Your smile is a broke lie,
watching you break,
seeing your dreams die.

The mirror tells you how to scream,
a muffled wail,
masks how things seem.

Why can't you see the wings,
bolted to your back,
you only see the demons
and the heart that's turning black.

My love,
Oh my heart, soul, and desire.
I will hold your melted wings
protect you from the fire.

If Icarus flew,
with an umbrella over his head,
would his wings have melted?
Would he struggle, dead?

I will break my wings,
walk with you,
be with you,
talk with you.

I will shatter the mirror.
for it tells you wrong.
you are a miracle,
worthy,
strong.

I plead with you now,
open your eyes,
see that your beauty,
never dies.

My arms will be open
fall into me,
see the wonderful things
that I see.

If for one minute,
I could give you my eyes,
you'd look in the mirror,
not suffer, but smile.

But,
Your smile is a broke lie,
watching you break,
and painfully,
seeing your dreams die.

Like the anger
Of fire
Shapes the metal
Like the sorrow
Of a writer
Creates poetry
Everything
That is
Beautiful
Doesn’t always
Start
Beautifully.

Because,
I could watch you
For one single minute

And find ten thousand
New things
I love about you

agressive flapping
bird time
coo coo
make a nest
wooooorm for food

yum

'tis birb time

there’s chaos
in everybody’s heart.
some just grow
flowers on it.
while others
tear it apart.

I will not have you without the
darkness that hides within you.
I will not let you have me without
the madness that makes me. If our
demons cannot dance, neither can we.

Dear __,
     It's been a while since I smiled, and laughed with you. Where did you go? You promised your love, and that you would always be near. Love hurts. Doesn't it? But I know you've heard that said by everyone else so it probably doesn't mean anything to you...
I miss you. A lot. I can barely even bring myself to get out of bed, take my meds, without taking them all at least.
I don't think you understand.
You think this is a game?
I'm just a puppet who won't complain.
It really is a shame.
I loved you and knew your name!
But according to you... I'm the one to blame.

Baby love hurts doesn't it... We can hurt together.
If you feel that would be better...

Love,
                me.

i don't pay attention to the
world ending.
it has ended for me
many times
and began again in the morning.

He chased away my demons
With the stars in his eyes

Be so strong
Even the failure
Could never cross
your door,
And if you ever
Met it somehow
It would say
“You are not the one I’m looking for”

Love is free
So fall
Fall freely
Fall freely for me

i let the sun
give me freckles
so i could share
a piece of sunshine
with someone in the dark.

I tried to tell you
Now it's too late
I sit waiting
At heaven's gate

He abused me, Mom
You never seemed to care
Now I lay in a black coffin
Full of despair

How many times
Did you hear me cry?
Did you ever think
It'd get so bad I'd die?

I am an angel now
With long white wings
Flying higher each day
No longer feeling his stings

I'll watch over you, Mom
Do what you didn't do for me
You pretended not to hear
Pretended not to see

Now you wait at heaven's gate
Just as I once did
You have now come to realize
The pain that I once hid

Hey you remember when you told me it was gonna be ok?
I believe you now.

She had blue skin
and so did he.

She wore a mask
and so did he.

She spent her life searching
and so did he.

but when they met

they saw nothing

but the mask they hid behind

and so she passed him by.

How many poems must one write
until his heart has finally taken flight.
will his heart ever stop the feeling of dread.
you see,
it starts to get to your head,
eventually.

But in the meantime,
I'll keep writing,
Always fighting,
'Till the day I can sleep without words floating through my mind.

I need a hug. Please.

What makes you happy?

It’s you
Because no one else
Makes sense

I would like to say
That you
Make me
Weak in the knees

But,

To be quite upfront
And completely
Truthful,
You make me forget
I even have knees at all

she had magic in her eyes
even the stars envied.

there have been so many times
i have seen a man wanting to weep
but
instead
beat his heart until it was unconscious.

Meet me
where the end begins,
in echos,
where your world is me,
and my world is you

She was, in fact, a child of the moon.
Wandering around aimlessly, in the dark.
Bringing light, to everyone around her.

You told me that you had my back,
And I thought that was true,
Now my shadow's still behind me,
but where on earth are you?

You are not only a “he”
Or a “her”
Make your name
Sound like something
Terrifyingly beautiful
And out of this world.

You drew memories in my mind
I could never erase.
You painted colors in my heart
I could never replace

Promise me
We’ll always be this free
Dancing for all eternity
Under a galaxy
Of stars

even if you are a small forest surviving off of
moon alone.
your light is extraordinary.

I'm left silent,
I'm left in pain.
You are so violent
and completely insane...

I only sleep
To dream of forever
With you

The woods are lovely,
dark
       and deep.
but i have promises to keep.
and
miles... to go..
before... I can possibly.. s  l   e   e   p...
NO!
I cant sleep.
stay...
awake......


...

You think I'm happy because I'm smiling,
But it's the easiest thing to do,
if you had looked a little closer,
you'd find my eye's aren't smiling too.

Everyday
I get lost
In that
“Something”
About you.

Some days
i'm afraid to write,
because sometimes
the honesty kills me.

I should apologize
The waves in your eyes
Caught me by surprise
I didn’t think you where like other guys
But I am your prize
I guess now’s the time to say goodbyes
The life left behind was the ultimate price.

Sorry

Her smile was a shooting star
so beautiful and rare
that by the time that you had blinked
there was no sign it had been there.

I met a boy once
who cried and told me
he was not enough
and it baffled me
that he could not see
the sunlight pouring through his eyes

The way they glistened and shined
the diamond tear falling down his face
he falls on his knees
because to him
he was nothing but empty space.

He was wrong
and I wish he could see,
he is the sunlight in life
the stars in the sky
the reason I haven't died.

Don't take the sunlight.

Does a tall person
have further to fall?
If the height
is different then everyone else.
Does that
make the fall
hurt any less?

Does the person with everything
not feel a thing
when burdened with anger and despair?
Does the loss of a father
sister
brother
not exist when money is there?

The first time he touched me
I was timid, and wanted to run to my mother
But he told me this was normal
And there was no use in being afraid
My life was already filled with so much pain
I had no experience, so who was I to object?
His hands were rough and shaking with his excitement
I shivered in fear,
How was I to react?
He told me no one wanted a ******
That he was preparing me for the man who would make me his
I didn't know anyone better
When hands gripped my *******, I held the screams at bay
It didn't feel normal
But I was only ten
How could I know the difference?
When fingers became explorative,
And found the most womanly part of me of all
I cried silent tears
When rough hands forced my thighs apart
I wanted to scream in pain
When I went home
I stayed in the shower for hours
Scrubbing till my skin was raw and bleeding
I always felt *****
I was *****
I had betrayed my family
But most of all, I had betrayed myself
I never truly lost my virginity
But I lost the innocence
That I had once carried about with joy
When will I have my justice?
When will he suffer
For the time that he made me suffer?

and if you are to love,
love as the moon loves;
it does not seal the night-
it only unveils the beauty
of the dark.

I walk on
microscopic pieces
of shattered dreams
I breath in doubt and feel it
consume me
Pain burns a hole
straight through my chest
And I can’t help but think
it would be for the best
And all the while I’m listening
I hear the screams
“You’re not good enough”
They define me.