I just want...
To look in the mirror
And not be disgusted

I just want...
To use my voice
Without telling a lie

I just want...
To wake up each morning
And not regret it

I just want...
To sleep at night
Without the nightmares

I just want...
To be able to think
And not want to cry

I just want...
To smile again
Without being fake

I just want...
To look at my wrist
And not see blood

I just want...
To live
For once in my life

*Is that too much to ask?

Darkness surrounds me,
My left arm holds
My iPhone aloft.
A light shines down on
My face. Its pale face

A light in the darkness.
Beside me is my lover,
She -- worlds away in dreams.

I read the words
From worlds away
On Twitter.
On Facebook.
On Reddit.

Netflix draws me in.

My phone,
With white face
And shrouded in darkness,
Holds her chord,
scythe-like
Across my chest.

Serving to sever my soul
From this life around me.

Merely a psychopomp,
The reaper ushers
Souls into the abyss.

They lose touch with this world.

I lose touch with this world.
My mind is worlds away.

I lose touch with this life.

I can feel you losing interest
I can feel you leaving
or, at least,
wanting to

I know I'm hard to deal with
I know I get so sad that everything hurts
I know I get so sad that I hurt everyone
but I swear I love you

But I understand if you need to go
because there's someone out there
who's going to treat you exactly how you should be
someone who doesn't get sad
and push you away
someone who can handle the world
and doesn't think about leaving constantly

I understand if you don't love me anymore
I don't either

-e.w.