Those lies you spun like a spiders web
Took place, built homes,
Inside my head.

Me?
I was born a storm
A whirlwind of inner turmoil
Tsunamis tripping off my tongue.

If you listen carefully enough you can hear her voice break as her words smash off the rocks of her insecurities.

You pulled the foundations I'd spent years forming
Right from under me

Write me a meal plan in bright red pain
And tell me this is the answer to all my problems again
Force down a tube through my nose and into my stomach
And watch as I flummox out of control
Fill this gaping hole inside of me
With drugs and sedation
Numb out pain and realisation
Force feed me promises and a smile
Only to regress back in a while.
Fill these cracks
With temporary fixtures
Concoctions of pills and other mixtures.
Treat me with CBT and psychotherapy
Tell me one day ill be free
And maybe if you say it enough times
Ill start to believe it
As much as you say you do.

Me?
I reached for a star
and came back with the moon.

You were like the purest of rainbows shooting through my veins.
You were better than any pills, ****** or *******.
No drug around, made me feel the same,
helped me forget,
the way you called my name.

And i would have done anything for just one more fix,
a touch, a hit, the taste of those lips.
But reality it slips and skips,
and misses,
and slowly but surely,
I recovered without those kisses.

Without even trying
She commands my attention
Her body and mind
The worlds most beautiful inventions
And I have every intention
Of showing her
Just what a masterpiece
Every inch of her
Is.

She melts in between my lips
With the urgency and beauty
Of snowflakes on fingertips.

How do you manage to transform
A tsunami like me
Into tranquil waters.

I had no idea what I was looking for, I just knew that you were it.

When I hold your hand in mine
I have the entire world
At my fingertips.

I find myself in coffee shops
drinking down espresso shots,
in a haste,
in an attempt,
to rid the bitter sweet taste,
you left in my mouth,
and on the corners of my lips.

To hold a hand, a heart, a body and in that moment, to feel as though you have found a home.

I miss the way my name slipped through your lips the way water slips through finger tips

The silence of losing you
Is deafening.

You don't look through me like most, you look deep inside, pick up every flaw and regret and make a toast to the wonders that make me, me.

you were dust before i held you
and your memories were tainted
before we fell through
the cavities of each others hearts.

Sometimes things have to fall apart,
to make way,
for a better beginning, a fresh start,
at least that's what you told me,
the night you tore out my heart.

just because you can't see the stars it doesn't mean they're not shining.

Darling,
if you were single, i wouldn't be.

Just the sound of your voice
Causes the corners of my lips
To rejoice
Upwards.

It is not uncommon for people to sail away from the shore, when they are most in need of the sand.

You make the ordinary extraordinary.

Loving her comes as naturally as breathing,
I inhale her and exhale her
Every single time.

Home is
The scent
The taste
The feel
The sound
The sight
Of you.

Every time we say goodbye
I'm terrified
It'll be for the last time

She pinned me to the wall
Breath heavy, legs a p a r t
Like the most beautiful canvas
Begging for art.

When every bone in your body aches to be relieved through death, When it hurts to breathe, when the thoughts and ideations of self harm cut you deeper than any blade could and the thought of suicide is one of hope not fear, when the burdens you bear are so heavy you feel them weigh every inch of you down, when you wake up with regret that you made it through another night, when you feel like you're drowning in the millions of tears that have parted from your eyes, and yet you march on anyway, you throw away the pills, you put down the blade, you pick up that fork of food and you eat, you don't turn to a bottle or drugs, you dig deep within yourself for the fight you swore you had run out of months ago and you carry on with life, that is the rawest and most admirable strength there is.

No matter how lost I am
You always guide me home.

You made me feel as though I was wrong
For needing air in my lungs
Love in my heart and
Reassurance somewhere inbetween.

Most peoples hearts break,
Mine?
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She anchors me
And yet at the same time
Sets me free.

Your tongue wasn't strong enough to hold the lies
And my heart wasn't ready
To face the truth

The sun dances across her skin
As though it knows what it has always
Shone far
I swear someone stole the brightest stars out of the sky
And planted them into the pupils of her eyes.
I see them twinkle, every time they catch mine.
She could destroy an entire city, and still look beautiful doing it.
She has taught my heart a rhythm it cannot live without.

You cradle my name beautifully
Between your berry red lips.

Something that speaks volumes to you
Could be a mere whisper
To someone else

You show me how to make peace with the person I have spent so many years at war with, myself.

One seed of doubt gets planted in my mind and suddenly I'm lost in a jungle.

We stopped asking questions
Because we were too afraid to
Know the answers.

Life is a maze,
Some of us get lost along the way.

She breathes
Constellations straight into my lungs.
She leaves
Stars fizzing gently on my tongue.

Your lucid skin stretched itself tight across your cold protruding bones
And you, you'd spent years building up and tearing down the homes
Others had helped you to construct in your heart
you'd spent decades practicing and perfecting the art
of destroying your foundations
and crying
as you watched yourself
fall apart

Today is the yesterday that you will regret throwing away tomorrow.
Use it wisely.

Look into my eyes,
There are no lies,
I have nothing to hide,
Allow your worries to subside
And wash away,
In me,
An Ocean of sanctity, security, honesty.