My heart sinks
Every time you are near
I want to disappear
I am trembling with fear

How can someone who made me calm
Cause chaos on my skin
I can feel the coldness of my heart
Swallowing my entire existence

I do not wish you to be near
But in the darkness I shall fear
You wiped the dreadful tear
In my silence you can hear

You are my reason to live
Yet we are slowly killing me
The memories want to leave
But the attachment lingers

It was dark
They filled her heart
With poison
Disguised as a kind act.

They promised her
Life will be full of colors
But they made her blind
Too fool to see
the hidden plans

She drowned
She begone
She hates mankind

But the poison
Lives with her
With a heart as pure
As a silver
She returned

The rebirth
Kindness is gone
In the poison
They shall swarm

Under the innocent face
Is a revenge
You cannot erase

I hope it burns
I hope it stings
I hope it aches
Every time
You get a glimpse of me
I hope you drown
I hope your heart will die
The pain you caused
Now I am paying a high price
I hope you rotten
I hope you will be
Forgotten

In the wide field
he picked me
and I was freed
I was a pretty flower
The only problem is that
I easily wither
Who will love me
when I am no longer
appealing and pretty
I am going to wither
And die in winter

Clean your room
'cause they will roam
Make it spotless
'cause they wouldn't
careless
still, they threw
a big pile of garbage
to your head
and whatever you do
you cannot remove
the traces of yesterday

I once dreamed,
I want to become the ocean
freed
but it is more than it
The waves are strong
I cannot breathe
I felt free, but also bygone
The deep blue ocean
Is scarier than I yearn for

I loathe you
'til your body rottens
I will curse you

When I speak
Nobody hears my voice
But when I scream
I am a monster
'cause I created a noise

I finally forget
What home feels like
I'm swallowed by a regret
Alone in the dark
I tried to escape
Yet when I reach home
The flowers are withered
The lights are dead
I'm alone in the dark
Can't decide where to step

You are not the demon
But they are
They use you as a mirror
You distort every hour
I forgot who I am
Yet I got this far
She was like an angel
Still, life can be so cruel

Sometimes I still try
To find and write
The words that
Serves as my cry

He created a scary monster
Does it resembles him?
The one who told
To took care after me
Almost felt like home
Feels like warm tea
But as the time goes by
His form changed
He became a monster
Every little flower
All scared

But there's an other world
The one that I always want
Where I can free myself
Who hide in my shadows
Everyday walking
with the light
That world
Is like a dream
Where everything
Doesn't last long

Laying on the floor,
She slowly puts her hand
On her muddled head
And pats it while shaking

Why?

Have you ever stare
At your own reflection
And blame yourself
for everything
Because you are you?

They are monsters,
Or sometimes
a poison in disguise

In silence,
I shall die

I always thought
It's supposed to
Make me feel hushed and alive
But why do I start to feel
like dying?

They held your hand
When you fell
On the edge of a cliff
But they didn't know
They are the one
Who pushed you

Whom do you call
When you drank
Your poison
And try to scream in pain?

I can't breathe
Everytime I fall asleep
But that's the only way
To see you alive.

I'm drawn
Hanging to your past
A love that's already ended
Why does every word
Felt like a sword
Next to my chest
Why does it hurt
When it's already ended

Hoping to escape
Eagerly crawling through walls
Lure me by your spells
Poison spreads in my flesh

The sunlight
Sore my eye
And in darkness
I shall cry

I got words, covered by ice
The world keeps telling me
My life isn't that nice
Are your pages full?
Why do we keep looking like ghouls
Who haunts elation,
Bitten by woe
Anticipating for an end
With unbeatable foe.

Someday will meet
At the end of that rainbow
I'll see you again
The sun will shine
I shall sleep today
And wake up tomorrow
Where I can see the rainbow
I'll find you in the same sky
We'll say goodbye
To that painful smile

A lovely child
With an innocent mind
A phone call arrived
"She's gone"
The light of her life die
In a blink of an eye
Why do fireflies die?
The aurora looks different
Do you see the light?
Tell him everything is alright?
He got you, the almighty
You left me lonely
And everyday feels like torture.

