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Kolko Aug 2015
Before there was you
There was him.

He didn't love me though,
He just shattered me.
Pieces of me still line these rust stained floors.
I never asked to be put back together,
But yet here you are
Stringing me back with your thread.

Soon you may learn
I'm not quite worth this.

Because before there was a you
There was a him.
You're worth more though you know?
Kolko Jul 2015
I can't breathe.
You're drowning me
I'm crying, screaming
While you're holding me
Why are you choosing someone like me
You're branding me, but I'm chaotic
Resistance. I've given up so just leave me be,
Cause all you're doing is just
Hurting me.
Kolko Jun 2015
Loving you loving me
Is this a dream?
I have you here
But I can tell you want to be there.
You savaging soul
Just go.
But I'll still be here
Loving you loving me
Wishing this was just a dream.
You've done your harm, so you can go, but just know I'll still be here.
Kolko Jul 2015
Starving
But I'm not hungry.
Fulfilled
But yet I always end up
Empty.
You continue to recede
I'm reaching out
But what's there to hold on to?
Kolko Jun 2015
Snorting, Coughing, Drowning the pain
when did I resort to such a shame?
I thought you changed but really
I've just been drained.
I struggled, I fought, thought I could
hold you back.
claws just dug too deep
you ripped my seams. I thought
his thread could hold me together
he's proven to be too weak. These
burning sensations will have to do, I'll just
keep on crushing, keep on pouring, keep on numbing
the rest of this **** is
only a dream,
cause I now have no seams.
Kolko Jul 2015
You're trying to save me
Baby I'm un-savable.
You're wanting me,
But God you're consuming me
You're drowning me.
Please just ******* disarm me
Trying to disentangle my thoughts
I gotta be numb for this.
My minds a hell you can't forgive
This'll lead you to leaving me
And officially unraveling me.
Kolko Sep 2015
Fighting. I cannot ******* stop fighting this.
Waking up smiling, not clutching at my chest
willing the pain to go away.
What happened to that gaping hole he left me trying to fill?
What happened to the shattered heart and
broken soul he left me with?
I don't remember fixing myself,
I don't even remember wanting to be fixed.
What have you done? What are you doing to me?
I'm smiling, dancing in the rain again.
I gotta stop this before you leave,
once again abandoning me unable to breathe.
I cannot stop fighting this.
Please just don't leave.
You
Kolko Jun 2015
You
You are this overpowering element that is quickly becoming my sole undoing.
Watching you watch her
I can't breath.
You stand there while I stand here
begging you
to take away my pain
I'm so consumed in everything you
Who's so entangled in everything her.
You're actions promise falsities
As yours words lose their meaning
Cuz your eyes show your lies,
I guess
You never really were mine.
I thought I had you, all of you.

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