I'm back
But I was never gone
I tried to disappear
But I was found
All I want
Is to have
No middle ground
I either want to be
No one
Or everything
Sometimes
I wish
I could
Just go
But I'd always be back

I don’t think I want to go to class today
But around you I don’t know what I think
I think I thought that you think I think
But I thought you thought that you loved me
My senses are nonsensical
My thoughts are a jumble
Of words and phrases
So maybe I should go to class
Just this one time
Because then I put these thoughts on paper
But I still can’t say them to your face
Because then they come out like
Class I maybe have shouldn’t gone thought to

Depression is were you want to be alone,
But at the same time you dont want to be lonely.
Depression is where everything is going right,
But you're still sad.
Depression is wanting to go out,
But at the same time not wanting to socialize.
Depression is feeling trapped,
Trapped in your own mind
and no one understands.
Depression is having scars on your thighs and arms,
Scars from the battle you fought.
Depression is having sleepless nights,
Depression is shouting for help,
But no one hears you.
Depression is fighting demons deep
inside you.
Depression is not something to laugh at,                                    
So grow up if you think depression is just an act,
Depression is something serious.

They say we’re all different
That we are like snowflakes
Every one of us a special creation
I believe I am more of a snowman
Because every time I see you
And your smile
I melt
The guys around me say
They want to see you without
All those clothes
That they miss the summer
I love you the way you are
I love the idea of laying in our
Puffy coats and making snow angels
Building a snow fort
And drinking hot chocolate
Sitting on the couch
In front of my fireplace
A fire and no other light
The flickering flames
Illuminating every feature
Of your perfection
One at a time
And you look at me
And I look at me
And I am just a puddle
I saw you and
Melted

I drink to get drunk
I smoke to get high
I do this all
Just to get by
Since your love is the drink
Your love is the drug
You are my dealer
You are the plug
So I can’t get drunk
And I can’t get high
All just because
You can’t be mine
You send a shiver
Down my spine
At least you’ll see
That this poem rhymes

Sometimes I feel like I’m on drugs
But these drugs are better than any
I hallucinate a life with you
I walk down the stairs past you but
Instead of an awkward smile
You pull me aside and kiss me
Gently but with true passion
You kiss me knowing
I would die for you
But our love would never die
These hallucinations are so perfect
Like one white cloud in the blue sky
I know they aren’t real
Life for me is nothing but storm clouds
Raining on every parade before it starts
Like an addict I need more
More and more and more
Of this perfect hallucination
Where I float across the ground
To you and you are there to greet me
You laugh because I am laughing
I am laughing because you make me happy
You make me happy because
Your existence is the drug

I’m up all night
Trying to write a love song
But poetry that doesn’t rhyme
Really doesn’t translate to my guitar
I fell in love with you
Like the sunset over the ocean
Like the wind whistling through the trees
Like the birds waking me with their songs
Like a melancholy memory
Like a melody that soothes the soul
But none of that works in my song
I just want our song
It doesn’t have to be written by me
Because when you’re by my side
Love is all that surrounds us
No music, no sounds at all
But it’s the middle of the night
And I still haven’t written a lyric
Not one line that can say how much
I need you like the sun needs to set
Disappearing into the ocean to cool down
You are the light of the sun
Illuminating everything
And never noticing I am here
Because there is so much else to focus on