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Jun 2019 · 225
freely forgiving
free
what does that mean to me?
it means not being ashamed of what I see in me
sure I stumble, sure I fall
but I get back up ready to face it all
I do have regrets that I can never forget
but that's not stopping me from taking a breath
or living my life despite struggle and strife
I've had it hard, had it easy
some days are dark some days they please me
and you've had good and bad days too
like others around you
around us, we're everywhere
sometimes we're selfish, ignorant, sometimes we care
just not at the same time and not the same place
we see things from different perspectives different mind states
one thing I know well is that to be free you must forgive
let go of your anger and let others live
have faith that justice will come in it's due time
you can't put out a flame with fire but you can be kind
to those who do you wrong
remember the silent can be strong
if we all gave in to anger, sought revenge, and hurt each other
can there be peace with our fathers, mothers, sisters, brothers, sons and daughters?
I can contain the pain I feel
even if it means crying to the God who hears
some people have no one to cry to
they feel unloved so they show no love to others too
we can't force others to show love
but we can be the one to show them that that is what we're made of
Jun 2019 · 212
How to Poem (refresher)
well it seems I forgot how to rhyme
so it’s back to writing basic lines
though I cannot be confined
by simple words and bars
I got to use ideas to set the mind free
and understand this poetry is a piece of what’s inside of me
it’s not an outer shell or disguise
what others think doesn’t matter
what I think shouldn’t matter
rather
it’s what I feel that matter’s most
emotion is the soul of a poem
without it it’s just an empty dome
a skull without a mind
a painter who is blind
now my eyes have opened
and now i can see
that to write poetry
is more than just words and rhymes
it’s the revealing of the soul
the person deep inside
Jun 2019 · 167
Rescued from the Last Enemy
as I sink into this quicksand of sadness
the silence seems to seep into the mind
it’s madness
before I know it I’m lost in the blackness
surrounded by the dead once again
it’s back to lifelessness and darkness
it’s then I get detached from reality
I feel like I’m submerged under the sea
holding my breath for an eternity
slowly sinking into a never ending abyss
wishing I did not ever exist
that’s when the Last Enemy strikes
whispering in my ear giving me wicked advice
like if I should’ve never been born
then why not end my life?
“it’ll only take a little while”
“it’ll only last forever”
“it’ll only hurt a little while”
“it’s now! it’s now! or never!”
there I am staring at the mirror
tears in my eyes wishing I could see clearer
about to take my own life away
will this be my last day?
more questions come and fear grips my heart
what if I wake up tomorrow in a hospital bed
with more pain than what was at the start?
what if I wake and see loved ones with tears in their eyes?
and instead of having peace I’d have broken all their hearts?
these thoughts were enough to make me go even more insane!
I cried even harder at these thoughts
I cried so hard the pain grew stronger
I cannot go on living like this any longer
so with all my might I prayed to God
and begged him please if you’re really there
then show me at least that you care
and give me hope please make me stronger
I cannot run from pain any longer
it was then I slept into a slumber
and dreamt of peace and forgot my blunders
and then the darkness was gone and the storm was over
and for this I thank the Lord Jehovah
Jun 2019 · 152
You
You
Who am I?
Who I am
I am who?
I am who I am
My name matters not
To strangers a lot
They pass me by
Without even saying hi
And in turn I
Don't even bother saying goodbye
Why we don't care
About each other's welfare
Is beyond what I'm aware
Maybe it's because
We're all afraid
The other person will misbehave
And cause us pain
So we ignore each other's names
After all
The other person could be insane
So we stay in our lane
But some are the opposite
They smile and because of it
I smile back and we talk a bit
And after a bit of chatter
We find our names do matter
And we feel safer
When seeing each other later
I wish this was
How it was for all of us
So let me begin
By doing the same thing
And let me ask you
Who are you?
"Who you are"
You are who?
Your name matters to me too.
Jun 2019 · 163
Next to Me
So you say you’re having trouble. Why?

Is it because you fear my eyes?

I don’t understand

Why you won’t let me hold your hand

Is it me or is it them?

