Being able to reason
with yourself
is the most painful thing ever
as you are
standing against
a brewing storm
of yourself
on your own.

My beloved,
It breaks my heart to see you
Crying out in pain
Suffering
Hating
Doubting
Please, my daughter,
Know that I have cried
Along with you
Every tear from your eyes
Has landed in my palm
I hear your silent screams
And my being aches with you
I vow to you
That I will never
Ever
Let you cry alone
I will never
Leave your side
And I will always
Remind you
In the midst of your
Agony
Grief
Self-loathing
That to me
You are the most
Precious
Valuable
Beautiful
Of all creation

I just sat there
Staring out the window
Her words like blowing rain
I close my mind a little tighter
But her words blow through me
Just the same

Trees cushioned in quilts of snow
Life has been frozen before, you know
But in the comfort of our loft
Our sheets are warm
Her covers soft

Seasons change like minds unmade
And snow can fall as deep as pain
Change shall come
In a quickening breath
And spring shall arrive
In the time that's set...