Caelynn Regester: Poems

Sep 2021 · 718

Caelynn Regester Sep 2021

Trapped
In a box
In a cage
In a prison cell

The lonely spirit rots
Treasures given away
Puzzles night and day
The spirit cannot stand it
There must be a way out

Alas, the spirit cannot find it
And thus she withers, with her puzzles
In a box
In a cage
In a prison cell

The spirit's own vessel a prison in itself
She longs for an escape
The greed of the selfish
The hunger of the spoiled
It swallows the world,
and strengthens the lock
The spirit must stay
In a box
In a cage
In a prison cell

The cradle offers no comfort anymore
Instead only harsh reality

The only window of freedom the spirit has
Is her fellows, locked away as well
Separate cells, separate prisons
But captive all the same

Most her friends are happy with something
If nothing else, they take comfort in their own vessel
But this cannot be for the lonely spirit
Flesh is binding
She can never be free

The room's light flickers
desperate to hold onto what little she has left,
the lonely spirit sets to work

In a box
In a cage
In her own
Personal
Hell.

#lockdown #quarantine

Sep 2020 · 135

Have you ever?

Caelynn Regester Sep 2020

Have you ever?

Have you ever looked back through your memories
And think something different
depending on what you see?
If you look back on yourself, you think,
This isn't right
But if you look back on the memory, you think,
That isn't me.

Have you ever felt like your life is a flowing tide
You have to wade against it to get anything done
But you end up getting swept aside?
And so you're trapped, beneath the waves
You feel as though you're on top,
as you drown helplessly below.

Have you ever felt like you can't change?
You try and you try, but along the line,
you slip up and fail again?
Obvious lessons you never learn,
and how everyone around
is cursed with pain.

If you have ever felt this way, then you and I,
We are the same.
If you always feel this way, then you and I,
We are the same.

#identity #struggles #mistakes

Feb 2019 · 271

Farewell

Caelynn Regester Feb 2019

Farewell

For as long as I can remember
You've been by my side
I helped raise you when we were young
And you raised me in turn.

Through thick and thin,
Through fire and flames,
You've always been there for me
We've always had each other.

But when I went to wake you up,
your body was cold and stiff
i wish it was a dream

i picked you up and held you close, and cried,
and cried,
and my friend, i have not stopped crying since

farewell my friend,
i wish for us to meet again

I grew up alongside my cat Halo, who died this morning. This poem is dedicated to her.

#death #farewell #closefriend #pet

Sep 2018 · 2.1k

Doors

Caelynn Regester Sep 2018

Doors

I spend my life walking through darkness
Seemingly countless years go by as
I never see a hint of light

I begin thinking
Is there anything here?
Am I truly alone in this abyss?

What if there's something,
Hidden, invisible to my eyes?
What if I'm not alone?

"It's all too much
I'm giving up,
This dark is not for me"
These are the thoughts I thought,
The feelings I felt,
Before I saw the door.

Grand, regal, shining bright
The door swung wide, welcoming me
I run towards it, relief and hope filling me once again

I barely get through the door,
When I am cast back out,
And it slams shut again

I am confused,
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What could I have done to avoid this?

I see another door
Simple, wooden, open also
With nowhere else to go, I proceed through this door

It's nice on the other side
A field of green, pleasant music
I feel happy here

A short while later,
I hear a thump
Has the grand door reopened?

I hesitate
I am happy here,
If I head back, what if this door closes?
What if the grand door casts me out again?
Then where shall I go?
I didn't see another door.

Sep 2018 · 496

It's too bright

Caelynn Regester Sep 2018

It's too bright

I don't know
What's going on
This world is cruel sometimes

Darkness falls, pain descends
New light shines, a new day begins
Hope survives, love endures

But when two lights shine
At once, which is brighter?
The one that has returned, lingered from before,
Or the one that was switched on, brought here despite warnings?

Their light together
Becomes blinding, confusing, agonising

I don't know
What to do
The lights are so bright

Should I close my eyes
Shut both of them out,
Until one becomes dark?

Or should I keep them open
Adjust to the light,
So I can see which is brighter?

No matter which I choose,
One will be turned off
Forever dark,
Never shining again

The other will shine on,
For a time at least,
But what if it burns out?
I'll be left alone again,
In the eternal darkness
That never seems to leave

I don't know
What I feel
I don't know
What I see
Both lights are far too bright

I hope it'll be alright

#pain #confusion #endurance

Sep 2018 · 1.3k

Water in a Glass

Caelynn Regester Sep 2018

Water in a Glass

Water, water, in a glass
Perfectly still and motionless

Slow at first, the wobble starts
Rippling faster with each movement
Faster, faster; higher, higher
The glass tips
The water spills
I am free from my glass

#freedom #revolution #short

Sep 2018 · 265

Fate

Caelynn Regester Sep 2018

Fate

Falling down again
Into agony and pain
Played
Betrayed
Slain
Darkness surrounds
Enveloping, swallowing

A light shines again
A new hope, a new day
The pain heals
Reality kneels

Pre-determined,
fate resigns
I take over,
New light shines
A new day begins

Ushering in
A golden age
Peace,
Hope,
Love,
Cracks

War begins
Silently, quietly
Loudly

Screaming

Silent again.
Happy again.
Happy at last.

This is the first poem I've ever written outside of schoolwork, hope it's not too bad :)

#love #pain #hope #optimism #truehappiness

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