I woke today and thought of you
and all the times you helped me through.
To watch you fade infected me
and turned my outlook gray.

I know your pain then ceased to be,
but cannot grasp lifes mystery.
Of time and space and loss
injecting Gods for us to pray.

You held my hand to walk along
and I held yours to guide you on.
Though never got to say goodbye
it drives my mind astray.

So I know in Death we're free
but cannot for the life of me
find that peace although I try
to dig that dirt away.

Send your vibe through my veins pulsing
feel your rhythm beat.

Kick the habit, skin convulsing
take me off my feet.

See the living far removed and so
we rot inside.

When there's nowhere left to go
and no one to confide.

Cast your magic down my track
and see our skies explode.

See the young man crawling back
and watch his eyes implode.

Send your chill into my bones
that writhe in memory.

When I'm sinking deep in your
euphoric harmony.

Fear the ghost that begs my view
and sets my soul ablaze.

When the spark ignites anew
as life is just a phase.

Feel you feast upon my flesh like
master over slave.

Take the habit, like my breath
and dig our lonely grave.

Something still
unkown is working
fast to fetch my being.

Good or ill
it's close and lurking
far beyond my seeing.

Feel the tension start to fuse
itself into my system.

When the demon seeks to use
his host just can't resist em.

Move through me
to cease the chatter
grinding through my jaw.

Let me dwell
on what will matter
forcing me so raw.

Feel the fever set to rising
deepening the thirst.

Every kiss is still surpising
almost as the first.

Something deep
Inside me yearning
as I lay to waste.

Just to keep
our center burning
break me off a taste.

I want to put my rhyme in you
and tease you with the rhythm.
You grind to feel the meter through
these genes, your hands are in them.

I kiss you with my metaphor,
I tongue your eager mind.
You shake against my structure or
the meaning hid behind.

I want to pound my verse in deep
and haunt you with the feeling.
You buck to feel my flowing seep,
vibrations send you reeling.

Alliteration sets the night,
I slow to read each letter.
I take my time and taste you right,
the poetry gets better.

I want to put my words in you
and force you with their power.
You move to feel the meter out
and charge me by the hour.

Going in
the wrong direction
D
O
  W
      N
              the only intersection.

Circling the block for hours

In the darkness, blind.

Living in
this misdirection
D
O
  W
      N
              with little comprehension.

When I'm drained of all my power

stuck inside my mind.

You step onto my paper tracking
blood across the floor.

When our tired eyes are pleading
to exit the door.

Still I sit in sadness thinking
on this state of mind

Is it okay to keep on looking
though I'll never find

How the time escaped my grasp
when standing near your stone.

When I fetched the biggest *****
to lose the smallest bone.

In the seconds of our living,
hours spent to grieve

Greed still powers over giving
what do you believe?

Still I sit in madness running
fingers down your spine.

Is it okay to keep on riding
or derail the line

When all I know is framed,
to fathom deeply on my own.

How I make it to the moment
that I die alone.

I dreamt within your atmosphere
our sun and moon collided.
Exploding brilliance everywhere
your ghost and I confided.

Enraptured so inside your glow
there's beauty in your power.
I watched you dance across your web
demanding every hour.

You waved your might to light the night
You've won with no resistance.
Then took flight far out of sight
and left me in your distance.

Suspended in your gravity
our stars and souls divided.
Quick to live the memory
my troubled mind provided.

I woke beyond the summer long
and felt in me your magic.
colors fade, the forest wept
on life so frail and tragic.

I'm here to stay, but like in time
to fade away inside the crime
scene tainted by your touch
still tracking footprints on the ground.

I'm here today inside your mind
and fear the things I knew I'd find.
Inside you hating life so much
as peace cannot be found.

Now I'm spinning downward quickly,
without winning, dead or sickly,
grinning, falling deeper
into thoughts scared to explore.

My brain is throbbing, pounding,
robbing us of daily grounding
as I'm dreaming vastly deeper
into nightmares dreamt before.

I see the darkness of my space,
I feel the depth of mind.

I think on time and how to trace
the future for my kind.

I live the past and days disorder
talking to your ghost.

Then I drift beyond the border
with my dreamy host.

Thinking on the beauty of the gift
that was bestowed.

Tripping through the rift
with humans thinking something's owed.

I dwell on past and futures sold
and how to face the day.

I feel the rhythm getting old
when midnight turns to gray.

I hear the silence constant chatter
rattle in my brain.

And how our souls might vaguely matter on a different plane.

I daze in darkness of your dawn,
I taste your mystery.

I can not slow the ride I'm on
to seize my destiny.

I hear the planet passing by
as colors dance in view.

I think on death of you and I
and people that I knew.

I lay in bed awake at night
and race through memory.

I think on breath beyond our sight
and my humanity.

My empty fate
devoid of choice
has glued me to this chair.

Evaporate
my thoughts and voice
to dwell inside this lair.

I feel the dark consuming
and I cannot turn the page.

It seems that life is dooming
me upon this lonely stage.

Contemplate
the hours passing
in this grayish veil.

As every ghost
insists on massing
where the breath is stale.

I feel the hatred booming
and the book will never close.

I sense your presence looming
with the gift I never chose.

Haunted deeply
by the day
your Death in me was clear.

In solitude
I rot away
in hopes to disappear.

What's the point in all this doing,
when the world will just keep
*******
me into a downward spiral-
badly I want more.

What's the point in still believing,
when this life is so deceiving
me into a place I ventured
madly once before.

When you peered into my being,
when I felt delight in seeing
far beyond the nature of man
sadly, I abhor.

Yet the precious hand so gripping,
keeping me from slowly slipping.
When the light that shines from her eyes,
who could ask for more?

I keep my cool to walk a beat
and step on down the only street.
In front of me, the view I'm seeing
haunts my mind today.

And what I see before me wasted,
so much life had not been tasted.
Tempting fate into agreeing
Death's the only play.

I claim my own amidst defeat
and border where the spirits meet.
To comprehend this state of being
paints the picture gray.

I blow my top to ease the heat
and dig a spot to plant my feet.
To find a place that is so freeing
is the only way.

Push your picture pale and painted,
as the day to come is tainted.
When I hear the news of dying-
desperate for a clue.

Then I see the claws you're bearing
dull or sharp the point in fearing
when I look for answers prying
rest with only you.

I grasp for time that's always faster
after every day disaster.
Still I focus on my trying
though my hopes are few.

Then I see the void is staring
deep in me as dark is nearing
Still your peace is held in lying-
when the end is true.

I feel the day evaporate
into the waves that touch profound.

I cannot help but contemplate
this sacred place that I have found.

For when it moves through me
vibrating deep into
my hungry mind.

I feel it all in ecstasy-
I feel there's nothing left
to find.

I disappear into the moment
lifting me from off the ground.

I take a trip, but never move
when drowning deep inside the sound.

For when it moves through me
pulsating deep within my
troubled mind.

I feel it all in harmony-
I feel some hope for humankind.

I look into the space above
and ponder how to feel the love
of my creator though I'm lonely
drifting through the sky.

For the galaxy I'm reaching
as the Earth below me teaching
me on life and dying only
as I'm passing by.

I see the stars around me shine
as planets with the sun align
to keep its light from my tomorrow
as the answers die.

Into the darkness I am falling
when the day that you stopped calling
came to me in all its sorrow
taking you from I.