a wish so simple
a thought so full
a mouth cursed shut
lungs drowning in kerosene oil
unable to ignite and
simply burn
under the high pressure
to be a diamond
but some diamonds are
simply coal

I don’t need someone to make quick snide remarks
or to say sorry this is happening

I need someone who understand
without words

not that there are any to say

I want no need to explain

just a hand to hold
a beacon of warmth
a heart to love

You want
Need
To have someone
To distract you from yourself
An emotional dependency

A fight
Between you and me
I suppose you thought it was gonna go down in history

You moved on
To the next person who would listen and react
To the lies you sweetly whisper in their ear
Making them rot away with you

I see you
I recognize this

I am happy to oblige

I don't blame you
Nor me
Just the situation
I'm not angry
I'm not hurt
I am mad
But at peace
I understand
That it was my mistake
To allow myself
To listen to you

You leave me with this
empty feeling
I'm not even yours
yet you have a piece  
of me
I’m left with a longing
for you
that's when I realized
all of the what-ifs that filled my mind
about you
were wasted...

It’s the wholesome feeling when you tear into the
delightfully messy glaze
The soft fried dough
It’s a classic
Doughnut shop
The place you feel most comfortable
The most hungry
A place you make new memories every time you go
A doughnut by yourself, with a friend, with a special someone
This corner doughnut shop
Is my safe place
My home base

Smoke
filling your lungs
Red sunset
that same smoke
Floating, filling
the air
90 degrees
humid
Confusion
Loss
The hot pavement of the sidewalk.
Screams in the back of your mind,
Constant
Everybody is fighting
Just like your secret screams