Just close your eyes and tell me how you’ve been

We don’t even need to touch

No need for skin on skin

This is something too pure

It’s something far from sin

We don’t even need to talk

Just sit with me in silence

And let the others gawk

Unless you want to be alone

Then I’ll leave you be

Just know this in your heart

That you’ll always be standing next to me
Jun 2019 · 194
Faceless Woman
I loved a faceless woman
In the shadowy dark
The touch of her skin
Was a healing to my heart

Slowly she let me in her
She was infinitely deep
She gives me peace
When i fall asleep
Jun 2019 · 153
Excuse me miss
Excuse me miss
Have we met before?

I noticed you
By your mothers store

You shook my heart
My very core

When we parted ways
I was very sore

Now that youre gone
I dont feel no more

If you are reading this
Then please know

That my heart
For you

Is an
Open door
Jun 2019 · 127
Death Delays
Im waiting so long for Death
I guess he must be late
Im starting to worry
That thisll be a never ending story
But please dont give me hope
Because i can do without it
I get stronger by the second
Theres no doubt about it
Jun 2019 · 114
Two Lover's Point
Meet me at the Two Lover's Point
We'll jump off the cliff
Tie our hair together
And jump to our death

Because theres a Spanish general
Who wishes to steal my love
To be forever seperated
Is treason to our Gods'

When we reach our destiny
Amongst the edge of the cliffs
Well jump off
And turn into two fish
Jun 2019 · 129
The forgotten author
This Tree is dead
It fought the drought
No one cares
No drop of water
Not even her tears
Gone are the years
Long forgotten
Erased memories

Stories are just stories
The forgotten author
Is now without home
Out in the world
All on his own
Unknown and unnoticed

Never was there a Ghost in the Shell
Never was there a flame in Hell
Into the never ending well he fell
No one reads these stories
I tell.
Feb 2017 · 1.1k
Quest-ions
Quest-ions
A quest to find an answer
where an answer is your destination
Called out of the darkness, the children of God
drawing ever nearer to the light way over the horizon
Eyes accumulating information while illuminating universes
Every action leaves a fingerprint in history fueling the fires of the future
a flame that flickers feverishly for all awaiting the conclusion of the suffering
We are the ones who stole the fire from the flaming sword in the Garden of Eden
to chase away the darkness and hunt the beasts to be sacrificed and devoured
to shed light on the mysteries, to open what the Maker has concealed
to reveal the burning lies that ravaged paradise on this earth
A burning passion within, we mourn those burned alive
the innocent, humanity is just a war-torn family
I am the one caught in the middle
riddled with rain drops
the pain stops
Jan 2017 · 1.7k
A Humble Man's Dreams
A humble man people say I am
And indeed in life I may be
But in my dreams greatness radiates from me

When I’m feeling good I unite countries
clothe the poor, feed the hungry
fame is my destiny

When I’m feeling down I’m a beastly terror
I chase after cops and do unspeakable horrors
And I always win wars

But that’s just my dreams
Humble old Paul
That’s what I’m known for
Dec 2016 · 442
Worlds of Wisdom
I seek wisdom outside of these walls
a prisoner locked in a cell
It ain’t hard to tell
every answer to a question
unlocks the door with a key
now I AM FREE
I dive deep into the ocean of subconsciousness
then rise up and breathe the air of wisdom
I can tell you the true value of freedom without peace
and peace without freedom
I am dark as I live not evil
the black cloud over my head
fills me up with dread
but I’d rather be alive not dead
the measure of our misery is a mystery to me
but that mystery is yet to be faced
in time I hope I find the courage to grow
Oct 2016 · 606
Infinitely Limitless
Exploding into countless pieces

travelling across vast distances of space

uncatchable

trembling with enormous amounts of power

I have surpassed the infinite

I hold the reins of time

slow it down, rewind it, fast forward

I polished the stars

set the sun ablaze

the planets I have put in motion

and that universe is but one page in my book

a book in an immense library

a library I have conjured with my mind’s power

my limitless imagination
Sep 2016 · 480
paperplane
Hey...
it's been awhile
since we've first met
do you remember who I am?
do you remember playing hide-and-seek?
I reminisce, how time flies, I never even got to say good-bye
you never even got to say good-bye, time flew by, and we split paths
and we've changed a lot since then, we are just old friends to each other by now
I hope you're doing fine, I wish you all the best, we might not ever see each other again
I just want to let you know...
I miss you
Sep 2016 · 710
Now I am Free
I'm sitting here all alone writing a verse

first things first I need to empty my soul

then listen to my heart yo my heart is whole

why can’t everyone be like me yo live peacefully?

