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 Apr 2017 Ryan Hoysan
Devon Haley
I almost gave up.
I was tired of being trampled on
by boys wearing men's shoes.
Angry, alone, and forgotten.
I was taught that love was fleeting--
not worth wasting your time on.
Then the most serendipitous event occurred:
you.
And now I find myself wishing on every 11:11
for you.
I know...
it must be a good morning
in your part of
the world

here...
here in my
little space on earth
I'm not too sure...
anymore


after...
all this time
in my mind you're
still mine

even if...
you're really not
you'll always hold apart
of my heart

I
wonder...
would it surprise you that
I often have spur-of-the-moments
when I want to talk to you

sometimes... with urgency

probably not

because
it's how we used to be before
I lost that luxury

its
killing me
to know she's taken
over all liberties that came
with being your
lady

silly me...
trying
to orchestrate
a reality where you never existed

actually...
believed I'd live pain free
but...

your
special ring tone
was my wakeup call that had
me singing the blues
on how I lost you

and...

after
all the verses
were sung I wished to God
they'd reverse to when our hearts knew
we were in love

impossible I know...

so...

here...
here I sit
surrounded by all these
memories of us indulging in
each other's time
and mind
and
how...
I
failed
to take one of
many opportunities to say,
'I Love You'

perhaps...
you would've
inhaled the words and
felt what I was feeling souldeep
for you.

instead...
I'm living in
the company of
misery
as
we watch
you in love with her
while she happily lives a life
meant for me

I
guess
truly loving you
means wanting your happiness
even if...

its
not
with
me​



©cj
lingering of a past love
 Apr 2017 Ryan Hoysan
dani evelyn
i’ve dated boys who didn’t make me laugh,
boys who took me to stuffy museums and bland restaurants
and told me i should be veiling my hair in church
i thought i was doing the right thing, i thought
my parents would be proud of me,
i thought maybe i could conjure up
some kind of feeling in my stubborn heart
that would make it worth my while,
everything i was always
supposed to want
in one

instead,
i found you:
a boy who likes silly accents and sneakers and
telling jokes that turn me
into puddles at his feet,
who lives with his mother  
and makes art from obscure things,
who paints just to get the words out and
never matches his clothes
bright eyes begging me to follow, making it up as we go along,
who needs the rule book, who has time to read?
and if there is a better way, we don’t need it;
we’ll take the mess. see,
we’re already there, and
if there is a better way, i wouldn’t know it
 Apr 2017 Ryan Hoysan
Ghenwa
Today is one of the days
when the night early, gets heavy on me.
And Today is one of those days when I just want to give up on everything
It was hard to get out of bed today, it was hard.
It was hard to work and work well
It was hard to smile to taxi drivers and keep conversations going
Because today I was stuck in my own brain
stuck in an endless conversation with myself.
And you know today is not the day to mess with me
Today is not the day to challenge me or encourage me
or mess with my emotions
I will be wreck, and I will cry, and I will scream and break glass

So please just don't make me feel worse than I already do.
 Apr 2017 Ryan Hoysan
Colm
The real question is not
“What will they do for me, once and when?”
But throughout the years
Throughout the struggle and the turmoil
Which is this human existence

I ask of you

“What instead have you been doing for them?”
To prepare yourself for this honest moment
In order to give something back
Instead of just having hallow words
To send and rescind

What then will you do?
When you finally understand?
And stand alongside this  
The deepest realization known to man
https://soundcloud.com/user-433755196/the-deepest-realization

In my mind it's this. To realize that love... Is not about you. It's not about your fleeting feelings (which may wither and fade). But it's all about the choice, and the realization of what you can do for them. But there are always more questions even after this...
 Apr 2017 Ryan Hoysan
LS Martin
No one breaks my heart
I create my own heartbreak
every time,
every 
single
time
I let myself believe in someone
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