I finally realised that I could breathe,
but while I was drowning,
I realised that you would eventually run out of it.

no word hurt me the most
than the word "what if "
in the English literature

How long should my sadness last?
When will it come to an end?
Will it ever stop? For a split second, I might feel happiness touching my heart, but then waves of grief washes over me.
Still, for what length of time should I cover the bridges of my eyes to hide the tears that are starting to well up?
Still, how long should I continue to act as I'm alive  though I'm dead?
when will the world realize that i was dead inside a long time ago...

HOW DOES THAT RUSH FEEL ?
THAT FIRST TOUCH RUSH
THAT FIRST KISS RUSH
THAT GLANCE RUSH

while we continued to suffer
we still loved each other

can you pray for me
save my soul for me
i am so deeply stuck
that i couldn't even breath

at least , at last love me
even though its not the consuming love
i just wanna experience the warmth of it ...