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syhlent blue Dec 2020
Seems like you have more pain than you have problems
still trying to find yourself but you’ve lost it

Life has consumed every piece of you
Not one drop of hope in sight to cling on to

Now it’s just about surviving not how you survive
But who would have known it was possible to be alive yet so dead inside

So numb that you can’t feel the depth of love

So blind from the tears that you wear your insecurities on your sleeve

Even standing in the mirror you don’t see the person that I see

What you don’t know is that you are a trophy
And even in your dark times I think your sins are holy

Poor in spirit with a Heart full gold
Everything you went through is the most beautiful story never told

Don’t let words break you instead let it water you to help you grow
Because now It’s time to fall in love with your mind, body, and soul

Each flaw is so flawless even though you feel so incomplete

You may think you’re broken
but I don’t know
all I see is a masterpiece ...
It’s okay not to be okay but you will be okay
  Oct 2018 syhlent blue
Petrichor
To all the women I've  ever called pretty,
before strong or intelligent,
I am sorry.

I am sorry I made it sound as though
something as simple as what you're born with
is the only thing you could be proud of
when you have crushed the sky.

I will, from now, call you resilient, or extraordinary.
Not because you are not pretty,
but because you are so much more than that.
Heres to strong women.
May we know them.
May we be them.
May we raise them

- Rupi Kaur
syhlent blue Jul 2018
It’s easy to smoke the pain away

But its hard when the pain comes back the next day

Everything just be so temporary

That’s why I make my body a sanctuary

I praise my thoughts

I’m in a close relationship with my mind
and today is our anniversary

Sometimes I be feeling so out of place

I be wanting you close to me but I’m so use to space

You could be perfect for me but I would still push you away

Don’t take this personally I’m just so use to pain

I hate this tension but tbh I just be wanting your attention

It just ***** cause my hearts not really attentive

I’m in a bad place mentally

Can you make love to me physically

And spiritually heal me inside

I swear I don’t hate you

I’m just inside my mind...
syhlent blue Apr 2017
****** my mind
Waste my time

Pull me close
Push me away

Walk into my life
Hastily run away

Show me you are different
Convince me that you are the same

Repair my heart
Tear it apart

I look at the dark side

I expect disappointment

I see that true colors always hide

I fear attachment

I know words always contradicts actions

I have discovered that happiness only turns into sadness

Beautiful clouds hold rain

It's a tragedy waiting to happen

The only way to be saved is to save yourself

I can't be loved if I don't love myself

I never found who I am

So how did I lose myself?

How can something so shallow create depth ?

My mindset is mindless

I have reached my limit

Now I'm boundless

I know my worth

But somehow you made me feel worthless

I was full of energy

But somehow you made me feel drained

So why do I settle for less ?

It's because I'm use to pain ...
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syhlent blue Mar 2017
****** is ******

That's physical

Pain is pain

That's physical

But depression is corruption

That's mental

Mentally the pain destroys the mind

Emotionally the mind can't destroy the pain

If you haven't been broken you cant relate 

It's a deep feeling that you can't explain

It drives you crazy

Then the thoughts become your passenger

And before you know it the old you is sitting in the backseat  

Thoughts going 90 miles per hour

You become your darkest moment

Blending in with your shadow

 Opinions start to define you

Overthinking becomes your drug

You are an addict

Lost in oblivion

Overdosing on what scares you the most

You tried facing your fears but ended up looking at yourself

you are  your worst nightmare
syhlent blue Nov 2016
She craved only attention
  
  Looks can really ****
      
She overdosed on temptation

   Just a broken soul convinced that her only match is pain

 She falls apart
 
Each piece like a drop of rain

   Rejecting love because she couldn't see its face

   Mentally unstable because she's only been surrounded by inconsistency

Stumbling on false hopes

   Hopelessly holding on to what she wish she had

Running through nobody's mind

      Feeling utterly alone
 
 She's lonely

      Searching for just one dose of relief
 
She melts into her mixed emotions
   
 Drowning in her tears
  
She's losing it

Finding nothing but her wasted time

I wanted to save her
       
    But redemption was way too far

She's irredeemable...
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