Like a flower she bloomed into the beauty she never knew she had.

I tip-toe down to the riverbank, taking one last look at all of the greenery
and deep breaths as I count to three. Wading through the water silently,
I dive beneath the surface and let the river carry me,
away  from all my troubles and reality.

The warmth of the sun
covering everyone,
Squinting eyes staring at the Golden rays,
that will heat the earth for coming days.
A glance away,
trying to regain my sight,
after a long gaze into the blinding yellow light.

I can't quite explain it. It's all I ever think about, what I practice for on long nights after 10.
It makes me angry and sad. I cry for hours on end.
Yet it makes me smile and the happiest I've ever been.
With out it I'd be lost .With out it I'd die. I guess this is what you call an addiction.

Laying on the cool ground, staring into the dark sky, illuminated by trillions of sparkling stars.
I wonder what could've been if you wouldn't have trampled on my heart and left so many scars.
Thinking about how my life could be and holding on to all those precious memories.
Breathing in the thin, cold air,
swallowed in my own despair.
I will never forget even though you already have while you light your last cigarette.