Her heart was filled
By anger and pain
Her lips, wounded
Pale and bleeding
Screaming, crying
Covered by cold shadows
Nobody will see her
She's in the dark

I was always your luna
The mysterious luna
You were my sol
The time stopped
You light me up
You show the universe
How alluring I was
Crescent, half, full
I'll meet you
If I wait for years
My bright sol
I've been watching from afar
Collide with me
For a short period of time
And that was
A never ending
And strong love.

How awful it is
You are keeping her
But she was already
Taking ten steps away from you
And that was your first heart ache.

I drown in words
Poetry saves me
Our feelings become blurry
We thought it was a love story
But this is a tragedy.

Do birthday wishes come true?
I've been feeling blue
You said I'm your happiness
But it turns out
I'm your sorrow
So it's my birthday
They put the candle
Waiting me to whisper
And I said
I wish
He'll be happy with someone else
I love him, know him so well
so I don't want to see him suffering
I blow, hoping
my wish would come true

I am always waiting
For the day
I'll see you leaving
Cause I hurt you too much
But you're just loving me
And I want to see you happy
Smiling with someone else
Realizing that wasn't me
The girl in your arms
The one who causes your smiles
I'd love to let you go
But I love you
More than you could know

Sometimes I wonder
What is my happiness?
Is it us being together?
Or seeing you being happy with her?

I would rather be the winter while you were the summer,
We're both seasons that's completely
Opposite to each other
I would rather be the moon,
While you were the sun
Lighting me up, but your too far
And I'll wait a hundred years
For a total lunar eclipse
I would rather be living in a parallel universe
Than to live in the same world with you
where I can't be your world,
I would rather be sadness while you were the happiness
Where everyone hates me and everyone seeks for you
I would rather be stuck in the past
So we can't meet and you'll be happy
I would rather be a reader who's falling inlove with a fictional character than to fall in love
With a man that exist
Yes, I can touch him, I can feel him, I can love him, but in the end I know whatever I do I can't have him.

Sa bawat araw na lumilipas
Simula ng nagtagpo ang ating landas
Hindi ko inakalang
Ang paglalapit ng ating mga mata
Magiging daan sa hindi inaasahang
Pagkakakilala at pagkakaibigan
Sa isang ihip ng hangin
Agad kang napansin
Hindi man natin aminin
Sa isa't isa'y tayo'y may pagtingin


Pilit nating nililihim
Ngunit nadarama'y
Ating diningin
Sa paglapit ng tadhana
Ikaw pala'y mamahalin
Ng totoo at labis
Lahat kayang gawin

Dumating man ang alitan
Tayo man ay magkasakitan
Mawala man ang kasiyahan
Sa piling mo ako'y laging andiyan
Pipiliin ka, kahit ano pa man
Pipiliin ka, kahit nasan ka man
Pipiliin ka, sa dulo ng hangganan
Pipiliin ka, kahit man masaktan
Pipiliin ka, sa gitna ng kalungkutan
Pipiliin ka, dahil ikaw lang ang nais
Nais mahalin at alagaan
Pipiliin ka, sa araw araw

Dive deeper inside her shallow heart
You'll see the things that
Tear her apart
I may remain in the ocean blue
Where I can't feel you
Just the cold water
Far from the warm weather
You became cold as winter
While my love is stuck in summer
Where years separates us
You flew away as dust
While I'm a summer breeze
Waiting for you in the heart of the ocean
But you never came
You always tear me apart
But I'm a shattered glass
Living until my love doesn't lasts

I see them, human being
I hear them, all breathing
I spoke to them, they all lying
Their mouth speak *******
I wish my name wasn't mention
But now I am on their intention
They follow me in my deep dark forest
Dig a hole inside a shallow heart
Back in reality, where
they can't see clearly
Telling my name, creating dross issues
I remained silent, listening to trashes
Why they don't focus on themselves
Instead of diving in life of others?

