Chris Bee

Chris Bee Apr 2018

thirstiness
lost appetite
nausea
vomiting
diarrhea
lethargy
coma
cardiac arrest

Hmmm...

Sounds better than the alternative

Doesn't it?

#self #harm #overdose #depressed

Chris Bee Apr 2018

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A simple message is no less powerful than

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put some effort into actually

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is the truest:

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Having some fun with simple codes and such

#love #code #a1z26

Chris Bee Apr 2018

Binary

They Say
Say We
We All
All Have
Have To
To Be
Be One
One Way
Way Or
Or Another.

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Hopefully a little bit more positive than my usual content :D

#unique #binary

Chris Bee Apr 2018

Marco...

When I call out
into the nothingness of my bleak existence,
I desperately scream one thing:
"Marco..."

...and I let my absolute mundane, boring, maddening vacuum
absorb the echos,
and as the yell fades away to a yelp,
I waited for my answer.
And waited...

And waited...
And waited...
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"...Pollo," the void returned.

#lonely #void #love #hope #hopeful

Chris Bee Apr 2018

I Love You

I love you.
Yes, you;
I love you, reader.
For I love the human race.

I love that we can conquer our fears and defeat our weakness.
We can use our strengths to not just help ourselves,
but each other by being interdependent;
which brings me to my next point:

I love that we can come together when times get hard.
We can rely on each other,
we can work together, even after we have fought
over our different beliefs; speaking of which...

I love that we can have new and different ideas.
We can think independently and become stronger because of it.
From the conservatives to the liberals, and everything in between,
our differences don't matter because our similarities are stronger.

But Lastly, I love that we CAN love.
I love you, reader.
The same way I love my future wife
and my future children,
and I don't even know them!
Nor do I you...

But I still love you <3

Wrote this in a weird mood. Didn't try to polish it, sorry ;P

#love #3 #happy #hope #hopeful

Chris Bee Mar 2018

If it has to be said

i do NOT want to die.
i really do NOT.

...can you help?

#depressed #suicide #depression

Chris Bee Mar 2018

Edgy

You will probably say I’m edgy;
just a teen who constantly jokes
about suicide and such.
But do you know?

You will probably say I’m edgy;
just a teen who acts like a *****
to my family and close friends.
But do you know?

You will probably say I’m edgy;
just a teen who stays
up late at night and in his room.
But do you know?

But do you know?
i’m not making jokes.
i don’t want you to miss me.
i’m trying not to cut myself open.

But do you know?

#edgy #depression #selfharm