What good does it do for me to love a God?
I am nothing but a human, a hopeless creature.
Sabotaging everything I love is my true nature.
Loving you doesn't come easy to me.
It's tearing me apart knowing that we don't have a future.
How can I protect my soul against the force of nature?
How can I work on the storm in my heart?
I was silent symphony you have undone me.
I am snow-blind at your golden sight,
I selfishly leach to your unearthly company.
I am trembling with a frantic uproar,
An inquiring rumble so deep it shocks me too.
You crept into my black dreams,
turning every unspeakable ****** nightmare into a rosy dream.

I am a creature starved of love,
you are an enchanting mirage of affection.
How can I not fall for your exquisite smile?
Your intangible but visible presence brightens my unholy sky.
Unknowingly, you snared my heart.
Now I am ruined for this lifetime.
But what good does it do for me to love a God?
I might as well love the sun or the stars or anything else that's forever out of reach.

But I always know

their lots are harder than mine

so in grace and gratitude I thrive

for many have first world problems

that dehumanizes them and eats their souls

the best things in life are free

inner beauty wears no mask

God never leaves anyone's side, rather
we leave the side of ethics.
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Time never leaves us, rather we leave the side of time.
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Parents never leave their children, rather children leave their old parents.
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Success never leaves us, rather we stop struggling.
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In the end Earth will not leave us, but one day we have to leave this world.