Resourceful, they say
cocoa and shea butter
hooray

I cut through my skin
after putting the cocoa and shea butter
on my skin

My polo, pants
they are beige
I am dying of this age
Tryna earn below
minimum wage

Scattered blood
wiped off by black ink
covered in beige

Hear me shatter,
watch me explode
In a blink of an eye
In the middle of the storm
I yearned for you

Indistinct chatters,
silenced by melody
Melody of my thoughts
Hung on a little thread
Died a little bit inside

As the coffee drips,
my heart falls and strips
As the coffee drips,
why can't so my tears?

Alone, Friday at the Café
Pushed and leaned on the corner
with two rings attached to my fingers
the memories lingers

Where I am? At the Café
Who am I? That's Touché
Can I find somebody
Somebody at this Café
Everyone has someone
but me, I am the only one

Well, it is Friday
At the Café
As sweet as my matcha
As bitter as my life

Soufflé,
With my heart you play
Warm, jiggling
like your hugs, it is tingling

Friday, at the Café
With iced matcha latte
and things she didn't want to say
What will fill the void?
In the midst of the crowd,
you are the one that I avoid.

In my 20s, I felt lost
everyone I loved, I lose
Maybe it was a beginning,
maybe it was my end.

I did not made my existence
yet, I am responsible for it.
I have been used, worn out
got *****, with unremovable stains
I was left laying on the floor
after being used
I pick myself up, do the laundry.
Wasted a lot of soap,
the stain will be gone, I hope.
Once washed, I will hang it
Oh how I love it.
Once it is dried, it is time to fold.
Life can be like folding laundry.
Could be satisfying
could feel like a chore
could make you tire and bore.
Once you are done doing the laundry,
get ready to get *****.

Who knows,
who will know,
how would they know
if I am laying on the floor
hearing and leaning
what is beneath this surface
shall I dig a hole
and bury myself
Would the other side be more gentle
or it will be twice as harsh
as this world
with the floor I am laying
Shall I keep laying and lying?

My heart sinks
Every time you are near
I want to disappear
I am trembling with fear

How can someone who made me calm
Cause chaos on my skin
I can feel the coldness of my heart
Swallowing my entire existence

I do not wish you to be near
But in the darkness I shall fear
You wiped the dreadful tear
In my silence you can hear

You are my reason to live
Yet we are slowly killing me
The memories want to leave
But the attachment lingers

It was dark
They filled her heart
With poison
Disguised as a kind act.

They promised her
Life will be full of colors
But they made her blind
Too fool to see
the hidden plans

She drowned
She begone
She hates mankind

But the poison
Lives with her
With a heart as pure
As a silver
She returned

The rebirth
Kindness is gone
In the poison
They shall swarm

Under the innocent face
Is a revenge
You cannot erase

I hope it burns
I hope it stings
I hope it aches
Every time
You get a glimpse of me
I hope you drown
I hope your heart will die
The pain you caused
Now I am paying a high price
I hope you rotten
I hope you will be
Forgotten

In the wide field
he picked me
and I was freed
I was a pretty flower
The only problem is that
I easily wither
Who will love me
when I am no longer
appealing and pretty
I am going to wither
And die in winter

Clean your room
'cause they will roam
Make it spotless
'cause they wouldn't
careless
still, they threw
a big pile of garbage
to your head
and whatever you do
you cannot remove
the traces of yesterday

I once dreamed,
I want to become the ocean
freed
but it is more than it
The waves are strong
I cannot breathe
I felt free, but also bygone
The deep blue ocean
Is scarier than I yearn for

I loathe you
'til your body rottens
I will curse you

When I speak
Nobody hears my voice
But when I scream
I am a monster
'cause I created a noise

I finally forget
What home feels like
I'm swallowed by a regret
Alone in the dark
I tried to escape
Yet when I reach home
The flowers are withered
The lights are dead
I'm alone in the dark
Can't decide where to step

You are not the demon
But they are
They use you as a mirror
You distort every hour
I forgot who I am
Yet I got this far
She was like an angel
Still, life can be so cruel

Sometimes I still try
To find and write
The words that
Serves as my cry

He created a scary monster
Does it resembles him?
The one who told
To took care after me
Almost felt like home
Feels like warm tea
But as the time goes by
His form changed
He became a monster
Every little flower
All scared

But there's an other world
The one that I always want
Where I can free myself
Who hide in my shadows
Everyday walking
with the light
That world
Is like a dream
Where everything
Doesn't last long

Laying on the floor,
She slowly puts her hand
On her muddled head
And pats it while shaking

Why?

Have you ever stare
At your own reflection
And blame yourself
for everything
Because you are you?

They are monsters,
Or sometimes
a poison in disguise

In silence,
I shall die

I always thought
It's supposed to
Make me feel hushed and alive
But why do I start to feel
like dying?

