When did we
Come to the conclusion
That destroying houses
Is far more beautiful
Than creating them?

*When did we learn
It was okay
To break instead of build
Homes in others hearts?

In loving me, you taught me to love myself.

*In forgiving me, you taught me to forgive myself.

Too often, our hearts are stolen, snatched, hands forced beneath our rib cages and bones shattered as they leave our chests.

But not her

She was different entirely.

I loved being in love with her
Often in the smallest, softest moments
Walking with her in the park, holding her hand at the cinema, sliding the straighteners through her hair, sleepily pressing my lips against hers at four in the morning, hearing her laughter echo across the room

It would hit me
As if the sun had let go of the earth

Just how lucky I was
To have the entire world
At my fingertips

*I would love her relentlessly.

I find myself in pieces
Scattered across
Beautiful landscapes
Cities,
Countries embedded in her skin
Entire
Continents pooling in her pores

Kisses splashed across
Red raw lips
Starved of affection

Her name hammering against my chest
My heart wandering lost
Clasped firmly
In the soft touch of her fingertips at 3 in the morning
The bitter sound of her goodbye
Shattering my rib cage

What a lesson it is
To learn that love does not simply end
It is us that grow tired and weary

What an honour it had been
To leave a fragment of myself in her smile. **To leave a small fire burning in the darkest corner of her soul.

Throw down your ammunition
i have enough to tear myself apart.

We did not break down walls
But entire cities within me.

Thank you.

If i could, i would,
Disassemble your malfunctioning thought processes
And rewire them back together again,
With a spanner, in the manner,
That meant you were not
Classed as insane.
I'd unfold and rearrange,
The chemical imbalances
Within your brain
So that the years of disdain,
And self blame,
Where a thing of the past,
I'd put you back together,
In a way, that showed you,
You were meant to last.

She,
She was the sun
And what an honour it had been
To live life
In her warmth.

Your tongue wasn't strong enough to hold the lies
And my heart wasn't ready
To face the truth

You made me feel as though I was wrong
For needing air in my lungs
Love in my heart and
Reassurance somewhere inbetween.

We stopped asking questions
Because we were too afraid to
Know the answers.

We live in a nation where
People prefer to fall asleep
Holding their phones
Instead of their partners
And we wonder why
Romance is dying.

I sit, take a sip, of my tea,
It doesn't taste the same
The razors don't take away the pain
Of hearing your name.

She breathes
Constellations straight into my lungs.
She leaves
Stars fizzing gently on my tongue.

I wrote you a love letter today,

If you listen close enough
You'll hear the gentle drumming of my heart beat
Inside the envelope.

Don't drop it.
Open it gently.

Inside you will find
Chemical solutions, black
Ink on a page, a heavy handed mass
Of words, slotted carefully between each other,
Lines saturated in love.
Hand crafted works of art
An attempt to articulate and communicate
The fires you send swimming through
My veins, the tsunamis you send
Tripping of my tongue.

Scribbled confessions of just how much my body aches for your touch.

Don't drop it.
Open it gently.

It is yours.
It has always been yours.
I have always been yours.

If you listen carefully enough you can hear her voice break as her words smash off the rocks of her insecurities.

We built worlds in one another
Small entities
Of holding one another's hands
Of lacing your fingers through mine
And lifting your closed fist to my lips
As I gently kissed between the ridges
Of your past
We tucked our hopes and dreams in between the folds of skin that we curled up in at night
And we held each other so tight that
there were times where we weren't sure
Where one began and the other ended


We laid our souls on one another's chests
And caressed
The cavities and damaged depravities
That others had laid us victims too...

If love is a war
Than I shall live and die
Inside of you

Every morning I wake with you
I swear I can see
Last nights stars dancing through your hair
And the sun rising in the pupils of your eyes.

You are an adventure, a journey, that I want to embark upon so long as love fills our hearts and happiness our lives, and I pray that is a very long time.

Irrevocably, irrefutably, incomparably.



