raging sea
It’s crazy how life can change so drastically
One minute you’re free
Then stationary like a tree
Listen to this song of life
A bitter sweet melody

A smile so bright
But your eyes beg to differ
Behind that bright smile is something much dimmer
I’m looking into the eyes of a scarred sinner
It’s like I’m looking into the mirror
Of my own tortured Soul
It’s so cold
I wish more than anything to give it warmth
So come forth
Let me transform you
Your damaged I’m damaged too
But together we can make it through

A house full of pain
That’s what I became
Foreclosed because it became too much to maintain  
3 bolts and a chain
Secured my front door, my domaine
No one can invade
But then you came
And nothing was the same
You didn’t need to knock
Because you picked the lock
It came as such a shock
you’re a carpenter and I’m a broken house so we interlocked
You made repairs
No more wear and tear
Follow me down stairs
You must be exhausted  
Allow me to quench you thirst
Time for me to put you first
Let me repay you for all your work

You slithered into my garden
With such beauty and grace
I thought you came to play but To my dismay
You were not what you were trying to covey
You thought you were just going to take and leave
Oh how easy you thought that would be
A Conesoyr of sorts
A man of all trades
But you see I was specially made
You just bit into forbidden fruit
Grown from a tree with poisonous roots
It’ll turn your heart black
There is no going back
You need to be cleansed of all your deceit  so tonight  I’ll give you a bloodbath
It’s time for you to feel my wrath
You’ll wish you never slithered onto to my path
And when I’m done with you every garden will be safe from your attack
You’ll feel my pain
Oh Snake you’ll be slain

I thought our love would last forever
So convinced I got your initials on me and that’s going to last forever
I know that wasn’t very clever
However
Love makes you do whatever
Never did I see us falling apart
Because you’ve always been my heart
You’ve done wrong I’ve done wrong too
but through it all I’ve always loved you
And I knew we would always come through
I guess I’m just something you  outgrew  
Just know my love for you has always been true
I hope this pain in my heart will pass through
Know I’ll truly miss me and you

Where will I go when I die
Will I rise to the sky
Or sink to my fiery demise
Will my bones decay
And my soul remain
Heaven or Hell which will my soul claim
Sometimes you have to throw low blows in this fight called life
To avoid those poisonous snakebites
So yes I’ve done wrong but I’ve also done right
Understand that there are things I wish I could rewrite
But I can’t
So it’s out of mind and out of sight
I won’t make the same mistakes twice
Keep that in Mind when you choose whether or not I see your heavenly light

I met the Moon
I feel in love with the view
It radiated it’s light into my dark room
Allowing this Night Flower to Bloom
All those phases it goes through
Some darker than others
But no matter what it’s light always shines bright
Asteroids and meteorites
Collided causing craters in its surface
Far from smooth
yet so imperfectly perfect
I met the moon
I feel in love with it too

You cracked my heart in two
So I shed a million tears over you
But don’t be misconstrued
Because each tear sowed a seed
With the absence of your parasitic weeds
And your darkness removed
The sun began to shine through
Then  the strongest of trees grew
Bearing the sweetest tasting fruit
When you become tired and hungry en route
Once your life starts to drought
My trees will be no where in view
My orchard will not be there for you to uproot
The sweet nectar of my fruit will not be there to help you push through
This fruit will not be your next meal
The shade from my trees will not offer you shelter to heal
Because my orchard is sealed
By an impenetrable gate of steal

Seven seas but did you know there is an eighth?
And it lies right beneath my waist
such a sacred place
it flows with such grace
An oasis
That you’ll wish you could sail on an everyday basis
Come and take a sip
Let my water drip from your Lips
Now it’s time to take a dip
No need to implore
Only the worthiest can explore
Let my waves splash against your shore
Hold on tight while my waves rock your core
Can you handle more?
Or is my sea too galore

You have a girl
I have guy
And somewhere in between those two  lines
There is a love between you and I
Yet  we’ll never leave
We’re faithful to a T
We were  just not meant to be
Oh how I wish I met you first
But that just not how the world works
It wasn’t in the cards we were dealt
I wish I could look you in your eyes and tell you how I really felt
But I can’t, So sometimes I dream
That we lived in another reality
Where we could love each other unconditionally
Hold hands and lock lips for the whole world to see
Just you and me living together so blissfully
But that’s just a fantasy
Time to open my eyes and enter back into this reality
Where you say I love you to her
I say I love you to him
And we just look at each other thinking of all the the things that could’ve been
And grin
Even though out hearts are so grim

Stored away in a ***
Is a concoction
Made of a mind full of unsaid thoughts
And a heart full of hurtful emotion
Set on the stove
With only one motive
To Poison  
The ones who left me astray
Left me to wilt away and decay
You’ll hear what I have say
These hurtful feelings will now be served your way
I hope you like the way it taste
Because this concoction is something only you could create
The way you caused me pain
And then just walked away
Going about your day  
As if everything was okay
Left me in is disbelief
They say revenge isn’t the key
but it is my relief

My Silence is so loud
Bad thoughts stuffing my head with black clouds
A storm is brewing
Anger, anguish, and agony is spewing
The wind of despair is blustering
All my happiness and blissfulness is flustering
Why is silence louder than thunder
My whole body is starting to shudder
Bolts of Lightening full of my blunder
Are causing me to flounder
My silence is so loud I can not abstain
This is no summer rain
It’s a tropical storm
A typhoon full of pass sins and sorrow is starting to form
I can’t take any more
Please sun come out I can’t handle this brain storm
My silence is too loud

Stuck in a obscure reality
Thinking I’m starting to lose my sanity
Hard to keep a positive mentality
When the worlds trying to **** the life out of me
They’re trying break me
Take my vision so I can’t see
Can’t let them get to me
Snakes all around me don’t know who to believe
Me, myself , and I that’s all I need
That’s my trilogy

Self love ?
you are my love
I love you more than myself
You are my wealth  
My most prized possession
My obsession
the love I have for you is so strong
I beg please don’t string me along
Because I truly feel we belong
But if I’m wrong
Let me know
So I can go
Right now I can handle that sorrow
But later on I just don’t know
If I’ll be able to handle a pain so great
So love tell me our fate