The stranger has returned
The one I despise.
I can see his shadow
Behind her green eyes.

I thought he was gone
Not seen him for years
But look here he is
Confirming my fears.

This uninvited guest
Who brings only sadness
I just want to hold her
Protect her from this madness.

He's doing his best
To pull her apart
It's sapping her strength
And breaking my heart

I see his presence
Inside her head
He tells her there's no point
In getting out of bed

He taunts her at night
As she lies awake
The pills aren't working
The cycle they can't break

He takes her emotions
To love, to be kind
He's trying to change her
To poison her mind.

She looks at me angry
Says I don't understand
As she pulls away
When I try to hold her hand

How are you doing?
I hear everyone ask
I'm good she replies
From behind her mask

They all think she's fine
That she's doing OK
But I know different
He's making her that way

I know I can't fix her
I can't make It right
So i will just love her
And pull her in tight.

She needs me to be patient
She needs me to be strong
She needs understanding
For however long.

So i tell myself this
Whenever I can
That the tears I am crying
Make me no less a man

It's threatening to consume me
The pain no one sees
Watching her struggle
With this wicked disease

I know that she needs me
To travel this road
To support and to help her
To lighten her load

And we need her also
The children and me
How important she is
I wish she could see

This kind and loving Woman
With so much to give
He's pulling at her soul
Her reason to live

But this woman is strong
She won't let him stay
Our love for each other
Will chase him away

Each time he comes
He stays a little longer
Though when he leaves
Our bond it grows stronger

Her hapiness will return
And her zest for life
This wonderful mother
My beautiful wife

Our lives will be joyful
And happy once more
With our 2 crazy children
Our family of four.

Sane
What a word
Normal
What a feeling
Insane
What a thought
Sane,
As can be
Normal,
Thats what I am
Insane,
Thats what I think I am
Sane as can be
Normal is me
Insane is what I believe

Depression so deep
Only escape is sleep
Sleep conceals
All I feel
It steals away
Every day
Everythings gone wrong
Depression marches on

The dead keep dying
The birds quit flying
Sun no longer shining
Darkness keeps defying
Anguish always raining
Voices quietly crying
Mentally declining
Madness is smiling

Depression so deep
It's determined to keep
It all locked up tight
I'm shackled, can't fight
I'll never know, the why
So I close my eyes
Whisper a cry
Then wait to die

©Pauline Russell

All people dream, but not equally.
Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their mind,
Wake in the morning to find that it was vanity.

But the dreamers of the day are dangerous people,
For they dream their dreams with open eyes,
And make them come true.

Beauty between the sheets where once my lust ended with a ****** sleep,
My god we just meant and I know I’m not thinking with a humanizing member,
But with a heart that dictates the breath I need when I pray for what might come to be
  
Beauty I met at a barstool,
It didn’t take a dogma’s loyalty to put your leash on me,
The type of woman I’ve always feared,
An Achilles who could handle her heels

Beauty I met while we sipped on something stronger than wine,
When we crossed a line that only those who dare to chance being physically combined,
By sunrise I pray you will be mine

The kind of woman I need to keep me line
The kind of beauty my mind could never describe,
The kind of Woman a Shakespeare could never scribe,