Claire

Claire Mar 2021

it's never
your business
unless you see
an opportunity to gain
until they make it
your business

Claire Jan 2021

21:42

I gaze
into the heavens
each night.
I never miss
21:42.
The moment you left me.

And I picture
that it's you
that I see
in the stars.
Your new home.
Maybe
you can finally be happy there.

You were the light
in the dark galaxy of my life.
I need
to be with you
no matter what it takes.

Stars dance in my vision.
finally
finally
you chose to leave this world
there's no good in it
i always trusted you
so i must now

the clock
i must see
my last vision
shall be
21:42

#time #night #stars #love #sad #death

Claire Jan 2021

yourself

what's wrong with everyone?
cutting others down
doesn't bring you up.
does it put food on your plate
to see others decline?
do you have that much time
to waste thinking of others?

Keep your thoughts to yourself.

what's wrong with you?
spitting on your face.
why are you trying so hard
when they don't care about you?
you're already beautiful:
you don't see that.
but you see it so easily in others.

For once, put yourself first.

#hate #love #yourself #everyone #pain #fear

Claire Jan 2021

perspective

I'm not sad
                                                                                     I'm happy sometimes
I'm not lonely
                                                                              When I'm thinking of you
I'm not here
                                                                                                  Daydreaming
It's not a secret
                                                                                I told you this in dreams
I'm not imagining
                                                                                      They're all true to me
I'm not in love
                                                                          I'm misinterpreting emotion
I'm not yours
                                                                                      I let myself be owned
I'm not me
                                                                         I'm what everyone made me

#perspective #love

Claire Jan 2021

smile

I still smile.
I still laugh.
I still listen
to the songs
that always
gave me happiness
or made me cry.

I still cry
every night.
I still wonder
what
they would think
if they knew.

I still
think of you.
Then
I smile
once again.

#lgbt #pain #sad #you #depression #love #smile

Claire Jan 2021

You.

i knew You for years.
i understood You
i swear
i love you still.

but i didn't know you.
Then how could i love you.
i didn't know.
No.
i must have known that

So did You.

i loved you.
But i hated me more.

i didn't know
why
what happened to me

nobody did

i just lied.

of course i did.

You understood
You knew
You knew me
better than i did

No.
You didn't.

You might have had a little respect
if that was the case

No you wouldn't.

You said You understood.
You didn't.

You love me
You did then.

You ruined everything.

You would love me
if i told You
how much i love You.

i lied.

if You saw me.
inside.
how i think of You.
then You would hate me.
like i do.

I just lied.
maybe you could tell
you.
Not her
She couldn't understand.

i couldn't tell

i don't know anything.

it's the best i can do

Goodbye.

#pain #heart #love

Claire Jan 2021

pain

Pain
spreads
through
my fingers
my stomach
my heart
It consumes
my body
my mind
my soul
It consumes
my problems
my anxieties
my anguish
It consumes
loneliness
fear
emotion
i'm
filled up
with
Pain

at least
i'm not
Empty.

#pain #sad #fear