Your love was bright, nebolous and tore through me,
I think about you, and what we could be,
But you chose to burn me to the ground,
I try and escape, your memories, your sound,
Something new might grow,
Something different, that which I did not know,
For now, I am stuck picking up what is left
I choose to burn my bridges,
Feel my imperfections, my cracks and ridges,
You, a paper fire, turned me to ash,
But I will rise, from the ground,
Unabashed.

You never knew how much I loved you
I never asked much; just that you don't harm the one person I loved more than myself.
you.
Why didn't you think of me when you put the blade to yourself?
Why did you think I would survive that?
I now roam this abyss an empty shell
Treasuring the memories you gave me

The bliss of solitude
So beautiful
The chaos of madness
So appealing

Heed my advice
For I am the last thing you shall see
I am the one who created this world
And I am the one who shall end it
My word is law; my judgement is final.
Demons don't just come from hell
They live within us all.
Heed my advice
For I am the means of your liberation.

My feet go cold as I stare at the abyss
A sickening feeling in my gut
It's time to return
But am I ready?
Treading on this isolated path
Is there any return from this madness?
As the darkness envelopes me
I feel a sense of security... knowing there lies
something beyond this intermission
called life.

I wish no one in this world was sad
Then I remembered
*there's nothing called a free lunch

It isn't where you're from that matters
**its what you do that does

My body is broken
My dark past makes it hard to breathe
The ghost of old mistakes made
Haunt me.
They are all I see when I look into the mirror
I carry my broken heart, all that flows through my veins
Is darkness. Poison that others think is blood.
My face is a ragged mess; the dark circles and mouth twisted into a scowl
Shows that I am done.
I can only hope that
Death shall be a release.

There is bliss in solitude,
There might not be the comfort of a lover
However there is no heartbreak as well.
There might not be a person to talk to
But sometimes, the best and most sensible person to talk to is you
There might not always be love
But sometimes all you need is time alone, to yourself. To look into the endless abyss that is you
There might not always be happiness.
But solitude has its moments.
There is bliss in solitude.

Others were born to happiness and light
I.. I was made to walk in eternal night..

I once saw a leopard
A sleek, powerful animal
Walking with silent footsteps
Her eyes gleaming with unbreakable pride
A soft growl escapes from the fantastic feline
And I know better than to test this marvel of nature

The fog
Ghostly pale; soft as a feather
Covering everything in its path
Blocks the sight of men
Thick, pale fog, originating from a bog
Slowly creeping over the ground

Dark, full of despair
Crushed hope, beyond repair
A broken heart, lays forgotten
Broken dreams cry, laying there, rotten
All of us have a void in us
But few acknowledge it

As I stood on the edge
And looked on
I saw a black sky,
Darker than any I saw ere
White, foamy waves
Clashed against the black rocks
Akin to two armies clashing
Thunder shook the sky
A swift wind blew
Seagulls flew for home
And sat on their small ledges
The sea was choppy and dark
And hid secrets known to none

One day, as I walked near a river
I saw many a thing
The muddy water, creating beautiful swirls underwater
A tree standing in the middle of the river
Bent akin to an old man
A waterman, moving with graceful speed
Ripples, beautiful, yet hiding something in their movements
Turtles, swim with ease, sticking their head out
Birds, chirping and flying near the water
The sunset, setting the river on fire

Birds
So free
Neither do they have any restraints
Nor duties
Rushing through the skies
Like a shooting star
Be quick
Or you will lose sight of these beauties
The lords of the skies
Enigma of observers centuries ere
Colorful wings and beaks
Such a marvel to observe

Lighting
Oh so beautiful
Lighting up the sky
Long, fingerlike projectiles
Racing through the darkness
Lighting everything in its path
Yet, child, be wary
It is not unlike a leopard
Sleek and graceful
Yet dangerous if you attempt to harness it
'Tis akin to a wild animal
Yet so beautiful

There is a monster within me
It shows its hideous face only to me. So none can see
It meets me every day
When I wake up
It greets me in the mirror
Its black pits stare right through me
Its horrific smile
Teeth lined with blood
It eats me from inside
Destroying my every essence

As I walk into the cold cold river,
I start to quake and shiver
The water stabs my skin like knives
Cats have nine lives
I have only one
As I walk into the water
The bright sun
Is like a comforter
The cold seeps through my body
The birds in the distance
Chirp a sweet melody
All is lost now
This is my final bow
The cold hits my brain
I refrain
From going back
Everything goes black
This is hypothermia

Look, just beyond the edge
Is a place unknown
Unexplored; unexplained
A dark and mysterious place
Look into the abyss
And feel its power
IT is the darkness within us
Do not blink, or it will consume you

Swift as a cheetah
On its way to destruction
A great dark swirling mass
Of water,
Accompanied by the small minions
We call rain
And thunder
Lighting up the dark sky momentarily

Fire, so mystical
So beautiful and so unearthly
So willing a slave
Yet so brutal a mistress
Look into the fire
And dream of endeavors brave

Two armies, vast in number
Face each other, ready to ****
On both sides,
Men,
Missing home and hearth
Forced to ****
Because of one man's lust for power
The sun gleams brightly on the soldier's weapons
In the sky, vultures fly
anticipating
Waiting,
**for death