I understand you feel pain but so do I

you don’t see me whine and gripe

you don’t hear me complain but I do cry

suicide even crossed my mind I wanted to die

but what I really wanted to do is live in the sky

somewhere high where I can see the whole world

these words that I spit seem to be attracted to me

I just want to be all I can be

don’t care too much about what’s on t.v.

Just waiting for the end yo I need a best friend

the loneliness rocked my mind

trapped in a cage outside of time

I'm left with nothing but these words to rhyme

words that used to punish my mind

I never did a crime all I did was think too much

wonder about God and Life and such

Everlasting life would that be possible?

Are you the same person that said nothing is impossible?

every question every answer

every door every key

Could you please open one for me?

I'm not trying to get in

I'm trying to get out

once I get out

I'm a shout

and say

Now I am Free
Aug 2016 · 1.3k
Lifeless Darkness
Darkness all I see is Darkness
I never meant to be so Heartless
World so cold now I’ve turned into Iceness
Death embrace me down I lay lifeless
lifeless....

Lyrictricity my brain conjures electricity
every thought blasts shock-waves
only the fool would dare to see
Can you blame the anger that my music taught me?
so cold and heartless surrounded by darkness
I just needed a friend to be with me till the End
I screamed at the darkness
and in return all I heard was silence(all i heard was silence)
surrounded by fools who tried to bring me down
but instead I brought them up
and that was never my intention
a book told me to be strong
no matter how wrong the world seemed to be
The downfall of Babylon come to me

Darkness all I see is Darkness
I never meant to be so Heartless
World so cold now I’ve become Iceness
Death embrace me Down I lay lifeless
lifeless...

Alone for an Eternity
the Pain trapped deep down Inside of me
If I let it all out it can put a hole through this world
My mind has unfurled
I saw you - the Light
but you never saw me - the Dark
and now I’ve fallen into insanity
searching for the man inside of me
But I saw a boy just wanting to be free(just wanting to be free)
call me a Hater but that’s what happens
When too much Pain engulfs you
You lose your mind and become numb to love(become numb to love)
I look above then slaughter the doves

Darkness all I see is darkness
I never meant to be so heartless
World so cold now I’ve become Iceness
Death embrace me now I lay lifeless
lifeless...

lifeless
All I am is lifeless
slaughtered down before the Highness
waiting for the righteous
crown to bring me down into the Darkness
A thousand years of loneliness
A thousand years of holiness
no Fairy god-mother can uncurse this
corpses is ready for the Darkness
will forever be lifeless

lifeless all I am is lifeless
surrounded by the Darkness
World so cold now I’ve become Iceness
Death embrace me down I lay lifeless
lifeless.... .
Aug 2016 · 810
Grandfather
I have a son
I have to feed
even if
I have to bleed
I will provide
what he needs
I only pray
that when he's grown
that he will reap
the seeds I've sown
and when he has
his own son
he will remember
the deeds I've done
and do his best
to raise his son
to be a man
of wisdom
to find the keys
to God's kingdom
Aug 2016 · 296
Winter Calls
Like a plant that suddenly withers
I feel lonely in the winter
I’ve made some mistakes in the past
wondering how long I can last
living and dreaming as one
Why must we suffer before we’ve won?
any sense from me fell like the autumn leaves
Do I love you? I don’t know
maybe it’s time for me to go
go...
go....
Winter Calls good bye
Aug 2016 · 1.9k
Birds of a Feather
Birds of a feather
flock together
in any weather
rain or shine
my bird friend
will always be mine
you will always be mine
through fierce weather
and thunder and lightning
nothing will we find frightening
through heated skies
we will fly
up high and down low
together we will find
joy.
Jul 2016 · 480
carrying on...
I remember the days when I was innocent
not a care in the world, no trouble on my mind
the first ten years golden, they lasted forever
who knew the day would come when I and her would be severed

love is lost then came anger then sadness
who knew that that would be enough to beat me near death
I wipe the tears and tend to my wounds
confused I find myself lost and afraid

I muster up every ounce of courage left in me
and I continue this long and awful journey
I know not where I go
I just know I mustn't stay here....
Jul 2016 · 476
Who Am I?
Who am I?
Who I am
I am who?
I am who I am

My name matters not
till it matters to you
I love you
won't you love me too?

— The End —