Infinitely.

You show me how to make peace with the person I have spent so many years at war with, myself.

I can give you everything I have, but it will never be enough; because right now you're not enough for yourself.

One look from her
Could erupt the moon
And ignite an entire city of stars
Didn't I tell you?
Sunshine spills from her lips
Every time she smiles.

The silence of losing you
Is deafening.

I gave you everything
That I had ever wanted.

I'd spent so long searching for the light outside of me,
I almost didn't notice
It shining from within.

Her voice is like velvet
Her words as soft as kisses
She has a way
Of leaving the sweetest of sounds
Dancing in my ears.

I've found myself
Cramming
Each shattered piece of my heart
Into your old tshirt
In a desperate attempt to hold myself together.

Silence presents our eyes with the opportunity to communicate in those fleeting moments that words fail us.

When we make love,
her tongue recites
and brings to life
the sweetest of poetry
between my thighs,
just below my hips,
stumbling beautifully
from her cherry red lips.

The first time I ever kissed a boy
I remember the sinking feeling
No rainbows or joy
There was no romance
No sparks or magic
Or fireflies that danced

The first time I kissed a girl?
Now that's a different story entirely
I felt a sudden explosion
Take place inside of me
I tasted happiness, serenity
I savoured passion and certainty.

I swear I felt the stars fizzle on my tongue
For the first time in my life
My heart understood
Where it should
Belong.

When waves of sadness washed over me
And began to pull me under
You taught me how to swim.

i.
You are the only person to show me oceans where the desert lays

ii.
Some people walk into a room and light it up, you walk into a room and set it on fire

iii.
I swear glitter must run through your veins because every inch of you sparkles

iv.
I've never seen stars shine so bright as they do in the pupils of your eyes

v.
I love how as we lock hands the promise of forever finds a home in our fingertips

vi.
Tell me how you manage to turn a tsunami like me into tranquil waters?

vii.
There's not a doubt in my mind that you have my heart, I see it every time I look into your eyes.

Is it any wonder that the appetite
of today's children
is shrinking
when images of size zero models,
instructions on diets and weight loss magazines
are constantly shoved down their throats?

It's okay to make mistakes.

Those lies you spun like a spiders web
Took place, built homes,
Inside my head.

The choice is not about homosexuality or heterosexuality it is about being true to who we are.

To every single person
Who feels as though they are broken
Shattered, shards, scattered across
Corrupted pasts,
You will be okay.

I know there are scars deep within your soul,
Lacerated across your heart
And potentially upon your skin
I know there is regret, and blame,
Disappointment and shame
Burning fires within.
Let them go.

You are beautiful,
At 3 in the morning when you’re curled up
In your sheets, your pillow
Saturated in yesterdays regrets.

You have endured journeys
Others could never even fathom
You shall blaze trails others
Could never even imagine.

Pain does not define you,
Society shall not confine you.

Don’t you forget, lose sight of or regret
That just because you can’t see the stars
It doesn't mean they're not shining.

I wrote you a love letter today,

If you listen close enough
You'll hear the gentle drumming of my heart beat
Inside the envelope.

Don't drop it.
Open it gently.

Inside you will find
Chemical solutions, black
Ink on a page, a heavy handed mass
Of words, slotted carefully between each other,
Lines saturated in love.
Hand crafted works of art
An attempt to articulate and communicate
The fires you send swimming through
My veins, the tsunamis you send
Tripping of my tongue.

Scribbled confessions of just how much my body aches for your touch.

Don't drop it.
Open it gently.

It is yours.
It has always been yours.
I have always been yours.

I swear glitter must run through her veins because every inch of her sparkles.

Your arms are the most beautiful of homecomings.

She offered me her heart with trembling hands, I took it and held it tightly
With a steady grasp and the most honest of intentions
I sewed it carefully
Into the depths of my chest cavity
In the hole that was empty
Where I'd offered my heart anxiously
To the same woman
That had presented me
With hers, just moments before.