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LifeBeauty13 Feb 2016
Time was chasing me,but I was fast and swift,
it was time to run,laugh,be as dramatic as I could be.
It was the best time of my life...my youth.
Nothing could stop me,I was invincible,
No ache or pain could harm me.
I was young, beautiful,flawless...
Why could I not see the full scope then?
Feeling sorry for myself because he wanted you,
not me.
I was the friend the buddy.
Drowning in low esteem,my friends...my friends,
determined to make me happy.
Why can't I find a person not squeezed by their personal
selfishness, now in this time?
My friends gave me humor,encouragement,love.
My youth has been the softest blanket I have ever been wrapped in.
The silly, crazy things we did,
protected by the law and our own ignorance.
Running and running we could not be caught...
except by our broken heart.
Why do I romance my youth,
far from perfect,
but I had so many perfect moments.
So young knowing nothing of the world,
except our dreams and fears.
I miss that girl I was.
God please just one more moment with her with me,
to feel her strength,desires,hopes,dreams.
I have to work so hard now to dream.
I want the breath she breathed,
I just want youthful me.
LifeBeauty13 Feb 2016
Trials,tribulation,hurts,anguish.pain.
How do we live through these and stay sane?
Parents are suppose to supply us with weapons to fight,
but I had no such teaching,how do I make problems right?
I am going through so much and it is so hard.
Understand humanity-myself,like the Great Bard.
How to be the adult with all the solutions.
I want it to stop...need a resolution.

So I have to believe,take a leap of faith.
Not walk around like I am some kind of wraith.
Stop looking behind,straining forward.
Knowing someday.end of life,finally go homeward.
Dwell in the secret Place of the Most High,
Being shown that God will never lie.
His Word is a Lamp unto my feet,a Light unto my path.
God+His Word+Me equals perfect math.
Doing better than making it stop and their will be a resolution.
Therefore, I will have hope because it is God the Father who is my solution.
Psalm 91, Lamentations 3:24
LifeBeauty13 Feb 2016
Why are you cast down,O' my inner self?
And why should you moan over me
and be disquieted within me?

Hope in God & wait expectantly
for Him
for I shall yet praise Him,
Who is the Help of my countenance
and my
God.
Psalm 42:11
LifeBeauty13 Jan 2016
Believe...
I want to...
Believe.
I yearn to dream,without the nightmares.
I want to experience color in all it's depth.
I desire to fly,to escape,
to be free.
I want to love and be loved back with more than was given.
I hope to sleep to sleep in peace where my pain can't touch me.
I cry to the expanse of the starry heavens for hope,for hope to be my skin wrapping me from within.
I yearn,dream,want,desire,hope,and cry... to Believe.
I must take a leap of Faith,so I can...Believe.
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