as I close my eyes I paint a picture.
it is you, again.
my pencils are filled with colour,
a perfect mixture

and it seems,
as if these shades
only exist in my dreams

I draw you, line by line
I play with the thought,
you might wanna be mine

I draw your skin,
you’re smiling eyes,
your chin

I draw the lips I’d like to kiss,
but what is this?

you’re not here,
not even close

and if you read this;
I am painting.
for you, 
I’m still waiting.

- gio

we met in springtime.

while kissing my lips
with your sweet taste
of pollen,
you made me blossom
one more kiss from you
and I had fallen

but when my leaves began to wilt,
you left, free like a hummingbird.

and as my petals were tumbling down,
my beauty was fading away.
I cried so you would stay,
but our love was already
laying on the ground.

I saw you kissing a rose,
without ever cutting yourself on its thorns.

how stupid of me,
to think I was the only flower in your garden.
that’s when I knew for sure,
that I would no longer be your guardian.

that you would be the one dying in the next storms,
while I would be in he one with thorns.

- gio

choose people who choose you
this is what I’m gonna do

reciprocal relationships
is what I’m looking for
don’t want to be hurt
and disappointed no more

expectations from wrong relations
I should be more patient

so you made your choice
and it wasn’t me
there was a lot of noise
inside of me

heart over mind;
it’s a problem
for mankind

could have given you the world, wow
but it’s okay,
I get it now

you don’t want to be loved by me
so I will go and set you free

but there is something
I want you to know

a truth that wants to glow
a fact I’m sure of
this right here
is your loss.

- gio, 09.04.2020

I got this weird feeling about you, as if I knew
that one day you would be my boo

I chase other boys
to fill up the void
the empty space you left
as you began to ignore my text

I still crave you
do you want me too?

emotion against brain cell
is this heaven or hell?

feels like I’m stuck in between
I can’t escape what could have been

so I will just wait for you
maybe one day you’ill have it too
this weird feeling about me being your boo

- gio, 10.04.2020

can you leave, please?
I want to be alone and grieve

grieve for you
and the fact that
you don’t feel
the way I do

stop messing with me
I need some vitamin c

think I’m gonna pass out
you know what this is about

it could be a simple „sorry“
„can we start over
or write a new story?“

but this won’t happen
and if yes, in my dream
’cause we’re not even a team

I think about you every day
begging for a single replay

your name is written
on the walls of my mind
I can’t wipe it off
its like graffiti
and the paint is sticky

- gio, 10.04.2020

I have to be honest
thought you were flawless

turns out you’re not
and those imperfections
make you ******* hot

there’s no one like you
and it’s my heart I have to stick to

these other guys can’t bring me pleasure
for me, you’re the only real treasure

I have to be honest with me
it’s still you, all I see

so for peace at heart
I prefer falling apart

that’s my point of view
it’s better to crave your emotions
than knowing someone new

so baby, once you read this
and realize it’s about you
just come through.

- gio, 01.05.2020

goodbye my almost lover
guess we will never discover

discover what could have been
between us two
what we could have win
together, me and you

thought I could be your bae
still thinking about us
at the end of the day

I thought that if we vibe, we vibe
didn’t need words to describe

but I don’t understand
it turned out all different
as than I planned

so goodbye my almost lover
maybe one day we will recover

recover the days we’ve lost
the paths left uncrossed

because life is full of second chances
and I might get a happy end, romantic.

- gio, 01.05.2020

I was too real
now I need to heal

I exaggerated again
gave you love, in vain

and yet, my biggest burden
is to learn and accept
that I am the most important person

so before spreading all this love
I should put myself above

that’s why I made a pact
so I know for a fact
it’s me I have to protect

and I promised me
I would never again
give my love in vain.

gio, 01.05.2020

dear soulmate, please hurry up
how many men have to ruin my makeup,
until you finally find your way to me,
so that I can be free?

free of suffering, free of heartbreaks
tell me how many days it takes

or is it years?
a billion tears?

dear soulmate, please hurry up
how many times do I have to stand up,
after falling to the ground,
where my heart full of scars has been found?

dear soulmate, please hurry
for I, no longer have to worry

my desire is to heal
so tell me, how many weeks does it take until you reveal,
until you show your true face to me,
so that we both can be free?

and how much time will I spend,
waiting for amor to send
an emotion that is true,
so I can live forever loving you?

- gio, 27.03.2020

I’m sorry boo,
maybe I’m too much for you.

my mind keeps thinking too much
and you’re afraid of my touch

I’m too heavy, too intense
or maybe you’re too weak, no offense

I’m too smart, too elegant
don’t want to sound arrogant

I’m too emotional, too loud
and hell yes, I’m ******* proud

too this, too that
I don’t want to chitchat

so I’m sorry boo,
but maybe I’m just too much for you.

- gio, 22.03.2020

you were supposed to make me smile
thought we could enjoy this moment for a while.

now I’m feeling sad because of you,
keep questioning the things you do.

I wonder if you’re capable of nice words,
I know you’re not the worst.

but sometimes I wish you would be kind,
that the memory of my face would cross your mind.

but you don’t care about me,
I guess your life is all you see,
and our energy is not equally.

your time is precious and all that matters,
you don’t even realise when my heart shatters.

I feel like I don’t deserve your emotions.

I’m not even talking about love,
it could be just us two, having a good laugh.
some attention or act of kindness, so I know you care. this would be fair.

but yeah, I’m not worth enough,
and the landspace of your heart seems kinda rough.

it could have been nice with us two,
but people won’t change, I know that’s true.

it’s too much to ask, right?
I’ll better get going, gonna catch my flight.

because you know what boo?
I deserve someone new,
and the only one who is unworthy of my feelings is you.

- gio, 06.01.2020

no início você me beijava tão suave
para abrir esse portão só você tinha a chave

e mesmo possuindo o meu coração
você fez eu perder a respiração

não estou falando de alegria

várias vezes foi você quem me magoou
até que a chave se quebrou

eu parei de me iludir
a única coisa que eu quero agora é fugir

e saiba que a porta do meu coração
para você nunca mais irá se abrir

- gio, 2018