"Be ladies but we stay girls,
Hold on to our hearts,
Because we haven't lost,
The feelings to dream.
Stay girls forever,
Like the days we walked forth.
We wanna stay girls.
We're gonna stay girls"
-SNSD

After meeting you,
I wonder how much I've changed.

No matter how hard I try,
My heart just can't accept you anymore.

I'm an ordinary girl.
I have a good family,
I have friends.
I am fun and crazy.
I have a good life.
and...
I have secrets.
**I hate my family.
I have no friends.
I am fun, because my life isn't.
I am crazy because,
that's how people notice me.
I hate my life.

Since the day I was born,
the day I had my first walk,
the day I said my first word,
the day I first went to school,
you were there supporting me.
I was the happiest little girl,
because of the way you spoilt me.
You spoilt me with clothes,food,money,
and especially love.
Not once did you make me feel something,
I didn't want to  feel.
You made sure I felt especial.
You always protected me,
from my friends or family.
But that sad day came...
We were separated.
I still remember the time I cried,
because I could not let you go.
That time I had to leave you..
my best-friend,
the first man in my life.....
My Grandfather.
I love you.

You were my best-friend,
the love of my life,
my greatest frenemy.
Now, you can't even say "hi" to me.
Why?
because now,
you have a family.
And I know,
that you've forgotten about me...

Im done
BEGGING
for your love.