I've got to tell you a story
It's about young woman
With an extent arm of one person
She could finally be home
After wandering for years
Where she feel secured
And blessed with warmth of affection

How can I collect the broken pieces of your heart
Whilst mine is falling apart?
Your words somehow remind me of never-ending misery
Sunday
everything seems so easy to be lived with
Monday
You put thousands knife til' I can hardly feel my breath
Each day
Every hour I spend to count how many times do I have to scream in your grasp over and over again

Some say you're a ******* that I can't live without while stores are providing good drugs for my health
Til' the rest of people shout my insanity for choosing you
Shame on me for loving you with the wrong ways
I hurt you
I hurt you so bad
The one I have been admiring for years
I wish I could trade my vacancy with the happiness in you after all of the agonies I have caused
Now i'm on my knees
Asking for your forgiveness
I realize I dived my feelings too deep and it blinded me
I wasn't able to see the biggest efforts and favors you gave me
My existence can only bring a destruction for your sake
And I think I love you enough to finally let you go

Here I am with my eyes wide opened staring at you
Yet silently hate to feel the warmth of your breath
Thinking so hard why am I looked so excited while i 'm feeling the vacancy though i'm standing among the crowd

I shouldn't write about you. I shouldn't write about you because it's been 5 months and moving on shouldn't be this hard, right? I throw my heart to the ground and watch as the next person carefully holds it yet no one seems right, no one fills the gap of the broken veins. I think the reason why I reject people a lot is because all I'm doing is looking for a copy of you because honestly, you're the only thing that keeps me sane. You were my medicine; you still are. Despite my late night phone calls and texts with other boys who ask me what I wear, I still cry every time I listen to that one particular song and I still feel like dying when I stumble across a picture of us. Hell, we looked so good together. We fit each other like a puzzle and I didn't think fate would bring me such a good luck. I wore your smile on my lips and you held my heart so high I swore it felt like flying. It's both funny and sad to think that now there are other boys who have tried their hardest to make me smile like you used to but they failed miserably. God, can I ever let you go?

Deep down
i still need you
A person who has brought new hope when everything's completely scattered and shattered
By him, whom i was really fond of
Yet in the end, he becomes a destruction of my remarkable dreams