Todays a good day
In comparison with the usual
I've only been found wanting
For you back 3 times
And its past 3pm
Every time my phone chimes
I scramble
because it could be you
Though frankly if it was you
I would not know what to do
To hear your voice again
I can not say exactly
But it may ******* away promptly

How cruel life is
The cruelest of a mistress
For me to want to beg you
for your forgiveness
For calling you out
For what I saw

Truly I could not forget this
Even if I tried
Lips locked on the couch
Your hand on his jaw
A sliver of me that day died

I could not find the gusto
To ask what this was about
Though I was furious
So angry i saw red
All i could think to do
Was run away from the image
Burnt into my head

Months have passed
Your name no longer causes dread
No more do I get trashed nightly
To hide the voices screaming
When I lay down for bed
My hopes and dreams were smashed
For the future of you and me
When you decided to me do me *****

Now no longer do I want you
I do not wish to here your voice
I have grown now and realized
That forgiveness is my choice
It was not my fault
I am more than enough
I hope you find it tough
To realize the truth
That in life there are few
Who would love you as I did
It now all makes sense
I do not wonder why
Have but always wanting more
With this I say my last goodbye
I say this with reverence
Good luck, *****
Forever yours
C

The way the sun sculpts your face now
Provides the proof needed for divinity
With utmost grace you are endowed
Enthralled with your voice I feel affinity

With scintillating hair shining in sunlight
Your nose crinkling when you laugh
I find myself in delight
At your company and I have
Come to understand now
How Paris felt the fateful evening
He stole Helen of Troy away

For when I see you
It feels I look at Aphrodite
In the flesh and skin
Oh beautiful Maria

For you today I wrote a play
A tragedy, a comedy
I wrote with florid splendor
For all I want at the end
Of each day
Is to leave you gleeful
In wonder
At the brilliance of my wit
But most of all
My love
The fact I do not quit

Why did you decide today
To bring that up
I thought I had apologized and we had made-up
All I want from you and for me
Is to speak with civility
I dont like to raise my volume
Just to feel like I've been heard
What ever happened to being grown-up
We do not disagree
So why are we yelling
You complain to my face
Say my friends they lack grace
That I am too flighty
You say you just want a rock
To hold you down and be your anchor

I sit deep in thought and lay out a plan
As your man I cannot be your rock
For rocks sit still and degrade
But your mighty oak I will be
For they are anchors
But they are ever-growing as I plan to be

I stepped into my home
And felt like I was not home
The silence upon my entering the door
Was deafening
The depth of your absence
Was intimidating
I feel like you consider coming home a chore
While it's true that this is no longer your home
In my mind it will forever be mine and yours

The fear of failure pales in comparison
To the craving and attempt
At perfection
Where failure can be dejecting
Dampening to the confidence
Damaging the will to continue
I instead find myself devoted
To the attainment of my ambitions

Focused in my vision I steadily work
My faith in myself ferociously held firm
My destiny has been written
The stars have sang it to me since my youth
My future is undeniable
My ambition will be realized
No one person in this world
Can hold me back from my prize
My track will not be derailed

I'm morose and thinking of you
I wanted to create some mental distance
So I tried to think of why I dont have a crush
On you
The strangest thing happened
I smiled
I thought of your passion for life
For the sea and her creatures
Inexplicably I felt delight
At merely knowing you
If you were to reject me
My pride would feel wounded
I'm sure that I would be hurt
Yet it's my own self doing
I could accept it
To be your friend I would want to be

I know you're not looking
Which I find quite unfortunate
Because I believe I have seen
A lot of fair women
None as rare as you
Like a unicorn so elusive
A slight glimpse of your smile
Has me captivated and smitten
Your wit leaves me staring at a wall
With thoughts of the future at the forefront
Annoyed by their ever steady presence I submit
To the thought of you and I in a battle of wit

How funny and peculiar this is
I started with the intention of separation
Like the sun over the skyline over yonder
Instead I wrote a sappy poem
About you

If i continue i know the risk
To get shot down over sea
To find myself in a raft
Desperately peddling myself back towards peace and contentment
Yet this undertaking is daring
I could not resist the mission
For a man of romance and culture
What is more valiant than the fight for her heart?
With this line I do find peace
Before my campaign begins
Because if I fall i wont be floundering
My misery and shame will be gone
I accepted this of my own accord
My situation is my own doing

To be frank I would do anything for you
I aspire to be the man that you desire
I know there are other fish in the sea
Yet I dont feel like they are for me
I want to hold you and kiss you
To be bare and intimate
Like lovers do
To create a love so strong
It is it's own work of art

How do I tell you in as many words
That I am faithful honest and sincere
When I say that you're the one
My dear I wish you believed me
You look in a mirror and see no value
Yet you speak to me and I am inspired
Like the women of history and mythology
You have the potential to change the world

You are a gem of incalculable worth
Who's been wrongly valued since birth
I wish to show you from my perspective
The raw beauty and allure I am seeing
The way I see so much potential
Exponential growth from you is expected
You see your past and name yourself it
At the same time you walk away from it
It wounds me deeply that this is true to you
For what is there for me to do for you?
You do not believe me
When I speak honestly and true
My words sincere, spoken with pure heart
My mind on my sleeve I bare it to you
This is what I think of you