They say, promises
Are meant to be broken
But here I am trusting you
Holding on the words you say
Touching your fingertips
Admiring your laudable lips
You kiss me until I can't breathe
Sorry, but I am your hostage
Your slave, your love
But all the words you say
I always had doubt
Saying it's not true
Yet I've been lied to
Words will remain words
Your actions are proofs
I love you
But what the hell did I do?
To received lies?
You're a deceiver
In disguise,
I gave you my smile, now
You can't get me back
I love you, and I don't to
Be deceive by a person like you

I was walking
Alone in a gloomy
Wet streets
I was lost
Wandering where
I should step
One wrong move
I am dead
But someone touch my soul
On the moment I felt like dying
I fall apart
You pick me up
I can't escape the dark
But you were by my side
I can feel you
You lead me to
The right path
You are my searchlight
You light up my shadowy night
You save me from foolishness
I saw the way
The way out
I escaped with you.
I love you

I was pretty crushed
My happiness doesn't lasts
My tears, they don't drop
I was tired inside
Roses don't bloom
They are withered
Dead in snow
Yet so winsome
Outside she was strong
But inisde she's chasing
A never-ending storm

Let me be alone
Alone with you
Let me cry
And put your hands
In my teary cheeks
Let me lean my body
Against you
Let me crawl inside
Your beautiful soul
Let me hold you
Hold you, hold you
Let me put a rope
Around my ****** neck
Because they didn't
Let me to be free
They let me to suffer
They let me to breathe
Intoxicated air
Let me be happy
Above the sky
Where I can reach the clouds
Let me touch the stars
Let me be your
Woebegone first love.

Kukunan ka ng magagandang larawan
Ilalagay sa alaala ang matatamis na ngiti, iniisip ka bawat sandali
Mahal kong ayaw kong bitawan
Pangako nating walang hanggang pagmamahalan
Ngunit ngayon, ang masasayang ngiti at matamis na pagmamahalan
Bakit tila nandito nalang sa ating larawan?

For you, who is sad
For you, who is downed
For you, who is cried
For you, who is abused
For you, who is hopeless
For you, who seeks happiness
Always remember that
There is a bright light
Inside a shallow dark night
You'll mean the word
"I am alright"
Because every star
Shines in a galaxy
You'll see it's tiny
But it gives hope to
The one who loses sight
They shine so bright
To be an inspiration
The world is dark
And you're a precious star
Keep shining bright
God is our  guide and light

Show  you care and
leave me careless
Be my reason to breathe
But leave me breathless
Say I'm worth it
But you make me feel worthless

Lock you in a room all alone
Make you feel what I feel at home
Do what you do to me.
Now I'm strong
Strong enough to do what I want

And I wrap it all around
Wrap it all around so tight
You're screaming for help
But I become deaf
Remember you also did that?

Now the blood is all around us
I do all to stop the bleeding
But I can't do anything
To stop you leaving

Like when you're still alive
I heal all your scars
And I can't stop you leaving
You left me unloved

Now you're breathless.
I am careless.
You're worthless.
I just finished my revenge

I was in the corner of a room
All alone, by myself.
Everything was blurred
Smiling while reminiscing
Some good memories
Listening to old songs
That takes me back to the start
It's been a year
Memories are holding me back
Old happiest moments
Becomes my saddest memories
In the corner of a room
I am smiling like I am still happy
But I am already broke and lonely

It was a dark night
Dark sky, dark past
She was a pretty child
With an innocent mind
But she got abused
For a couple times
She doesn't deserve it all
It was a dark night
But she can't fight
She hold her blanket tight
She can't she any light
Cause every night
She's been abused
But remained silent
Her heart was afraid
But she can't hate
She was the victim
But she can't scream
For almost 5 years
Nobody knows what happen
In that very dark nights...

For a day, I feel like a ghost.
I am not existing.
No one notices me.
They'll remember me when they need something.
I felt like I'm already gone.
I disappear for a day.
My heart stops beating.
My mind is hallucinating

I'm quite all alone in a room.
I see them all along
Playing on their own

Now I'm drowning at a side
Dying inside
No one knows that
They don't care about that
And that's what I feel for a moment