He bore down and
Arching over her
A single holding hand cupped against
Her waiting skin
let me in
God's first kiss
She waited
Lips parted tentative
As he waited on the brink
God will let me think
Waiting
A weighted silence
Baiting
dip
Press against her lips
let me in
God's only sin

Sink

And when he pulled out
Slipped away
Her lips weren't normal dry
And inside a part of him was left
Behind
Dyed forever

Red and Eternal

I know you're not meaning to, but
you're really starting to make me feel, well,
less than beautiful.
Unattractive,
unappealing.
Irrational thought I know, because
16 years of dance at least
means I'm concealing a good ***.
Also, if you were done, it'd
feel done.
You wouldn't stroke my thigh
or let me sigh when you stand
to curl over me.
I know your body wants me.

But your mind is starting to freak me out.

The love is there, but I'm too
aware of a platonic fall,
please take me all. Take me.
I shouldn't need physical justification,
but I want it,
I want you.

I want to feel all of you again,
go back to when I helped you map out
the inside of my skin, let
you break within
Know me nights cos I can
leave your skin soaked in
Devil's tears
I want you to misspend my years
or
I fear I will regret them.

So, please know me again.
I can promise an ****** is
generally better than a youtube video.

That I'd probably rather die in a corner
Than make a 'fuss' in the middle, and survive.

Your head resting upon my shoulder,
supple boulder
I lie, beholden to you.

You kiss can erase
Everything
everything
exams, dates, rates
Late
late
Late
Take it all and seal it in
with a brush of your
lips on my
forehead
Everything chaos
before I wasn't led
by you.
Said by you.
Saved by you.
Laid with you.

I think I could be whole now.

So I went to bed for once devoid
of such a shroud of fear
My shield of intoxication
a begging web beneath my pillow
A coaxing wish within my ears

And so I went to bed for once
with merely the hint of a fear
Though listening out for 'others'
,I had still that much to bear,
I always fear what might be here.

Yet once I found myself asleep
I could not keep my mind from ******
As my brains membrane was tugged
out, I soaked again
in the shout of
dark nights fear
I wished again
to have someone here
But
I dreamt them too near
I dreamt them too near

I had a dream within a dream
that night
and I stole each blow awake
I woke up twice that night
and allowed myself to shake.
No molecule wished to try
again to fall
but
I forced it.
I felt worse for it.

A Scream
A spider
I tried to hide her
I hid
I slid
I'd shout
But I wouldn't let me out

For when I awoke I was
dreaming
and of my own world I laughed
grieving

And when my eyes opened
My cheeks lay laced
with fearful
tears.

Like a swan dipping it's head
For pieces of pilfered bread
He kissed me.

into a ditch
Where owls don't blink
and your eyes are fish
and your lungs are filled
with an itching need
Fill your lungs with a
drunkmans greed
Catapult on speed and
fill your mind with mud
Within life's canopy, you've trod upon your bud
Thud
Thud
Thud
Your heart chimes
cheek to cheek
Filled with human strength
you realise you're weak
Weak
Week
Days turn from Weeks
Still your blood
Slow it with sleep
Reap
Seep
It's all bleak.

Let me take you into a ditch
and allow your mind to leak.