I feel empty and drained

There is no thought

Just empty

God promised me Joy

So I will seek it

I will seek Joy in him

Sometimes I feel like I can't find it

But it was promised to me

Therefore it must be there

Maybe I will receive in it in just a little while

Maybe I must endure a little while longer

If so

I am at peace with that

I have come to God

I have come to see his wonders

I know I have the ability to be filled

But I must keep fighting

You will know

That one loves God

When they cry out on their knees

Thy will be done

It's what we are

We are all shameful

Disgusting

Harmful

Sad

Sickening

Yet we don't have a conscience that condemns us

It is to warn us of what our monstrosity will bring