Take the cherries
As if they were yours
Jump from the house
Just to get a pair
It was just like living
Wasnt it?
In space or dreams you float
Ignore the gravity
And go take the cherries
The higher they are
The better they taste
A 20 thousand miles jump
Go walk the moon
Just for a touch
Of those cherries

I was 11 years old when I knew
"female" was not me
I never like wearing dresses or skirts
but as the first girl in the new generation, it wasn't my call
I was always a princess
I wanted to be a pirate...
a viking...
a wizard...
that's when I knew
and I blocked it
I procrastinated in my own  gender
now I'm 18 and I put my old beanie on my head
just to remember the feeling
I didn't know I was bringing it back but now immortal
3 days have passed
my eyebags are darker
and my hair is shorter
I want the scars beneath my chest
and my beanie on my head

"Later" was the word I said to my friends before I left
"Later" was such a peculiar way of saying goodbye
As coraline i will keep my friends inside a frame
Those 2 am memories of singing in the shop store when nobody is awake
Or the smell of the sheeds that we put in the window so the light wont come in
Just so we can watch a movie in the dark
Now I woke up alone in this motel room
I could hear the people in the room next to mine
And I missed the way I didnt have to worry about money or food
But my life has just begin

What is your happy place?
A person?
An animal?
Your family or friends?
An actual place?
For me is an ilussion
Something made up
Non existing
I scape trought my toughts and fantasies
Im with my love
Hes happy. Happier than he has ever been.
He had tons of issues
Anxiety, depression, lonelines
...emptyness
Just to say a few...
He's showing me that IT DOES GETS BETTER
His smile is unique.
Pure.
He's not in the void anymore
He's happy.
And I'm happy when I'm with him.
It's amazing how something unreal can free you for a while
Then you remember the real world
A ****** up world
A world without him
And you try to fight back the reality and be strong for yourself and others
You keep holding on until you feel that it is getting better
And you are finally free