pearl

pearl Mar 2020

hellbent

hellbent on slaughtering
the devils at my door
held an exorcism
so they can't hurt me anymore
mouthful of sin
the father has me on my knees
because i won’t pray for him
i owe him no apologies
i’m not your disciple
i fear no god
i won’t follow blindly
the pious lies that i’ve been told

i will sin to spite you

#religion #christian #godfearing #god #agnostic #lies #piety #**** #sin

pearl Mar 2020

hell

you pushed me into the pits of hell
and expected me
to be able to climb back out

alas, i had no ladder.

#hell #abuse #betrayed #betrayal #sad #upset #**** #cocsa #trust #love

pearl Mar 2020

leave no trace

you were so careful not to leave bruises
you knew exactly what you were doing
so careful not to leave a mark but so insistent
on handling me roughly and reducing me to nothing
you called me such horrible things that day
“****,” you said
“*****,” you said
despite the fact that you forced
your grimy hands on me
you FORCED me to do EVERYTHING
*******
I HATE YOU

i hope you burn in hell. *******

#abuse #sexualassault #cocsa #metoo #**** #bruises #trauma #ptsd #traumatic #flashback

pearl Mar 2020

CoViD-19

perhaps
this is mother earth
killing us off
before we **** her

think about it, won't you?

#activist #climatechange #coronavirus #covid19 #earth #pollution #globalwarming #pandemic

pearl Mar 2020

don't go outside

don't go outside
      dare you step outside of your dwelling
      you will fall victim to the pandemic
      it will take your freedom
stay inside, stay inside, stay inside
      foolish are you if you so choose to venture to the market
      everywhere you go feels abandoned
      all the shelves are emptied of things that were previously
      overstocked...
don't
    go
       outside

#covid19 #illness #pandemic #coronavirus #fear #socialdistancing #fearofsickness

pearl Mar 2020

cemetery

he ripped the words from my throat
he locked them away
in a box that he calls a 'coffin'
he dug a pit
and buried them six-feet-under
next to the
grave where my innocence lay

#death #trauma #ptsd #**** #sexualassault #grave #traumatized #metoo #stolen #monster

pearl Mar 2020

cutting board

you are the reason
that i sliced into
the flesh of my legs
and left lines
like the ones on mama's cutting board
where she chopped up fruit

but my body isn't a cutting board

#**** #triggerwarning #sexualassault #cocsa #ptsd #trauma #metoo #traumatized #symbolism