I tried

I have 4 problems

#1 overthink
#2 overcare
#3 overlove
#4 overfeel

—julie

It’s like you’re a drug—
I’m addicted,
Can’t get enough.

You’re sweet like candy,
Alluring like a prince.
Kind as hell,
Cute as heaven.

Let me close,
Let me near—
Let me be your doll.

You make me feel like I’m in heaven.
You make me feel like I’m addicted.

I’m addicted—
I’m addicted,
And I can’t get enough.

You’re my drug.
I am addicted—
To you.
Only you.

So let me be yours.
— julie

Don’t hate me if I become cold.
Don’t blame me for it.
You gave me your silence—
I gave you my coldness.

I’m the monster you created.
Still, you keep pushing my buttons.
You just want the rest of my truth.

I cared when no one else did.
I gave you the attention you needed.
But when they came back—
You vanished,
Leaving me your silence once again.

So now—
You gave me your silence,
I’ll give you my coldness.
— julie

Make me bleed
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀stab me
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀stab my heart out
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀but
⠀⠀⠀⠀please don't give me your silence
It hurts more than an actual knife to the heart.
— julie

Dear, will you come to me
I need you
I want you

You're my peace
Will you come?

He arrives
He whispers in her ear:

“Dear, I heard it all.
But it's not the right time for you yet.
I know you are hurting,
But please listen to me—
It's not the time.
It will take some time.
I know you're hurt, sad, depressed,
But I promise you, you will get through it
And want to live more.”
-julie

---

I’m here to write again—
Maybe about someone, maybe about me.
Something that’ll explain how I feel,
Or maybe just express what I’m feeling.
I’m still searching for the words
That could truly explain it.

I’m sorry.

You’re my best friend,
My ride or die,
My other half,
My life.

I’m writing this again, dear,
Just so you know:

I’m sorry
If I ever became distant.

If I’m silent or quiet, or don’t reply,
It doesn’t mean I don’t care. I do.
I’m just… not okay.

The drama in my head comes and goes.
But I want you to know—
I love you.
You’re my best friend.
I’ll never forget you.

— julie

~~~

When we first met,
I thought you'd be that friend —
My best friend,
The one I’d share everything with.
But it turned into something more.
More than friends.

We started dating,
We became close —
Really close.
I felt a deep connection with you.
I thought you were the one.

We shared everything.
Our laughs, our fears,
Even our silence.
Until one day…
You drifted away from me.

You were my light.
My sunrise.
But now you've left me in the dark,
Shattered.

My light is gone.
My life is in darkness.

I miss you every day —
Day and night.

I waited,
And waited,
Thinking you'd come back.
But you didn’t.

I was sitting on my bed,
Hopeful —
Still thinking you were gonna come back like the sunrise.
That you'd stay with me
Till sunset,
Till every sunrise and sunset.

But still, you didn’t.
You left me—

Suddenly, one night I realized:
You weren’t really the one.
That you’d never come back.

I’ve realized…
Memories last forever.
Not a person.

---
julie

As she woke up,
The sun was rising.
She opened the window, looking out.

She breathed softly,
Looking at the sunrise.
Butterflies flew over the sunflowers.
She smiled, watching them.

She began to walk
To the garden, as her steps echoed
Through the house.

As she walks out

She started walking slowly to the sunflowers,
Gently picking the sunflower.
Then he came behind her,
Took the flower,
And placed it in her hair
As she smiled softly.

He then softly whispered in her ear—
“Morning, my love.”

"Morning, darling," she said.

He leaned close again, whispering in her ear—
"You're beautiful."

Then once more, he whispered
"You're not just beautiful—you're a sunrise and a sunset in one."
—julie

He falls softly on her lap
Watching the stars
"They’re beautiful," he whispers
"But darling, you’re looking into my eyes," she says ~
They shimmer through my every ache. He whispers softly, still lost in her gaze.
— Julie

The hush of morning drifts through golden light
The sun is slowly rising…
As she opens the windows
The warmth hits her skin softly
She closes her eyes
Enjoying the warmth
Breathing slowly
— julie

𝘏𝘦 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘢𝘱
𝘞𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴
“𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺’𝘳𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭”
𝘏𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴 —
𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘴, “𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴.”
“𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘦𝘴𝘵, 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴,”𝘏𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘴, 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘢𝘻𝘦.— 𝘫𝘶𝘭𝘪𝘦