I hold on too tightly,
You tell me to ‘tread lightly.’
Fearful to let go,
you tell me “let’s just take it slow.”
you pull away;
I pull you close.

My nails sink deep into your skin,
You flinch away in pain-
I apologize,
Yet I pull you close again.

I kissed you too hard,
until your lips were blue and sore.
I ran my fingers down your back,
And made you bleed some more.

I kissed your neck,
Then you started to choke.
I held your face in my hands,
until it was fear I started to evoke.

I held you tight,
you started to suffocate.
I held on with all my might,
you continued to hesitate.

now I’ve lost you;

I hadn’t realized my hands had claws,
I had you clenched in my jaws.
If I could’ve just paused,
Maybe I’d seen the harm I’d caused.

Please understand what I have to do;
it was far too much to put us both through.

Now I keep my distance,
I couldn’t continue my persistence.
My kisses no longer linger,
like a bee whose lost its stinger.  

I stung you,
and pulled out my insides.

I won’t hold my lips to you neck,
or wait to hear your pulse.
I left us such a wreck,
I clung onto you like an impulse.

I held on too tightly,
until I had to completely let you go.
Now you’re just a pain that visits nightly,
you came in at a point where I was already at a low.

Why couldn’t I just take you slow?

My heart longs for you;
a yearning hard to ignore.
if you'd let me, I'd consume you,
completely down to your core.

Feeding on nothing, but your touch;
I've never craved something as much.

Slowly starving, yet always full.
Slowly starving, yet completely whole.

Breathing in nothing, but your words;
I'd listen, completely undisturbed.
suffocating softly, as your stories filled my lungs.
As a deep desire dances behind our tongues.

If you'd let me,
I'd dive into your eyes;
those very eyes that make me fly.
I'd never again know what it'd be like to want the sky.

If you'd allow me,
I'd fall into your skin;
revealing all of the tenderness within.

If you'd give me the space,
I'd allow myself to be vulnerable.
I'd show you everything in me that's horrible.

If you'd let me,
I'd look at every part of you;
cherishing every scar,
regardless of how far.

Show me the parts you've been led to believe are undesirable,
to me you've never been less than admirable.

I'd hold every piece with tenderness, not mistaking your pain for weakness.
I'd embrace every fragment,
you're worth the investment.

If you'd let me see the person that hides;
I promise I'd stay by your side.
If you let me see the parts that were raw;
I'd gaze upon you with nothing, but awe.

My heart longs for you;
I'd get completely lost in you.
If I would just let my heart be free;
I'd let it consume me.