Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
 Mar 2015 Emily Rene
AFJ
Goodbyes are never good.
And hellos are never hell...
Well..
Howcome its always hard to tell?

When i met Amy..
she waved, like the ocean in the horizon view.
i mean, picture a Goddess herself, locking her eyes on you,
hypnotizing you,
Telling you all infinity lies in you,
Her heart hides in you,
Her vocal tone rises you...
Like the tide..

under the horizon view..

but her theory was dark. Like the side of the moon we don't see..
Weird, *** most of the time she was joyous and joke-sy.

But she had a mental intent.
to rent, an individuals mind until her emotion was spent.

Pitched up her tent,
Now she lives in my head.
i cant get rid of her, feeling blue when shes wearing red.
i cant get ahead..

i need her,
I bleed her.
i read her.
i see her.
She runs thru my mind mind so much,
even my feet hurt.

but shes evil.
Reveling in my chaos and depression.
her sole mission is to leave me well wishin..
fishing for hope, with nothing in my view.
except the horizon.
i cant forget her eyes'n....
the way she caressed my hand in the midst of my anger.
but its sad to say her theory just brings me danger..

she says she cant be happy if im happy.

i cant believe she can say that,
I mean,
sure shes a Ten..
sure shes a friend..
sure when i ask her to come over she always says, when..
i mean i dont ever wanna put her down...
Amy's my PEN.
the pen that stood beside me when i wrote my lifestory.
the pen that stays truthful even if it gets gory.
the pen that keeps me sane and even takes over for me,
The pen that allows me the hope to reach glory..and see..
the same pen that forces me write daily im trapped,
Confined in this desk, Hennessy spilled on my lap,
lost in life, blank map im tryna fill in the gap,
Last thing i needs a fucken object that keeps giving me crap!

Still ill love her forever, and never ever leave, thatll never occur...
my pen, i named her amy and sometimes i feel that i write for her.



-afj
There will come a time when
I have to choose a path
And I know it will be the one
That leads away from you....

You're dead to me.
You'll regret leaving me.
I assure you.
But I wont be awaiting the return
Of someone who treats me like you did

Ungrateful *****.
 Feb 2015 Emily Rene
Haruka
I have fallen into the rhythm of goodbyes.
The steady beat of feet against tile
the sound of slamming doors and
echoing walls.
See, the worst part
is the silence that follows.
The all-consuming ringing that coats your ears
and kisses down your spine.

Loving him was like hearing
every goodbye I've ever heard
all at once.


"I can't do this anymore."

I have fallen into the rhythm
of unrequited love.
my heart is hurting
What can I do to make you love yourself again ? You literally make me the happiest person on earth. When I wake up you're the first thing in my mind and I dream about you when I sleep. My whole day is preoccupied with thoughts of you. When I think of beautiful sounds I think of your voice. When I think of beautiful sights I think of your smile. I wish I could do something to make you see this is all worth while. I want you to love you the way that I do. When you look in the mirror I want you to see a person that emanates light from all your pores and supernovas in your iris. You're all the good things I could never find in myself. My other half. But I've blinded you to these things through my own moronic action and ethical pitfalls. And for that, I'm truely sorry... I love you so much... Please don't leave me..
The pain is real ...
I got up this morning
And tasted the air
And it held a twinge of salt
And regrets I can do nothing about
It held a taste of
the bitterness
That comes after actions you wish you hadn't committed
And it made my mouth twist and contort
Into the only shape it feels comfortable in now,
As I mutter "I love you.."
I know you're not thinking of me
 Dec 2014 Emily Rene
jamie
L.D.R.
 Dec 2014 Emily Rene
jamie
if i keep the receipts i can pretend
that we’re still going out to lunch together,
that your phantom arm is around me at night,
that you’re still here.

i can pretend that you’re not in new york,
and me, i’m not here.
i hoard the receipts and the tickets and
the programs and the take out menus.

i sleep with your sweatshirt under my body
and i, i remember each breath we took in unison.
i imagine that you’re not away
because we are both universal, anyway.

i never cried at the bus stop,
or the train station.
instead i hoarded the tears until i was so full
of water that i broke.

because we can pretend that this is easy
and worth it, it will be,
but at the end of the night
i’m still clutching papers and cloth

with all of my might.
please know that this is extremely gay and i am a queer
 Dec 2014 Emily Rene
Styles
The day we met,
My heart skipped over hi,
And fell in love.
 Dec 2014 Emily Rene
Rhianecdote
I'm sorry that you think
I opened my legs
and closed my mind to you.
I'm sorry that
that was partly true
because my feelings
I no longer knew
how to speak to you,
But I hoped I could show you,
Through my body,
through acting as
release for you.
Even though I knew
freedom in another way
is what you'd choose...
From me...to you
I'm sorry that every time
you slipped into me
I slipped a little further
away from you.
And that when I cried
that night unexpectedly,
wasn't because that intimacy
was overwhelming,
it was the distance
I felt in that closest
of moments,
first time I
experienced lonely.
And I'm sorry
cause this was not
what I had planned.
But most of all I'm sorry
that I couldn't
make you understand
all I really wanted was to
hold your hand .



*And now as we Part I Wonder Who will Restart this Handheld Heart?
Next page