Beautiful in the sunlight
Flowing like quicksilver
Created unknowingly by birds of water
They look like liquid platinum

A darkness so profound
As I walk through this forest
Not one ray of light visible
Eyes, red as the fires of hell
Watch me from yonder the bushes
The trees whisper amongst one another
Wolves howl,
Beautiful songs by the children of the night

the best thing about silence is
That you can shout out with your thoughts
And no one's gonna think you're stupid

what are they?
Pearls of the sky?
Or the tears of an aerial maiden?
Whatever they are
They're beautiful

I was once walking down a path
When I saw an owl
He was looking at me;I was looking at him
I felt weirdly less full of wrath
Nay a smile nay a scowl
Came on my face
His yellow eyes were full of.. Thoughtfulness
Eyes, full of ancient wisdom
And knowledge
And so we sat conversing
Neither laughing; nor crying
Just like two old friends catching up
He stayed with me and we did sup
He was akin to a mystic creature
And at last
His time with me came to an end
He flew away, his wings flapping noiselessly in the night sky
And I sat thinking

as I walk through this forest,
I think of memories bygone
I now face the hardest decision yet
To walk this path on this forest or not
I once sought
A wise saint
When I reached his abode, I was ready to faint
He told me to always follow my heart
And play my part
Very well in other's lives
That I should never
Say words that hurt like knives
And that I should be ever
Forgiving
This darkness, so vast and huge
Seems to engulf my being
My soul; and the whole world
This darkness
Binds me

I did everything for you.
I let my life walk away
While promising myself it'll all be okay
I now look at the sky blue
Watching it change color and hue
Yet, you are too stubborn to even talk to me
"just let me be"
"I'm busy"
Is what you say after I get you whatever you want
I became lonely so you wouldn't be
I am patient with us
You, don't even care
I even share
My life with you
so you can have a better one
**and this is what I get. All that pulsates through me is anger, sadness and lonliness

I'm tired
The gun has fired
The damage done
I've had my fun
Now I lay me down to sleep
I watch my day seep
Through my fingers
As I fall into a dream
About me with a bunch of  diggers
The seam
Between reality and the dream world fades
We, me and the diggers, hand each other spades
But, we dig for no gold, old and wise
Nor for a diamond, big in size
But a place to sleep
We are tired, sore and meek
We seek
Shelter wherever possible
We don't need any place relax able
Just a place to lay our sore bodies
And float on the cookie boat
On the milk river
I'm tired
And I lay me down to sleep

Live, for yourself
Only then will you live life to the fullest
Don't let anyone tell you what to do
Ask yourself
Only then will you find the answers
Don't let anyone be your judge
Think, improvise and judge yourself
Only then will you find
That with all your imperfections
you're still perfect
Die, for yourself
Don't be anyone's slave
Don't ever let anyone think for you
Think for yourself
*be yourself

I don't know what I'm writing
All those untold stories
In my head; biting
Fighting for every inch
I'm held in a pinch
Torn between our histories
Trying to cope with the loss
All those emotions that I didn't release
Now attack me like a disease
All those memories
My soul is broken; crushed
I had rushed
To your aid when you needed me
But when I needed you, you said let it be
Now you shall see
How it felt to me

In life, you'll always meet jerks
Be grateful for them,
For if they weren't there
Your life wouldn't be called an *adventure

The war is done
But what of the damage?
One side lost, one won
How will the people manage;
To cope with the horrors
Many soldiers
Have died to fulfill
One man's folly
Many soldiers
Have died performing their duties
But all that is in the past
Let us now tie the sail
Tighter to the ship of peace's mast
And sail, leaving no trail
Of our horrendous past
This is not the end
This is aftermath
It is a new beginning
A new beginning
Where we can try not to fight.

Hey! Look at it!
We've done it, bit by bit
But we're at the end of this miserable day!
Now no one can push us down
Or call us a clown
Because we own this day
No one can say
"you're wrong"
Because we know that we are strong
inside
We've done it
We will stand from now on
Whenever they tell us to sit
We know we can take a it
Because we know we are strong
inside
We own this day
And we wont let it slip out of our hands

My final act
All the conditions in my pact
Are fulfilled and done
The laughs that I shared with you guys
Are now just empty, hollow sighs
I pack my stuff
Rough, worn and tough
From the adventures we had
I am now very sad
I have now reached the bend
Of this road
This, for me is the end
Here we say our good byes
There are tears in my eyes
I know, that I have made new friends, for life
Our friendship, stronger than steel, sharper than knife
Here, our paths separate
I am desperate
For one more act, one more adventure
Yet I know the time has come
For some,
There may he more
But for me, this is the end of the road
This is,
My final act

all those dreams
that I created
all those moments
when we lay on the grass
hand in hand
thinking about our future
together
but one fine day
you told me you didn't want to see me
I don't know where I went wrong
I got you flowers every day
told you you were beautiful
why did you leave me?
shattered, I now walk this snowy terrain
which was once sunny
but now, its just a wasteland
of broken dreams...