They held your hand
When you fell
On the edge of a cliff
But they didn't know
They are the one
Who pushed you

Whom do you call
When you drank
Your poison
And try to scream in pain?

I can't breathe
Everytime I fall asleep
But that's the only way
To see you alive.

I'm drawn
Hanging to your past
A love that's already ended
Why does every word
Felt like a sword
Next to my chest
Why does it hurt
When it's already ended

Hoping to escape
Eagerly crawling through walls
Lure me by your spells
Poison spreads in my flesh

The sunlight
Sore my eye
And in darkness
I shall cry

I got words, covered by ice
The world keeps telling me
My life isn't that nice
Are your pages full?
Why do we keep looking like ghouls
Who haunts elation,
Bitten by woe
Anticipating for an end
With unbeatable foe.

Someday will meet
At the end of that rainbow
I'll see you again
The sun will shine
I shall sleep today
And wake up tomorrow
Where I can see the rainbow
I'll find you in the same sky
We'll say goodbye
To that painful smile

A lovely child
With an innocent mind
A phone call arrived
"She's gone"
The light of her life die
In a blink of an eye
Why do fireflies die?
The aurora looks different
Do you see the light?
Tell him everything is alright?
He got you, the almighty
You left me lonely
And everyday feels like torture.

Her heart was filled
By anger and pain
Her lips, wounded
Pale and bleeding
Screaming, crying
Covered by cold shadows
Nobody will see her
She's in the dark

I was always your luna
The mysterious luna
You were my sol
The time stopped
You light me up
You show the universe
How alluring I was
Crescent, half, full
I'll meet you
If I wait for years
My bright sol
I've been watching from afar
Collide with me
For a short period of time
And that was
A never ending
And strong love.

How awful it is
You are keeping her
But she was already
Taking ten steps away from you
And that was your first heart ache.

I drown in words
Poetry saves me
Our feelings become blurry
We thought it was a love story
But this is a tragedy.

Do birthday wishes come true?
I've been feeling blue
You said I'm your happiness
But it turns out
I'm your sorrow
So it's my birthday
They put the candle
Waiting me to whisper
And I said
I wish
He'll be happy with someone else
I love him, know him so well
so I don't want to see him suffering
I blow, hoping
my wish would come true

I am always waiting
For the day
I'll see you leaving
Cause I hurt you too much
But you're just loving me
And I want to see you happy
Smiling with someone else
Realizing that wasn't me
The girl in your arms
The one who causes your smiles
I'd love to let you go
But I love you
More than you could know

Sometimes I wonder
What is my happiness?
Is it us being together?
Or seeing you being happy with her?

I would rather be the winter while you were the summer,
We're both seasons that's completely
Opposite to each other
I would rather be the moon,
While you were the sun
Lighting me up, but your too far
And I'll wait a hundred years
For a total lunar eclipse
I would rather be living in a parallel universe
Than to live in the same world with you
where I can't be your world,
I would rather be sadness while you were the happiness
Where everyone hates me and everyone seeks for you
I would rather be stuck in the past
So we can't meet and you'll be happy
I would rather be a reader who's falling inlove with a fictional character than to fall in love
With a man that exist
Yes, I can touch him, I can feel him, I can love him, but in the end I know whatever I do I can't have him.

Sa bawat araw na lumilipas
Simula ng nagtagpo ang ating landas
Hindi ko inakalang
Ang paglalapit ng ating mga mata
Magiging daan sa hindi inaasahang
Pagkakakilala at pagkakaibigan
Sa isang ihip ng hangin
Agad kang napansin
Hindi man natin aminin
Sa isa't isa'y tayo'y may pagtingin


Pilit nating nililihim
Ngunit nadarama'y
Ating diningin
Sa paglapit ng tadhana
Ikaw pala'y mamahalin
Ng totoo at labis
Lahat kayang gawin

Dumating man ang alitan
Tayo man ay magkasakitan
Mawala man ang kasiyahan
Sa piling mo ako'y laging andiyan
Pipiliin ka, kahit ano pa man
Pipiliin ka, kahit nasan ka man
Pipiliin ka, sa dulo ng hangganan
Pipiliin ka, kahit man masaktan
Pipiliin ka, sa gitna ng kalungkutan
Pipiliin ka, dahil ikaw lang ang nais
Nais mahalin at alagaan
Pipiliin ka, sa araw araw

Dive deeper inside her shallow heart
You'll see the things that
Tear her apart
I may remain in the ocean blue
Where I can't feel you
Just the cold water
Far from the warm weather
You became cold as winter
While my love is stuck in summer
Where years separates us
You flew away as dust
While I'm a summer breeze
Waiting for you in the heart of the ocean
But you never came
You always tear me apart
But I'm a shattered glass
Living until my love doesn't lasts