huddled up in the far corner of my room
waiting for my doom
he said it'd come soon
the man with no eyes
no one else sees him
they say its my whim
I yell, cut, scream
hoping to wake from this bad dream
but no
this is real
nothing's surreal
they crowd around me
and laugh, poke and jeer
until many a tear
fall from my eyes
I am afraid of being without someone
for I know
when they go
they take his or her place
I am afraid of the dark
I am...*schizophrenic

Oh the pain
they say there is no gain
without pain
but I have only received pain
no gain
you were the only one who didn't laugh at me
whatever it may be
but I saw you with him
I think it was my whim
to think
you loved me
I gave you my everything
and expected nothing
in return
you pained me
*why?

through the eternal dark I flee
while the monsters chase me with glee
through the shrubs I run
hoping they don't make fun
of my staggering gait
long have I fled
far too much have I bled
I know now
the end is near
everything I held dear
will not matter
log after log I cross
they are slippery; covered with moss
my feet splash in the blood red waters
my spirit shatters
as I near my end
I try to mend
my soul
but it is too late
the demons, they are my own
I must reap what I have sown
a cold wind has blown
through the eternal dark I flee
hoping to jump in the inferno

every day I put on a fake smile
hoping no one will notice
hoping there's enough in me to make that extra mile
my smiles are just masks
I hope no one comes and asks
"you okay?'

because I'm not okay
and I fear I'll just break
all those emotions shall break forth
I keep my secrets so no one knows the monster within
I am tired of the din
that goes on in my mind
I keep my secrets
so everyone thinks I'm okay.

You were my light
Now your gone
Nothing's bright
We were happy
Or so I like to think
I was too busy for you
Now I regret every moment I didn't pay heed
You were my light
Now you're gone
You left, crying
I was just standing, and I let you go
Now I regret that decision
I should have gotten on my knees  and told you how much you meant to me..
Now you're gone.. I'm in the dark..

we are beggars
we feed on scraps and wear tatters
we have nothing that matters
in this world
we cannot be bold
they say
"beggars can't be choosers"
we can prove them wrong any day
we didn't choose to live like this
we were forced to do so
corruption and lack of proper governance
we were the first to burn in the furnace
of human misery
no government makes us their priority
please pay attention to us
even we want to see our kids
board a school bus
and make a fuss
on which phone they want
even we want to flaunt
our cars and houses
we are beggars
and we want to live better.

As you left me standing in the cold,
I started thinking about memories old.
They... Once made of gold
Now hold...
No value in my heart.
You have taken my heart apart.

I am but left...
To scramble for scattered remnants.
A vessel bereft,
Of its erstwhile tenants...

On my knees...
Picking up pieces with sombre gait.
Mind only sees...
An fallen dance with the ghosts of late.

As I begin with a clean slate,
I can't imagine so much hate.
For someone who I loved...
I try and push your memory away
But in the effort I sway.
It is too much to bear...
I'd give anything to hear...
Another I love you,
From you.
What happened when we were together
Our bond...
Was supposed to last forever,
But now it's just an echo of memories fond.

These young initial steps that I take...
Will eventually hasten in pace.
Leaving behind the scars that ache,
And embrace the new breeze that cradles my face.


Vardaan Nayar
**ryn

Mother
You were always there for me
When no one else bothered
When I was smothered
In grief
You came and made it brief
You always find time
Never never expect a dime
In return
You're the best
Forget the rest.

I am torn between two choices
I am debating on whether to leave her
Or stay
What should I do?
She is never there when I need her
She doesn't understand my urgency
She doesn't understand
How much I love her
How every moment without her breaks me
She doesn't know I cry myself to sleep everyday
I  am always there for her
Whenever she needs a shoulder to cry on
Or to brighten up her day
I always say
I love you
She replies after a day
Saying "okay"

But whenever she IS there I feel on top of the world
I feel like its only her
No one else
She is beautiful and amazing
But now I'm thinking
About it
She says she has to go
She doesn't know how much it hurts to hear that
I'd rather be stabbed by knives
So
You tell me
What do I do?

the history of the world
as I thought one day, curled
by the fireplace
trying to find my shoelace
I sat and I wrote this poem
hoping that life after this wouldn't be such a bore
the world started with a bang
when the bell in God's brain rang
he created life
to please his wife
he made Adam but forgot to make his madam
thus time went on
and people made the plane
(I think the wrights were trying to please a dame)people thought it was lame
but the wrights didn't think the same
so time went on
and ****** was born
crying out loud
his mother was so proud
then everything went wrong
he said "let's fight!'
"we will defeat the world with his might"
he was so wrong
(pay attention class!)
again time went on
we fought two world wars
and someone created star wars
(lets jump forward in time now)
apple was created
everyone was elated
then everything went wrong as Steve jobs
who was doing such a good job
was removed from the post of CEO
everyone heard the news on the radio
he came back
and gave the board a smack
time went on
I was born
the heavens sung a song
India sent a spacecraft to mars
(not the chocolate bars)
the end to my poem has come
i'm  sorry I left so much
y'see I had to go for lunch
so the next time you have a history test
I wish you all the best
and the rest
is up to Him.